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Title: Lilian
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Lilian, in dark blue office frock with an embroidered
red line round the neck and detachable black wristlets
that preserved the ends of the sleeves from dust and
friction, sat idle at her flat desk in what was called
"the small room" at Felix Grig's establishment in
Clifford Street, off Bond Street.  There were three
desks, three typewriting machines and three
green-shaded lamps.  Only Lilian's lamp was lighted, and
she sat alone, with darkness above her chestnut hair
and about her, and a circle of radiance below.  She
was twenty-three.  Through the drawn blind of the
window could just be discerned the backs of the
letters of words painted on the glass: "Felix Grig.
Typewriting Office.  Open day and night."  Seen
from the street the legend stood out black and clear
against the faintly glowing blind.  It was 11 P.M.\par

That a beautiful young girl, created for pleasure
and affection and expensive flattery, should be sitting
by herself at 11 P.M. in a gloomy office in Clifford
Street, in the centre of the luxurious, pleasure-mad,
love-mad West End of London seemed shocking and
contrary to nature, and Lilian certainly so regarded
it.  She pictured the shut shops, and shops and yet
again shops, filled with elegance and costliness--robes,
hats, stockings, shoes, gloves, incredibly fine
lingerie, furs, jewels, perfumes--designed and
confected for the setting-off of just such young
attractiveness as hers.  She pictured herself rifling those
deserted and silent shops by some magic means and
emerging safe, undetected, in batiste so rare that her
skin blushed through it, in a frock that was priceless
and yet nothing at all, and in warm marvellous sables
that no blast of wind or misfortune could ever
penetrate--and diamonds in her hair.  She pictured
thousands of smart women, with imperious command over
rich, attendant males, who at that very moment were
moving quickly in automobiles from theatres towards
the dancing-clubs that clustered round Felix Grig's
typewriting office.  At that very moment she herself
ought to have been dancing.  Not in a smart club;
no!  Only in the basement of a house where an
acquaintance of hers lodged; and only with clerks
and things like that; and only to a gramophone.  But
still a dance, a respite from the immense ennui and
solitude called existence!\par

She had been kept late at the office because of
Miss Grig's failure to arrive.  Miss Grig, sister of
Felix, was the mainspring of the establishment,
which, except financially, belonged much more to her
than to Felix.  Miss Grig energized it, organized it,
and disciplined it, in addition to loving it.  Hers
had been the idea--not quite original, but none the
less very valuable as an advertisement--of remaining
open all night.  Clever men would tell simpletons in
men's clubs about the typewriting office that was
never closed--example of the inexhaustible wonderfulness
of a great capital!--and would sometimes
with a wink and a single phrase endow the office
with a dubious and exciting reputation.  Miss Grig
herself was the chief night-watcher.  She exulted in
vigils.  After attendance in the afternoon, if her
health was reasonably good, she would come on duty
again at 8 P.M. and go home by an early Tube train
on the following morning.  One of the day staff
would remain until 8 P.M. in order to hand over to
her; as a recompense this girl would be let off at
4 P.M. instead of 6 P.M. the next day.  Justice reigned;
and all the organization for dealing with rushes of
work was inspired by Miss Grig's own admirable
ideas of justice.\par

On this night Lilian had been appointed to stay
till 8 o'clock.  Eight o'clock--no Miss Grig.
Eight-thirty o'clock--no Miss Grig.  Nine,
nine-thirty, ten o'clock--no Miss Grig.  And now eleven
o'clock and no Miss Grig.  It was unprecedented and
dreadfully disturbing.  Lilian even foresaw a lonely,
horrible night in the office, with nothing but tea,
bread-and-butter, and the living gas-stove to comfort
her.  Agonizing prospect!  She had spent nights in
the office before, but never alone.  She felt that she
simply could not support the ordeal; yet--such was
the moral, invisible empire of absent Miss Grig--she
dared not shut up the office and depart.  The office
naturally had a telephone, but most absurdly there
was no telephone at the Grigs' house--Felix's fault!--and
so Lilian could only speculate upon the
explanation of Miss Grig's absence.  She speculated
melodramatically.\par

Then her lovely little ear, quickened by apprehension,
heard footsteps on the lower stairs.  Heavy
footsteps, but rapid enough!  She flew through the
ante-room to the outer door and fearfully opened it,
and gazed downwards to the electric light that,
somehow equivocally, invited wayfarers to pass through
the ever-open street door and climb the shadowy steps
to the second storey and behold there strange matters.\par

A villainous old fellow was hurrying up the
echoing stairs.  He wore a pea-jacket and a red cotton
muffler.  A moment ago she had had no thought of
personal danger.  Now, in an instant, she was petrified
with fright.  Her face turned from rose to grey....
Of course it was a hold-up!  Post offices, and
box offices of theatres, and even banks had been held
up of late.  Banks, Felix Grig had heard, were
taking precautions.  Felix had suggested that he
too ought to take precautions--revolvers, alarm-bells,
etc.--but Miss Grig, not approving, had smiled her
wise, condescending smile, and nothing had been
done.  Miss Grig (thought Lilian) had no imagination--that
was what was wrong with her!\par

"Miss!" growled hoarsely the oncoming bandit,
"give us a match, will ye?"\par

Yes, they always began thus innocently, did
robbers.  Lilian tried to speak and could not.  She
could not even dash within and bang and bolt the
door.  With certain crises she might possibly be
able to deal, but not with this sort of crisis.  She
was as defenceless as a blossom.  She thought
passionately that destiny had no right to put her in such
a terrible extremity, and that the whole world was to
blame.  She felt as once women used to feel in the
sack of cities, faint with fear--and streaks of thrilled,
eager, voluptuous anticipation running through the
fear!  She reflected that the matches were on the
mantelpiece over the gas-stove.\par

The man stood on the landing.  He had an odour.
He was tall; he would have made four of Lilian.
She knew that it was ridiculous to retreat into the
office and find the matches demanded; she knew
that the matches were only a pretext; she knew that
she ought to hit on some brilliant expedient for
outwitting the bandit and winning eternal glory in the
evening papers; but she retreated into the office to
find the matches.  He followed heavily behind her.
He was within her room....  She could not have
turned to face him for ropes of great pearls.\par

"Give us a box, miss.  It's a windy night.  Two
of me lamps is blown out, and I dropped me matches
into me tea-can--ha, ha!--and I ain't got no paper
to carry a light from me fire, and I ain't seen a bobby
for an hour.  No, I hain't, though you wouldn't
believe me."\par

Lilian was suddenly blinded by the truth.  The
roadway of Clifford Street and part of Bond Street was
in the midst of a process of deep excavation; it was
acutely "up," to the detriment of traffic and trade;
and this fellow was the night-watchman who sat in a
sentry-box by a burning brazier.  She recognized
him....\par

"Thank ye kindly, miss, and may God bless yer!
I knowed ye was open all night.  Good night.  Hope
I didn't frighten ye, miss."  He laughed grimly,
roguishly and honestly.\par

When he was gone Lilian laughed also, but
hysterically.  She did not at all want to laugh, but
she laughed.  Then she dropped into her chair and
wept with painful sobbing violence.  And as,
regaining calm, she realized the horrors which might
have happened to her, the resentment in her heart
against destiny and against the whole world grew
intense and filled her heart to the exclusion of every
other feeling.\par

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Miss Share, as she was addressed in the office, was
the only child of an art-master, and until she found
the West End she had lived all her life in a long
Putney "road," no house of which could truthfully
say that it was in any way better than or different from
its neighbours.  This street realized the ideal of
equality before God.  It had been Lilian's prison,
from which she was let out for regular daily exercise,
and she hated it as ardently as any captive ever hated
a prison.  Lionel Share had had charge over the art
side of an enormous polytechnic in another suburb.
In youth he had won a national scholarship at South
Kensington, and the glory of the scholarship never
faded--not even when he was elected President of the
Association of Art Masters.  He was destined by fate
to be a teacher of art, and appointed by heaven to
be a headmaster and to reach the highest height of
artistic pedagogy.  He understood organization; the
handling of committees, of under-masters and of
pupils; the filling-up of forms; the engaging of
models; and he understood profoundly the craft of
pushing pupils successfully through examinations.
His name was a sweet odour in the nostrils of the
London County Council.  He rehabilitated art and
artists in Putney, which admitted that it had had
quite a wrong notion of art and artists, having
hitherto regarded art as unmanly, and artists as queer,
loose, bankruptcy-bound fellows; whereas Mr. Share
paid his rent promptly, went to Margate for his long
holiday, wore a frock-coat, attended church, and had
been mentioned as a suitable candidate for the Putney
Borough Council.  Until Mr. Share Putney had
never been able to explain to itself the respectability
of the National Gallery, which after all was full of
art done by artists.  The phenomenon of Mr. Share
solved the enigma--the Old Masters must have been
like Lionel Share.\par

At home Mr. Share was a fat man with a black
beard and moustache, who adored his daughter and
loved his wife.  A strict monogamist, whose life
would bear the fullest investigation, he was,
nevertheless, what is euphemistically called "uxorious."  He
returned home of a night--often late, on account
of evening classes--with ravishment.  He knew that
his wife and daughter would be ready to receive him,
and they were.  He kissed and fondled them.  He
praised them to their faces, asserting that their like
could not be discovered among womankind, and he
repeated again and again that his little Lilian was
very beautiful.  He ate and drank a good supper.
If he loved his wife he loved also eating and drinking.
Now and then he would arrive with half a bottle
of champagne sticking out of his overcoat pocket.
Not that he came within a thousand miles of
"drinking"!  He did not.  He would not even keep
champagne or any wine (except Australian burgundy) in
the house; but he would pop in at the wine merchant's
when the fancy took him.\par

He seldom worried his dears with his professional
troubles.  Only if organization and committees were
specially exasperating would he refer, and then but
casually, to the darker side of existence.  As for art,
he never mentioned it, save to deride some example of
"Continental" or "advanced" or "depraved" or
"perverse" art (comprehensively described as
"futurist") which had regrettably got into the pages
of {\itshape{The Studio}}, the only magazine to which he
subscribed.  Nor did he ever in his prime paint or sketch
for pleasure.  But at the beginning of every year he
would set to work to do a small thing or two for the
Royal Academy, which small thing or two were often
accepted by the Royal Academy, though never, one
is sorry to say, sold.  The Royal Academy soirée
was Lilian's sole outlet into the great world.  She
could not, however, be as enthusiastic about it as
were her father and mother; for in the privacy of her
mind she held the women thereat to be a most dowdy
and frumpy lot.\par

The girl loved her father and mother; she also
pitied her mother and hated her father.  She pitied
her mother for being an utterly acquiescent slave with
no will of her own, and hated her father because he
had not her ambition to rise above the state of the
frumpy middle middle-class--and for other reasons.
The man had realized his own ambitions, and was a
merry soul sunk in contentment.  The world held
nothing that he wanted and did not possess.  He
looked up to the upper classes without envy or
jealousy, and read about them with ingenuous joy.
He had no instinct for any sort of elegance.\par

Lilian was intensely ambitious, yearning after
elegance.  She saw illustrated advertisements of
furniture in {\itshape{The Studio}} and of attire in the daily
papers, and compared them with the smug ugliness
of the domestic interior and her plain frocks, and
was passionately sad.  She read about the
emancipation of girls and about the "new girl," and
compared this winged creature with herself.  Writers in
newspapers seemed to assume that all girls were new
girls, and Lilian knew the awful falsity of the
assumption.  She rarely left Putney, unless it was to go by
motor-bus to Kew Gardens on a Saturday afternoon
with papa and mamma.  She did not reach the West
End once in a thousand years, and when she did she
came back tragic.  She would have contrived to reach
the West End oftener, but, though full of leisure, she
had no money for bus fares.  Mr. Share never gave
her money except for a specific purpose; and she could
not complain, for her mother, an ageing woman,
never had a penny that she must not account for--not
a penny.  Never!\par

Mr. Share could not conceive what either of them
could want with loose money.  He was not averse,
he admitted, from change and progress.  With great
breadth of mind he admitted that change and progress
were inevitable.  But his attitude towards these
phenomena resembled that of the young St. Augustine
towards another matter, who cried: "Give me
chastity, O Lord, but not yet!"  In Mr. Share's
view his wife and daughter had no business in the
world; and indeed his finest pride was to maintain
them in complete ignorance of the world.  Even
during the war he dissuaded Lilian from any war-work,
holding that she could most meetly help the Empire
to triumph by helping to solace her father in the
terrific troubles of keeping a large art school alive
under D.O.R.A. and the Conscription Act.\par

Later, Mrs. Share was struck down by cancer on
the liver and died after six months' illness, which cost
Mr. Share a considerable amount of money--lavishly
squandered, cheerfully paid.  Mr. Share was
heart-broken; he really grew quite old in a fortnight; and
his mute appeal to Lilian for moral succour and the
balm of filial tenderness was irresistible.  Lilian had
lost a mother, but the main fact in the situation was
that Mr. Share had lost a peerless wife.  Lilian
became housekeeper and the two settled down together.
Mr. Share adored his daughter more than ever, and
more visibly.  Her freedom, always excessively
limited, was now retrenched.  She was transfixed
eternally as the old man's prop.  Her twenty-first
birthday passed, and not a word as to her future,
as to a marriage for her, or as to her individuality,
desires, hopes!  She was papa's cherished darling.\par

Then Mr. Share caught pneumonia, through devotion
to duty, and died in a few days; and at last
Lilian felt on her lovely cheek the winds of the world;
at last she was free.  Of high paternal finance she
had never in her life heard one word.  In the week
following the funeral she learnt that she would be
mistress of the furniture and a little over one hundred
pounds net.  Mr. Share had illustrated the ancient
maxim that it is easier to make money than to keep
it.  He had held shipping shares too long and had
sold a fully paid endowment insurance policy in the
vain endeavour to replace by adventurous investment
that which the sea had swallowed up.  And Lilian
was helpless.  She could do absolutely nothing that
was worth money.  She could not begin to earn a
livelihood.  As for relatives, there was only her
father's brother, a Board School teacher with a large
vulgar family and an income far too small to permit
of generosities.  Lilian was first incredulous, then
horror-struck.\par

Leaving the youth of the world to pick up art as
best it could without him, and fleeing to join his wife
in paradise, the loving, adoring father had in effect
abandoned a beautiful idolized daughter to the alternatives
of starvation or prostitution.  He had shackled
her wrists behind her back and hobbled her feet
and bequeathed her to wolves.  That was what
he had done, and what many and many such
fathers had done, and still do, to their idolized
daughters.\par

Herein was the root of Lilian's awful burning
resentment against the whole world, and of her fierce
and terrible determination by fair means or foul to
make the world pay.  Her soul was a horrid furnace,
and if by chance Lionel Share leaned out from the
gold bar of heaven and noticed it, the sight must
have turned his thoughts towards hell for a pleasant
change.  She was saved from disaster, from martyrdom,
from ignominy, from the unnamable, by the
merest fluke.  The nurse who tended Lionel Share's
last hours was named Grig.  This nurse had cousins
in the typewriting business.  She had also a very
kind heart, a practical mind, and a persuasive manner
with cousins.\par

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{\Large\strut{III}}
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{\Large\strut{Advice to the Young Beauty}}
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"Come, come now, now poor girl!  You surely
aren't crying like this because you've been kept away
from your dance to-night?"\par

Lilian gave a great start, and an "Oh!" and,
searching hurriedly for a handkerchief inadequate to
the damming of torrents, dried up her tears at the
source, but could not immediately control the sobs
that continued to convulse her whole frame.\par

"N-no!  Mr. Grig," she whimpered feebly.\par

Then she snatched at a sheet of paper and began
to insert it in the machine before her, as though about
to start some copying.\par

"Miss Grig is rather unwell," said Felix Grig.
"She insisted that I should come up, and so I
came."  With that he tactfully left the room,
obeying the wise rule of conduct under which a
man conquers a woman's weeping by running away
from it.\par

Lilian's face was red; it went still redder.  She
was tremendously ashamed of being caught blubbering,
and by Mr. Grig!  It would not have mattered
if one of the girls had surprised her, or even Miss
Grig.  But Mr. Grig!  Nor would it have mattered
so much if circumstances had made possible any
pretence, however absurd and false, that she was not in
fact crying.  But she had been trapped beyond any
chance of a face-saving lie.  She felt as though she
had committed a sexual impropriety and could never
look Mr. Grig in the eyes again.  At the same time
she was profoundly relieved that somebody belonging
to the office, and especially a man, had arrived to
break her awful solitude....\par

So Mr. Grig knew that she had a dance that night!
There was something piquant and discomposing in
that.  Gertie Jackson must have chattered to Miss
Grig--they were as thick as thieves, those two, or,
at any rate, the good-natured Gertie flattered herself
that they were--and Miss Grig must have told Felix.
(Very discreetly the girls would refer among
themselves to Mr. Grig as "Felix.")  Brother and sister
must have been talking about her and her miserable
little dance.  Still, a dance was a dance, and the mere
word had a glorious sound.  Nobody except herself
knew that her dance was in a basement....  So he
had not come to the office to relieve and reassure her
in her unforeseen night-watch, but merely to placate
his sister!  And how casually, lightly, almost
quizzically, he had spoken!  She was naught to him--a
girl typist, one among a floating population of girl
typists.\par

Miss Grig had no distinction--her ankles proved
that--but Felix was distinguished, in manner, in
voice, in everything he did.  Felix was a swell, like
the easy {\itshape{flâneurs}} in Bond Street that she saw when
she happened to go out of the office during
work-hours.  It was said that he had been married and
that his wife had divorced him.  Lilian surmised
that if the truth were known the wife more than Felix
had been to blame.\par

All these thoughts were mere foam on the great,
darkly heaving thought that Felix had horribly
misjudged her.  Not his fault, of course; but he had
misjudged her.  Crying for a lost dance, indeed!
She terribly wanted him to be made aware that she
was only crying because she had experienced an
ordeal to which she ought not to have been exposed
and to which no girl ought to have been exposed.
Miss Grig again!  It was Miss Grig, not Felix, who
had sneered at hold-ups.  There had been no hold-up,
but there might have been a hold-up, and, in any
case, she had passed through the worst sensations of
a hold-up.  Scandalous!\par

Anxious to be effective, she took up the typing
of a novel which had been sent in by one of their
principal customers, a literary agency, and tried to
tap as prosaically as if the hour were 11.30
A.M. instead of 11.30 P.M.  Bravado!  She knew that she
would have to do the faulty sheet again; but she must
impress Felix.  Then she heard Felix calling from
the principals' room:\par

"Miss Share.  Miss {\itshape{Share}}!"  A little impatient
as usual.\par

"Yes, Mr. Grig."  She rushed to the mirror and
patted herself with the tiny sponge that under Miss
Grig's orders was supposed to be employed for
wetting postage stamps--but never was so employed save
in Miss Grig's presence.\par

"I shall tell him why I was crying," she said to
herself as she crossed the ante-room.  "And I shall
tell him straight."\par

He was seated on the corner of the table in the
principals' room, and rolling a cigarette.  He had
lighted the gas-stove.  A very slim man of medium
height and of no age, he might have been thirty-five
with prematurely grizzled hair, or fifty with hair
younger than the wrinkles round his grey eyes!  Miss
Grig had said or implied that she was younger than
her brother, but the girls did not accept without
reserve all that Miss Grig might say or imply.  He
had taken off his overcoat and now displayed a
dinner-jacket and an adorably soft shirt.  Lilian had never
before seen him in evening-dress, for he did not come
to the office at night, and nobody expected him to
come to the office at night.  He was wonderfully
attractive in evening-dress, which he carried with the
nonchalance of regular custom.  So different from her
father, who put on ceremonial attire about three times
a year, and wore it with deplorable self-consciousness,
as though it were a suit of armour!  Mr. Grig was
indeed a queer person to run a typewriting office.
Lilian was aware that he had been to Winchester and
Cambridge, and done all manner of unusual things
before he lit on typewriting.\par

"Any work come in to-night, Miss Share?" he
demanded in the bland, kindly, careless, official tone
which he always employed to the girls--a tone
rendering the slightest familiarity impossible.  "Anybody
called?"\par

Lilian knew that he was merely affecting an
interest in the business, acting the rôle of managing
proprietor.  He had tired of the business long ago,
and graciously left all the real power to his sister,
who had no mind above typewriting.\par

"Someone did come in just before you, Mr. Grig,"
Lilian replied, seizing her chance, and in a
half-challenging tone she related the adventure with the
night-watchman.  "It was that that upset me,
Mr. Grig.  It might have been a burglar--I made sure
it {\itshape{was}}.  And me all alone----"\par

"Quite!  Quite!" he stopped her.  "I can perfectly
imagine how you must have felt.  You haven't
got over it yet, even.  Sit down.  Sit down."  He
said no word of apology for his misjudgment of her,
but his tone apologized.\par

"Oh!  I'm perfectly all right now, thank you."\par

"Please!"  He slipped off the table and pulled
round Miss Grig's chair for her.\par

She obediently sat down, liking to be agreeable
to him.  He unlocked his own cupboard and brought
out a decanter and a liqueur glass.  "Drink this."\par

"Please, what is it?"\par

"Brandy.  Poison."  He smiled.\par

She smiled, sipped, and coughed as the spirit
burned her throat.\par

"I can't drink any more," she appealed.\par

"That's all right.  That's all right."\par

It was his humorous use of the word "poison"
that touched her.  This sole word changed their
relations.  Hitherto they had never for a moment
been other than employer and employed.  Now they
were something else.  She was deeply flattered,
assuaged, and also excited.  Brought up to scorn
employment, the hardest task for her in her situation in
the Grig office had been to admit by her deportment
that there was a bar of class between her employer
and herself.  The other girls addressed Mr. Grig as
"Sir"; but she--never!  She always called him
"Mr. Grig," and nothing could have induced her to
say "Sir."  Now, he was protecting her; he had
become the attendant male; his protection enveloped
her like a soft swansdown quilt, exquisite, delicious.
And it was night.  The night created romance.
Romance suddenly filled the room like a magic
vapour, transforming him, herself, and the commonest
objects of the room into something ideal.\par

"Several times I've wanted to speak to you about
a certain matter," said Mr. Grig quietly; and paused,
gazing at the smoke from his cigarette.\par

"Oh, yes?" Lilian murmured nervously, and
strove to accomplish the demeanour of a young
woman of the world.  (She much regretted that she
had her wristlets on.)  As he was not looking at her
she could look at his face.  And she looked at it as
though she had never seen it before, or with
fresh-perceiving eyes.  A very clever, rather tired face;
superior, even haughty, self-sure; fastidious,
dissatisfied, the face of one accustomed to choose
sardonically between two evils; impatient, bitter;
humorous, with hints of benevolence.  She thought:
"Of course he's never spoken to me because of his
sister.  Even {\itshape{he}} has to mind his p's and q's with her.
And he's one that hates a fuss.  Now she isn't
here----"\par

She could not conceive what might be the "certain
matter."  She thrilled to learn it; but he would not be
hurried.  No, he would take his own time, Mr. Grig
would.  This was the most brilliant moment of her life.\par

He said, looking straight at her and forcing her
to look straight at him:\par

"You know you've no business in a place like this,
a girl like you.  You're much too highly strung, for
one thing.  You aren't like Miss Jackson, for
instance.  You're simply wasting yourself here.  Of
course you're terribly independent, but you do try to
please.  I don't mean try to please merely in your
work.  You try to {\itshape{please}}.  It's an instinct with you.
Now in typing you'd never beat Miss Jackson.  Miss
Jackson's only alive, really, when she's typing.  She
types with her whole soul.  You type well--I
hear--but that's only because you're clever all round.
You'd do anything well.  You'd milk cows just as
well as you'd type.  But your business is marriage,
and a good marriage!  You're beautiful, and, as I
say, you have an instinct to please.  That's the
important thing.  You'd make a success of marriage
because of that and because you're adaptable and
quick at picking up.  Most women when they're
married forget that their job is to adapt themselves
and to please.  That's their {\itshape{job}}.  They expect to be
kowtowed to and spoilt and humoured and to be free
to spend money without having to earn it, and to do
nothing in return except just exist--and perhaps
manage a household, pretty badly.  They seem to forget
that there are two sides to a bargain.  It's dashed
hard work, pleasing is, sometimes.  I know that.
But it isn't so hard as earning money, believe me!
Now you wouldn't be like the majority of women.
You'd keep your share of the bargain, and handsomely.
If you don't marry, and marry fifty miles
above you, you'll be very silly.  For you to stop here
is an outrage against common-sense.  It's merely
monstrous.  If I wasn't an old man I wouldn't tell
you this, naturally.  Now you needn't blush.  I
expect I'm not far off thirty years older than you--and
you're young enough to be wise in time."\par

She was blushing tremendously, and in spite of
an effort of courage her gaze dropped from his.
At length his gaze shifted, on the pretext of
dropping cigarette-ash very carefully into an ash-tray.\par

He had, then, been thinking about her all those
months, differentiating her from the others, summing
her up!  And how well he had summed her up, and
how well he had expressed himself--so romantically
(somehow) and yet with such obvious truth!  (Of
course he had been having a dig at his own wife, who
had divorced him!  You could see how embittered
he was on the subject of wives!)  She wondered if he
had thought her beautiful for long.  Fancy him
moving about the office and forming ideas about all of
them, and never a sign, never the slightest sign that
he could tell one of them from another!  And he had
chosen that night to reveal his mind to her.  She
was inexpressibly flattered.  Because Mr. Grig was
clearly a connoisseur--she had always felt that.  If
Mr. Grig considered her beautiful...!\par

And in fact she had an established assurance of
beauty.  She knew a good deal about herself.
Proudly she reflected, amid her blushes, upon the
image of her face and hair--the eyes that matched
her hair, the perfectly formed ears, the softness of
the chin and the firmness of the nose, the unchallengeable
complexion, the dazzling teeth.  She was simple
enough to be somewhat apologetic about the largeness
of her mouth, unaware that a man of experience flees
from a small rosebud mouth as from the devil, and
that a large mouth is the certain sign of goodwill and
understanding in a woman.  She was apologetic, too,
about the scragginess of her neck, and with better
reason.  But the wrists and the ankles, the legs, the
shoulders, the swelling of the hips, the truly
astounding high, firm and abundant bosom!  Beyond
criticism!  And she walked beautifully, throwing back
her shoulders and so emphasizing the line of the waist
at the back.  She walked with her legs and hips, and
the body swam forward above them.  She had
observed the effect thousands of times in street mirrors.
The girls all admitted that she walked uniquely.
Then, further, she had a smile (rarely used) which
would intensify in the most extraordinary way the
beauty of her face, lighting it, electrifying the eyes,
radiating a charm that enraptured.  She knew that
also.  A superlative physical pride rose up out of the
subconscious into the conscious, and put her cheap
pretty clothes to shame.  It occurred to her that
Mr. Grig had been talking very strangely, very unusually.\par

"I don't suppose I shall ever marry," she said
plaintively.  "How can I?"  She meant, and
without doubt he understood: "How can I possibly meet
a man who is worth marrying?"  She thought with
destructive disdain of every youth who had ever reacted
to her charm.  The company at the dance she had
missed seemed contemptible.  They were still
dancing.  What a collection of tenth-rate fellows!\par

She became gloomy, pessimistic, as she saw the
totality of her existence and its prospects.  The home
at Putney had been a prison.  She had escaped from
it, but only to enter another prison.  She saw no
outlet.  She was trapped on every side.  She could
not break out of the infernal circle of poverty and of
the conventions.  Not in ten years could she save
enough to keep her for a year.  She had to watch
every penny.  If she was mad enough to go to a
West End theatre she had to consider the difference
between a half-crown and a three-shilling pit.
Thousands of men and women negligently fling themselves
into expensive taxis, but a rise in bus fares or Tube
fares would seriously unbalance Lilian's budget.
She passed most of her spare time in using a needle
to set off her beauty, but what a farce was the
interminable study and labour!  She could not possibly
aspire to even the best gloves; and as for the best
stockings, or the second best!--the price of such a
pair came to more than she could earn in a week.  It
was all absurd, tragic, pitiful.  She had common-sense
ample enough to see that her beauty was futile,
her ambitions baseless, and her prospects nil.  If
she had been a vicious girl, she might have broken
through the dreadful ring into splendours which she
glimpsed and needed.  But she was not vicious.\par

"Pooh!" exclaimed Mr. Grig impatiently.  "You
could marry anybody you liked if you put your mind
to it."\par

And he spoke so scornfully of her lack of faith,
so persuasively, so inspiringly, that she had an
amazing and beautiful vision of herself worshipped,
respected, alluring, seductive, arousing passion,
reciprocating passion, kind, benevolent, eternally young,
eternally lovely, eternally exercising for the balm and
solace of mankind and a man the functions for which
she was created and endowed--in a word, fulfilling
herself.  And for the moment, in the ecstasy of
resolution to achieve the impossible, she was superb and
magnificent and the finest thing that a man could
ever hope to witness.\par

And she thought desperately:\par

"I'm twenty-three already.  Time is rushing past
me.  To-morrow I shall be old."\par

After a silence Mr. Grig said:\par

"You're very tired.  There's no reason why you
shouldn't go home to bed."\par

"Indeed I shan't go home, Mr. Grig," she answered
sharply, with grateful, eager devotion.  "I
shall stay.  Supposing some work came in!  It's
not twelve o'clock yet."\par

She surprised quite a youthful look on Mr. Grig's
face.  Nearly thirty years older than herself?
Ridiculous!  There was nothing at all in a difference
of years.  Some men were never old.  Back in the
clerks' room she got out her vanity bag and carefully
arranged her face.  And as she looked in the glass
she thought:\par

"After to-night I shall never be quite the same
girl again....  Did he really call me in to ask me
about the work, or did he only do it because he wanted
to talk to me?"\par

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{\Large\strut{The Clubman}}
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Lilian was confused by a momentary magnificent,
vague vision of a man framed in the doorway of the
small room.  The door, drawn backwards from
without, hid the vision.  Then there was a cough.  She
realized with alarm that she had been asleep, or at
least dozing, over her machine.  In the fifth of a
second she was wide awake and alert.\par

"Who's there?" she called, steadying her voice
to a matter-of-fact and casual tone.\par

The door was pushed open, and the man who had
been a vision entered.\par

"I beg your pardon," said he.  "I wasn't
sure whether it was the proper thing to come
in here.  I looked into another room, and had
a glimpse of a gentleman who seemed to be rather
dormant."\par

"This is the room to come to," said Lilian, with
a prim counterfeit of a smile.\par

"The office is open?"\par

"Certainly."\par

As he advanced into the room the man took off
the glossy silk hat which he was wearing at the far
back of his head.  He had an overcoat, but carried
it on his left arm.  He was tall and broad--something,
indeed, in the nature of a giant--with a florid,
smooth face; aged perhaps thirty-three.  He had a
way of pinching his lips together and pressing his
lower jaw against his high collar, thus making a
false double chin or so; the result was to produce an
effect of wise and tolerant good-humour, as of one
who knew humanity and who while prepared for
surprises was not going to judge us too harshly.  He
was in full evening-dress, and his clothes were superb.
They glistened; they fitted without a crease.  The
vast curve of the gleaming stiff shirt-front sloped
perfect in its contour; the white waistcoat was held
round the stupendous form by three topaz buttons;
from somewhere beneath the waistcoat a gold chain
emerged and vanished somewhere into the hinterland
of his person.  The stout white kid gloves were
thickly ridged on the backs and fitted the broad
hands as well as the coat fitted the body--it was
inconceivable that they had not been made to measure
as everything else must have been made to measure.
The man would have been overdressed had he not
worn his marvellous and costly garments with
absolute naturalness and simplicity.\par

Lilian thought:\par

"He must be a man-about-town, a clubman, the
genuine article."\par

She was impressed, secretly flustered, and very
anxious to meet him as an equal on his own ground
of fine manners.  She divined that, having entered
the room once and fairly caught her asleep, he had
had the good taste to withdraw and cough and make a
new entry in order to spare her modesty; and she
was softly appreciative, while quite determined to
demonstrate by her demeanour that she had not been
asleep.\par

She thought:\par

"Gertie Jackson wouldn't have known where to
look, in my place."\par

Still, despite her disdain of Gertie Jackson's
deportment, she felt herself to be terribly unproficient in
the social art.\par

"Is it anything urgent?" she asked.\par

"Well, it is a bit urgent."\par

He had a strong, full, pleasant voice.\par

"Won't you sit down?"\par

"Thanks."\par

He sat down, disposing his hat by the side of her
machine, and his overcoat on another chair, and
drawing off his gloves.\par

Lilian waited like a cat to pounce upon the
slightest sign of familiarity and kill it; for she had
understood that men-about-town regarded girl typists
as their quarry and as nothing else.  But there was
no least lapse from deferential propriety; the
clubman might have been in colloquy with his
sister's friend--and his sister listening in the
next room.  He pulled a manuscript from his
breast-pocket, and, after a loving glance at it, offered
it to her.\par

"I've only just written it," said he.  "And I want
to take it round to the {\itshape{Evening Standard}} office myself
in the morning before 8.30.  The editor's an acquaintance
of mine and I might get it into to-morrow
afternoon's paper.  In fact, it must be to-morrow or
never--because of the financial debate in the House, you see.
Topical.  I wonder whether you'd be good enough
to do it for me."\par

"Let me see," said Lilian professionally.  "About
fifteen hundred words, or hardly.  Oh, yes!  I will
do it myself."\par

"That's very kind of you.  Will you mind looking
at the writing?  Do you think you'll be able to
make it out?  I was at a bit of a jolly to-night, and
my hand's never too legible."\par

Without glancing further at the manuscript,
Lilian answered:\par

"It's our business to make out writing."\par

Suddenly she gave him her full smile.\par

"I suppose it is," he said, also smiling.  "Now
shall I call for the copy about 8 o'clock?"\par

"I'm afraid the office won't be open at 8 o'clock,"
said Lilian.  "We close at 6.30 for an hour or two.
But what's the address?  Is it anywhere near here?"\par

"6a Jermyn Street.  You'll see it all on the back
of the last page."\par

"It could be delivered--dropped into your
letter-box--by 6.30 this morning, and you could take it out
of the box any time after that."  The idea seemed
to have spontaneously presented itself to her.  She
forbore to say that her intention was to deliver the
copy herself on her way home.\par

"But this is most awfully obliging of you!" he
exclaimed.\par

"Not at all.  You see, we specialize in urgent
things....  We charge double for night-work, I
ought to tell you--in fact, three shillings a thousand,
with a minimum."\par

"Of course!  Of course!  I quite understand
that.  Perhaps you'll put the bill in the envelope."  He
drew forth a watch that looked like a gold
half-crown.  "Two o'clock.  And I can count on it being
in the letter-box at six-thirty."\par

"Absolutely."\par

"Well, all I say is, it's very wonderful."\par

She smiled again: "It's just our business."\par

He bowed gracefully in departing.\par

As soon as he was gone she looked at the back of
the last page.  "Lord Mackworth."  Never having
heard of such a lord, she consulted the office {\itshape{Who's
Who}}.  Yes, he was there.  "Mackworth, Lord.
See Fermanagh, Earl of."  She turned to the F
pages.  He was the {\itshape{e.s.}} of the Earl of Fermanagh.
{\itshape{E.s.}} meant eldest son, she assumed.  One day he
would be an earl.  She was thrilled.\par

Eagerly she read the manuscript before starting
to copy it.  The subject was the fall in the exchange
value of the French franc.  "Abstruse," she called it
to herself.  Frightfully learned!  Yet the article was
quite amusing to read.  In one or two places it was
almost funny enough to make her laugh.  And Lord
Mackworth illustrated his points by the prices of
commodities and pleasure at Monte Carlo.  Evidently
he had just returned from Monte Carlo.  What a
figure!  He had everything--title, blood, wealth,
style, a splendid presence, perfect manners; he was
intellectual, he was clever, he was political, he wrote
for the Press.  And withal he was a man of pleasure,
for he had been to Monte Carlo, and that very night
he had taken part in a "jolly"--whatever a jolly was!\par

No!  He was not married; it was impossible that
he should be married.  But naturally he must keep
mistresses.  They always kept mistresses.  Though
what a man like him could see in that sort of girl
passed Lilian.  "You could marry {\itshape{anybody}} you
liked if you put your mind to it," Mr. Grig had said.
Absurdly, horribly untrue!  How, for instance,
could she set about to marry Lord Mackworth?  She
was for ever imprisoned; she could not possibly, by
any device, break through the transparent, invisible,
adamantine walls that surrounded her.  Beautiful,
was she?  Gifts, had she?  Well, she had sat
opposite this lord, close to him, in a room secure from
interruption, in the middle of the night.  She had
been obliging.  And he had not been sufficiently
interested to swerve by a hair's breadth from his
finished and nonchalant formal politeness.  Her rôle
in relation to Lord Mackworth was to tap out his
clever article on the old Underwood and to deliver it
herself in the chilly darkness of the morning before
going exhausted to her miserable lodging!  She,
lovely!  She, burning with ambition! ... The visit
of the man of title and of parts was like an act of
God to teach her the realities of her situation and the
dangerous folly of dreams.\par

She tiptoed out of the room to see if Mr. Grig
really was asleep as Lord Mackworth had suggested.
She hoped that he was unconscious and that the visit
was her secret.  Either he was very soundly asleep
or the stir of the arrival and departure must have
awakened him.  If he was awake she would pretend
that she wanted to inform him of the job just come
in, since he had previously enquired about the course
of business.  If not, she would say nothing of the
affair--merely enter up the job in the night-book,
and wait for any inquiries that might be made before
opening her mouth.\par

Through the door ajar Mr. Grig could be seen fast
asleep in his padded chair.  His lower jaw had fallen,
revealing a mouth studded with precious metal.  He
was generally spry, in his easy-going manner, and
often had quite a youthful air, but now there could be
no mistake about his age, which according to Lilian's
standard of age was advanced.  To Lilian forty was
oldish, fifty quite old, and sixty venerable.  What a
contrast between the fresh, brilliant, authentic youth
of Lord Mackworth and the imitation juvenility of
Mr. Grig even at his spryest!  The souvenir of Lord
Mackworth's physical individuality made the sight of
Mr. Grig almost repellent.  She was divided from
Mr. Grig by the greatest difference in the world, the
difference between one generation and another.\par

She crept back, resolving to accomplish the finest
piece of typescript that had ever been done in the
office.  Had she not brains to surpass Gertie Jackson
at anything if she chose to try?  Just as she was
entering her own room the outer door of the office
opened.  More urgent work!  It was Lord Mackworth
again.  She stood stock-still in the doorway,
her head thrown back and turned towards him, her
body nearly within the room.  Agitated by a sudden
secret anticipation, by a pleasure utterly unhoped for,
she gave him a nervous, welcoming, enquiring smile,
a smile without reserve, and full of the confidence due
to one who had proved at once his reliability and his
attractiveness.  She had a feeling towards him as
towards an old friend.  She knew that her face was
betraying her joy, but she did not care, because she
trusted him; and, moreover, it would in any case
have been impossible for her to hide her joy.\par

"There's just one thing," began Lord Mackworth
in a cautious whisper, though previously he had put
no restraint on his powerful voice, and paused.\par

"Will you come in?" she invited him, also in a
whisper, and moved quickly from his line of sight.
He followed her, and having entered her room softly
shut the door, which at the previous interview had
remained half open.\par

"Will you sit down?"\par

They both sat down in their original positions.
Yes, they were like friends.  More, they were like
conspirators.  Why?  What would the next moment
disclose?  It seemed to her that the next moment
must unfold into an unpredictable, beautiful blossom
such as nobody had ever seen.  She was intensely
excited.  She desired ardently that he should ask her
to help him in some matter in which she alone could
help him.  She was a touching, wistful spectacle.
All her defences had sunk away.  He could not but
see that he had made a conquest, that the city of
loveliness had fallen into his hands.\par

"It just occurred to me--please tell me if I'm
being indiscreet--that perhaps you wouldn't mind
doing me a little service.  I may oversleep myself in
the morning, and I can't get at my man now.  Would
you mind giving me a ring up on the 'phone about
six o'clock?  You see, I have the telephone by my
bed, and it would be sure to wake me--especially if
you told the operator to keep on ringing.  It's very
necessary I should run along to the newspaper office
and see the editor personally as soon as he gets there.
Otherwise I might be done in.  Of course, I could sit
up for the rest of the night----"  He laughed shortly.\par

Nearly opposite the end of Clifford Street, in Bond
Street, was a hosier's shop with the royal arms over
the entrance and half a dozen pairs of rich blue-and-crimson
pyjamas--and nothing else--displayed in the
window against a chaste background of panelled
acacia wood.  Lilian saw a phantasm of her client's
lordly chamber, with the bed and the telephone by the
bed, and the great form of the man himself recumbent
and moveless, gloriously and imperfectly covered in
a suit of the blue-and-crimson pyjamas.  She heard
the telephone bell ring--ring--ring--ring--ring--ring,
pertinaciously.  The figure did not stir.
Ring--ring--ring--ring!  At last the figure stirred,
turned over, half sat up, seized the telephone, which,
pacified, ceased to ring, and the figure listened--to
her voice!  It was her voice that was heard in the
chamber....  The most sharply masculine hallucination
that she had ever had, perhaps the only one.  It
moved her to the point of fright.  The whole house
might have rocked under her--rocked once, and then
resumed its firmness.  She felt faint, terror-struck,
and excruciatingly, inexplicably happy.  And she
was ashamed; she was shocked by the mystery of
herself.  Flushing, she bent her face over the desk.\par

"Perhaps I'd better sit up all night," Lord
Mackworth added apologetically.\par

"What's your number?" she asked in a low
voice, not looking up.\par

"Regent 1067."\par

"Regent 1067," she repeated the number, even
writing it on her note pad.\par

"You're really awfully kind.  I hesitated to
suggest it.  I do hope you'll forgive me."\par

She looked up quickly, and into his eyes.\par

"I shall be delighted to give you a ring," she said,
with sweet, smiling eagerness.  "It's no trouble at all.
None at all, I assure you."\par

She was the divine embodiment of the human and
specially feminine desire to please, to please
charmingly, to please completely, to please with the whole
force and beauty of her individuality.  The poor boy
must get a few hours' sleep.  A man needed sleep;
sleep was important to him.  As for her, the woman's
task was to watch and work, and when the moment
came she would wake the man--the child--who was
incapable of waking himself.\par

"Well, thanks ever so much."  He rose.\par

"I suppose you don't want a carbon of your article
as well?" she suggested.\par

"It's an idea," he agreed.  "You never know.  I
think I will have a carbon."\par

As he was leaving he said abruptly: "Do you
know, I imagine I've seen you before--somewhere."\par

"I don't think so."  She did not quite like this
remark of his.  It seemed to her to be a commonplace
device for prolonging the interview; it shook her
faith in his probity.\par

But he insisted, nodding his head.\par

"Yes.  In Bond Street.  I remember you were
wearing an exceedingly pretty hat, with some yellow
flowers in it."\par

She was dumbfounded, for she did possess a pretty
hat with yellow flowers in it.  She had done him an
injustice.  Fancy him noticing her, admiring,
remembering!  It was incredible.  She must have
made a considerable impression on him.  She smiled
her repentance for having doubted his probity even
for a moment.\par

"You must have a very good memory," she said,
in her gaze an exquisite admission of his rightness.\par

"Oh!  I have!"\par

They shook hands.  In holding out her hand she
drew back her body.  She had absurdly hoped that
he would offer to shake hands, not really expecting
him to do so.  He departed with unimpeachable
correctness and composure.  What nice discretion he
had shown in not referring earlier to the fact that her
face was not unknown to him!  Most men would
have contrived to work it in at the very beginning
of the conversation.  But he had actually gone away,
the first time, without mentioning it.\par

Lilian was left in such a state of exaltation that
she could not immediately start to work.  She was
ecstatically inspired with a resolution, far transcending
all previous yearnings of a similar nature, to fulfil
herself, to be herself utterly, to bring her gifts to
fruition despite all obstacles and all impossibilities.
It was not that she desired to please Lord Mackworth
(though she passionately desired to please him), nor
to achieve luxury and costliness and elegance and a
highly refined way of life.  These things, however
important and delectable, were merely the necessary
incidentals to the supreme end of exploiting her
beauty, charm and benevolence so that in old age she
would not have to say, "I might have been."\par

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It was after she had made some tea and was taking
it, at her desk, without milk, but with a bun and a
half left over from the previous afternoon's orgy of
the small room clerks, that Lilian had the idea of a
mighty and scarcely conceivable transgression, crime,
depredation.  None of the machines in the small
room was in quite first-rate order.  The machines
were good, but they needed adjustment.  Miss G.--the
clerks referred to her as Miss G., instead of Miss
Grig, when they were critical of her, which was
often--was almost certainly a just woman, but she was
mean, especially in the matter of wages; and she
would always postpone rather too long the summoning
of a mechanic to overhaul the typewriters.  Such
delay was, of course, disadvantageous to the office,
but Miss G. was like that.  Lilian, munching,
inserted two sheets and a new carbon into her machine,
and then pulled them out again with a swift swish.
Why should she not abstract Miss G.'s own machine
for the high purpose of typing Lord Mackworth's
brilliant article?  It was nearly a new one.\par

Miss G. was a first-rate typist.  She typed all her
own letters, and regularly at night even did copying;
and she always had the star machine of the office.
The one objection to Lilian's nefarious scheme was
the fact that Miss G.'s machine ranked as the Ark of
the Covenant, and the rule forbidding the profane to
lay hands on it was absolute and awful.  This rule
was a necessity in the office, where every machine
amounted to an individuality, and was loved or hated
and shamelessly intrigued for or against.  Lilian
knew a little of Miss G.'s machine, for on Its purchase
she had had the honour of trying it and reinforcing
Miss G.'s favourable judgment upon it, her touch
being lighter than Gertie Jackson's, that amiable,
tedious hack, and similar to Miss G.'s touch.\par

Lilian feared lest her own machine might give a
slip towards the end of a page, throw a line out of
the straight and spoil the whole page.  Miss G.'s
machine was on the small desk beneath the window
in the principals' room.  Having reflected, she
decided to sin.  If Mr. Grig was awake she would tell
him squarely that her own machine was out of gear,
that all the clerks' machines were out of gear, and if
he still objected--and he might, for he ever feared
Miss G.--she would bewitch him.  She would put his
own theory of her powers into practice upon himself.\par

She would be quite unscrupulous; she would stop at
nothing.  She went forth excited on her raid.  He
was still asleep.  He might waken; if he did, so much
the worse; she must risk it.  She regarded him with
friendly condescension.  She had work to do; she
had a sense of responsibility; and she was doing the
work.  He, theoretically in charge of the office, slept,
probably after a day chiefly idle--the grey-haired,
charming, useless irresponsible.  And were not all
men asleep rather absurd?  She picked up the heavy
machine; one of its indiarubber shoes dropped off,
but she left that where it lay--there were plenty to
replace it in her room.  Soundlessly she left the
sleeper.  Triumphant, unscrupulous, reckless, she
did not care what might happen.\par

At work on the article, exulting in the smooth
excellence of Miss G.'s machine, she felt strangely
happy.  She liked Felix to be asleep; she liked the
obscure sensation of fatigue at the back of her brain;
she liked to be alone in the night, amid a resting or
roystering world; she liked the tension of concentrating
on the work, the effort after perfection.  The very
machine itself, and the sounds of the machine, the
feel of the paper, the faint hiss of the gas-stove, were
all friendly and helpful.  How different were her
sensations then from her sensations in the pother and
racket and friction of the daytime!  She forgot that
she was beautiful and born to enchant.  She was
oblivious of both the past and the future.  A moral
exaltation, sweet and gentle, inspired, upheld and
exhilarated her.\par

She heard the outer door open.  The threatened
interruption annoyed her almost to exasperation.  It
was essential that she should not be interrupted, for
she was like a poet in full flow of creation.  Footsteps,
someone moving hesitatingly to and fro in the
anteroom!  There was the word "Enquiries" painted in
black on the glass panel of the small room, thrown
into relief by the light within the room, and people
had not the sense to see it.  The public was really
extraordinary.  Even Lord Mackworth had not at
first noticed it.  Well, let whoever it might be find
his way about unaided by her!  She would not budge.
If urgent work had arrived she did not want it, could
not do it, and would not have it.\par

Then she caught voices.  The visitor had got into
the principals' room and wakened Mr. Grig.  The
voices were less audible now, but a conversation
seemingly interminable was proceeding in the
principals' room.  The suspense vexed her and interfered
with the fine execution of her task.  She sighed,
tapped her foot, and made sounds of protest with her
tongue against her upper teeth.  At length both
Mr. Grig and the visitor emerged into the ante-room, still
tirelessly gabbling.  The visitor went, banging the
outer door.  Mr. Grig came into her room with a
manuscript in his hand.  Feigning absorption, she
did not look up.\par

"Here's something wanted for eleven in the morning.
It's going to be called for.  Proof of a witness's
evidence in a law case.  Very urgent.  It's pretty
long.  You'd better get on to it at once.  Then one
or two of them'll be able to finish it between nine
and eleven."\par

Lilian accused him in her mind of merely
imitating his sister's methods of organization and
partition.\par

"I'm afraid I can't put this aside, Mr. Grig," she
said gravely, uncompromisingly.\par

"What is it?"\par

"It's just come in."\par

"I never heard anybody," Felix snapped.\par

Lilian thought how queer and how unjust it was
that she should be prevented by her inferior station
from turning on him and bluntly informing him that
he had been asleep instead of managing the office.\par

"It's an article by Lord Mackworth for to-morrow's
{\itshape{Evening Standard}}, and it has to be at the
{\itshape{Standard}} office by half-past eight, and I've promised
to have it delivered at Jermyn Street by six-thirty."\par

"But who's going to deliver it?"\par

"I am, as I go home."\par

"But this is urgent too.  And, what's more, I've
definitely promised it," Mr. Grig protested, waving
his manuscript somewhat forlornly.  "What length's
yours?"\par

"It's not the length.  It has to be done with the
greatest care."\par

"Yes, that's all very well, but----"\par

His attitude of helplessness touched her.  She
smiled in her serious manner.\par

"If you'll leave it to me to see to, Mr. Grig," she
said soothingly, and yet a little superiorly, "I'll do
the best I can.  I'll start it, anyhow.  And I'll leave
an urgent note for Miss Jackson about it.  After all,
in two hours they ought to be able to do almost
anything, and you know how reliable Miss Jackson is.
Miss Grig always relies on her."\par

She held out her hand for the wretched manuscript.
Mr. Grig yielded it up, pretending unwillingness
and uneasiness, but in reality much relieved.  A
quarter of an hour later he returned to her room in
overcoat and hat.\par

"I think I may as well go home now," said he,
yawning enormously.  "I'm a bit anxious about my
sister.  Nothing else likely to come in, is there?
You'll be all right, I suppose."\par

"{\itshape{Me!}}" she exclaimed kindly.  "Of {\itshape{course}},
Mr. Grig.  I shall be perfectly all right."\par

She wondered whether he really was anxious about
his sister.  At any rate, he had not the stamina to
sit up through all the night in the office.  But she,
Lilian, had.  She was delighted to be alone again.
She finished Lord Mackworth's article, read it and
re-read it.  Not a mistake.  She bound it and stitched
it.  She entered the item in the night-book.  She
made out the bill.  She typed the address on the
envelope.  Then, before fastening the envelope, she
read through everything again.  All these things she
did with the greatest deliberation and nicety.\par

At the end she had ample time to make a start
on the other work, but she could not or would not
bring herself to the new task.  She was content to
write a note for Gertie Jackson, shifting all the
responsibility on to Gertie.  Gertie would have to fly
round and make the others fly round.  And if the
work was late--what then?  Lilian did not care.
Her conscience seemed to have exhausted itself.  She
sat in a blissful trance.  She recalled with
satisfaction that she had said nothing to Felix about Lord
Mackworth having called in person.  She rose and
wandered about the rooms, savouring the silent
solitude.  The telephone was in the principals' room.
How awkward that might have been if Felix had
stayed!  But he had not stayed.\par

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"Hello, hello!  Who is it?"\par

"Is that Regent 1067?"\par

"Yes."\par

"Is that Lord Mackworth?"\par

"Speaking.  Who is it?"\par

"Grig's Typewriting Office.  I'm so sorry to wake
you up, but you asked us to.  It's just past six
o'clock."\par

"Thanks very much.  Who is it speaking?"\par

"Grig's Typewriting Office."\par

"Yes.  But {\itshape{your}} name?  Miss--Miss----?"\par

"Oh!  I see.  Share.  Share.  Lilian Share....
Not Spare, S-{\itshape{h}}-a-r-e."\par

"I've got it.  Share.  I recognized your voice,
Miss Share.  Well, it's most extraordinarily
good-natured of you.  Most.  I can't thank you enough.
Excuse me asking your name.  I only wanted it so
that I could thank you personally.  Article finished?"\par

"It's all finished and ready to be delivered.  It'll
be dropped into your letter-box in about a quarter of
an hour from now.  You can rely on that."\par

"Then do you keep messengers hanging about all
night for these jobs?"\par

"I'm going to deliver it myself; then I shall know
it is delivered."\par

"D'you know, I half suspected all along you
meant to do that.  You oughtn't really to put yourself
to so much trouble.  I don't know how to thank
you.  I don't, really!"\par

"It's no trouble at all.  It's on my way home."\par

"You're just going home, then?  You must be
very tired."\par

"Oh, no!  I sleep in the daytime."\par

"Well, I hope you'll have a good {\itshape{day's}} rest."  A laugh.\par

"And {\itshape{I}} hope now I've wakened you you won't
turn over and go to sleep again."  Another laugh,
from the same end.\par

"No fear!  I'm up now."\par

"I beg your pardon?"\par

"I'm up.  Out of bed."  A laugh from the
Clifford Street end.\par

"Good-bye, then."\par

"Good-bye.  And thanks again.  By the way,
you're putting the bill with it?"\par

"Oh, yes."\par

"And the carbon?"\par

"Yes.  Good-bye."\par

"Good-bye, Miss Share."\par

Lilian hung up the receiver, smiling.  And she
continued to smile as she left the room and went to
her own room and took her street things out of the
cupboard and put them on.  Nothing could have been
more banal, more ordinary, and nothing more
exquisite and romantic than the telephone conversation.
The secret charm of it was inexplicable to her....
She saw him standing in the blue-and-crimson
pyjamas by the bedside, a form distinguished and
powerful....  She revelled in his gratitude.  How
nice of him to ask her name so that he might thank
her personally!  He did not care to thank a nameless
employee.  He wanted to thank {\itshape{somebody}}.  And
now she was somebody to him.\par

Perhaps she had not been well-advised to give
him her Christian name.  The word, however, had
come out of itself.  Moreover, she liked her Christian
name, and she liked nice people to know it.  She
certainly ought not to have said "that" about his not
turning over and going to sleep again.  No.  There
was something "common" in it.  But he had accepted
the freedom in the right spirit, had not taken
advantage of it.\par

She extinguished the gas-stove, restored the stolen
typewriter, loosed the catch of the outer door, banged
the door after her, and descended, holding the
foolscap envelope in her shabbily-gloved hand.  The
forsaken solitude of the office was behind her.\par

Outside, an icy mist floated over wet pavements
in the first dim, sinister unveiling of the London day!
Lilian wore a thick, broad, woollen scarf which
comforted her neck and bosom, and gave to beholders
the absurd illusion that she was snugly enveloped;
but the assaulting cold took her in the waist, and she
shivered.  Her feet began to feel damp immediately.
There was the old watchman peeping out of his
sentry-box by his glowing brazier!  He recognized
her quickly enough, and without a movement of the
gnarled face held up her matchbox as a sign of the
bond between them.  How ridiculous to have classed
him with burglars!  She threw her head back and
gave him a proud, bright and rather condescendingly
gracious smile.\par

Along Clifford Street and all down Bond Street
the heaped dustbins stood on the kerb waiting for
the scavengers.  In Piccadilly several Lyons'
horse-vans, painted in Oxford and Cambridge blues, trotted
sturdily eastwards; one of them was driven by a
woman, wrapped in a great macintosh and perched
high aloft with a boy beside her.  Nothing else
moving in the thoroughfare!  The Ritz Hotel,
formidable fortress of luxury, stood up arrogant like
a Florentine palace, hiding all its costly secrets from
the scorned mob.  No. 6a Jermyn Street was just
round the corner from St. James's Street: a narrow
seven-storey building of flats, with a front-door as
impassive and meaningless as the face of a footman.
Lilian hesitated a moment and relinquished her packet
into the brass-bordered letter-slit.  She heard it fall.
She turned away with a jerky gesture.  She had not
walked ten yards when a frightful lassitude and
dejection attacked her with the suddenness of cholera.
Scarcely could she command her limbs to move.  The
ineffable sadness, hopelessness, wretchedness, vanity
of existence washed over her and beat her down.
Only a very few could be glorious, and she was not
and never could be of the few.  She was shut out
from brightness,--no better than a ragamuffin looking
into a candy window.\par

She descended into the everlasting lamplit night
of the Tube at Dover Street, where there was no
dawn and no sunset.  And all the employees, and all
the meek, preoccupied travellers seemed to be her
brothers and sisters in martyrdom.  Her train was
nearly empty; but the eastbound trains--train after
train--were full of pathetic midgets urgently engaged
upon the problem of making both ends meet.  After
Earl's Court the train ran up an incline into the
whitening day.  She got out at the next station,
conveniently near to which she lodged.\par

The house was one of the heavily porched erections
of the 'fifties and 'sixties, much fallen in
prestige.  The dirty kitchenmaid was giving the
stone floor of the porch a lick and a promise, so that
fortunately the front door stood open.  Lilian had
the tiny mean bedroom on the second floor over the
hall; in New York it would have been termed a
hall-bedroom.  Nobody except the gawky, frowsy,
stupid, good-natured maid had seen her.  She shut
her door and locked it.  The room was colder even
than the street.  She looked into the mirror, which
was so small that she had had to arrange a descending
series of nails for it in order that piece by piece she
might inspect the whole of herself.  Her face was as
pale as a corpse.  Undressing and piling half her
wardrobe on to the counterpane she slipped into the
narrow bed, ravenous for sleep and oblivion, and
drew the clothes right over her head.  In an instant
she was in a paradise of divine dreams.\par

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The next morning Lilian left her lodging at the
customary hour of 8.15, to join one of the hundreds
of hastening, struggling, preoccupied processions of
workers that converged upon central London.  She
had slept for ten hours without a break on the
previous day, risen hungry to a confused and far too
farinaceous tea, done some dressmaking by the
warmth of an oil-stove, and gone to bed again for
another enormous period of heavy slumber.  She was
well refreshed; her complexion was restored to its
marvellous perfectness; and life seemed simpler, more
promising, and more agreeably exciting than usual.\par

She had convinced herself that the Irish lord
would call at the office in person to pay his bill; the
mysterious and yet thoroughly understood code that
governs certain human relations would forbid him
either to post a cheque or to send his man with the
money.  Her only fear was that he might already
have called.  But even if he had already called, he
would call and call again, on one good pretext or
another, until ... Anyhow they would meet....
And so on, according to the inconsequent logic of
day-dreams in the everlasting night of the Tube.\par

The dreamer had a seat in the train--one of the
advantages of living near the terminus--but
strap-hangers of both sexes swayed in clusters over her,
and along the whole length of the car, and both the
platforms were too densely populated.  She could not
read; nobody could read.  As the train roared and
shook through Down Street station, she jumped up
to fight her way through straphangers towards the
platform, in readiness to descend at Dover Street.
On these early trains carrying serious people, if you
sat quiet until the train came to your station you
would assuredly be swept on to the next station.
These trains taught you to meet the future half-way.\par

As it happened the train stopped about a hundred
yards short of Dover Street, and would not move on.
Seconds and minutes passed, and the stoppage became
undeniably a breakdown.  The tunnels under the
earth from Dover Street back to Hammersmith were
full of stopped trains a few hundred yards apart, and
every train was full of serious people who positively
had to be at a certain place at a certain time.  Lilian's
mood changed; the mood of the car changed, and of
the train and of all the trains.  No one knew
anything; no one could do anything; the trains were each
a prison.  The railway company by its officials
maintained a masterly silence as to the origin of the vast
inconvenience and calamity.  Rumours were born by
spontaneous generation.  A man within Lilian's
hearing, hitherto one of God's quite minor achievements,
was suddenly gifted with divination and announced
that the electricians at the power station in Lots Road
had gone on strike without notice and every electric
train in London had been paralysed.  Half an hour
elapsed.  The prisoners, made desperate by the
prospect of the fate which attended them, spoke of
revolution and homicide, well aware that they were just as
capable of these things as a flock of sheep.  Then,
as inexplicably as it had stopped, the train started.\par

Two minutes later Lilian, with some scores of
other girls, was running madly through Dover Street
in vain pursuit of time lost and vanished.  Not a soul
had guessed the cause of the disaster, which, according
to the evening papers, was due to an old, unhappy
man who had wandered unobserved into the tunnel
from Dover Street station with the ambition to
discover for himself what the next world was like.  This
ambition had been gratified.\par

As Lilian, in a state of nervous exhaustion, flew
on tired wings up the office stairs she of course had
to compose herself into a semblance of bright, virginal
freshness for the day's work, conformably with the
employer's theory that until he reaches the office the
employee has done and suffered nothing whatever.
And Miss Grig was crossing the ante-room at the
moment of Lilian's entry.\par

"You're twenty-five minutes late, Miss Share,"
said Miss Grig coldly.  She looked very ill.\par

"So sorry, Miss Grig," Lilian answered with
unprotesting humility, and offered no explanation.\par

Useless to explain!  Useless to assert innocence
and victimization!  Excuses founded on the vagaries
of trains were unacceptable in that office, as in
thousands of offices.  Employers refused to take the least
interest in trains or other means of conveyance.  One
of the girls in the room called "the large room" had
once told Lilian that, living at Ilford, she would
leave home on foggy mornings at six o'clock in order
to be sure of a prompt arrival in Clifford Street at
nine o'clock, thus allowing three hours for little more
than a dozen miles.  But only in the book of doomsday
was this detail entered to her credit.  Miss Grig,
even if she had heard of it--which she had not--would
have dismissed it as of no importance.  Yet
Miss Grig was a just woman.\par

"Come into my room, Miss Share, will you,
please?" said Miss Grig.\par

Lilian, apprehending she knew not what, thought
to herself bitterly that lateness for a delicious
shopping appointment or a heavenly appointment to lunch
at the Savoy or to motor up the river--affairs of
true importance--would have been laughed off as
negligible, whereas lateness at this filthy office was
equivalent to embezzlement.  And she resolved anew,
and with the most terrible determination, to escape at
no matter what risks from the servitude and the
famine of sentiment in which she existed.\par

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Miss Grig's Christian name was Isabel; it was
somehow secret, and never heard in the office; and Felix,
if he ever employed it, could only have done so in
the sacred privacy of the principals' room.  Like her
brother, Miss Grig might have been almost any age,
but only the malice of a prisonful of women could
have seriously asserted her to be older than Felix.
Although by general consent an authentic virgin, she
had not the air of one.  Rather full in figure, she was
neither desiccated nor stiff, and when she moved her
soft body took on flowing curves, so that clever and
experienced observers could not resist the inference,
almost certainly wrong, that in the historic past of
Isabel lay hidden some Sabine episode or sublime
folly of self-surrender.  She had black hair, streaked
with grey, and marvellous troubled, smouldering
black eyes that seemed to yearn and appeal.  And
yet in an occasional gesture and tone she would
become masculine.\par

She went wrong in the matter of clothes, aspiring
after elegance and missing it through a fundamental
lack of distinction, and also through inability to
concentrate her effects.  Her dresses consisted of ten
thousand details held together by no unity of
conception.  Thin gold chains wandered, apparently
purposeless, over her rich form; they would
disappear like a railway in a cutting and then pop out
unexpectedly in another part of the lush rolling
countryside.  The contours of her visible garments
gave the impression that the concealed system of
underskirts, cache-corsets, corsets, lingerie, hose and
suspenders was of the most complicated, innumerable
and unprecedented variety.  And indeed she was one
of those women who, for the performance of the
morning and the evening rites, trebly secure
themselves by locks and bolts and blinds from the slightest
chance of a chance of the peril of the world's gaze.\par

The purchase of the typewriting business by Felix
had changed Miss Grig's life from top to bottom.
It had transformed her from a relic festering in sloth
and frustration into the eager devotee of a sane and
unassailable cult.  The business was her perversity,
her passion.  It was her mystic husband, fecundating
her with vital juices, the spouse to whom she joyously
gave long nights of love.  Apart from the business,
and possibly her brother, she had no real thoughts.
The concern as it existed in Lilian's time was her
creation.  She would sacrifice anything to it, her own
health and life, even the lives and health of tender
girls.  Yes, and she would sacrifice her conscience to
it.  She would cheat for it.  The charges for
typewriting were high--for she had established a tradition
of the highest-class work and rates to match--but this
did not prevent her from seizing any excuse to inflate
the bills.  The staff said that her malpractices sufficed
every year to pay the rent.  And she was never more
priestess-like, more lofty and grandiose, than when
falsifying an account.\par

Lilian found her seated alone in fluent dignity at
the great desk.\par

"Yes, Miss Grig?"\par

"May I enquire," asked Miss Grig in grave
accents not of reproach but of pain, "why you did
not put in an appearance yesterday, Miss Share?"\par

"Well, madam," Lilian answered with surprise
and gentle rebuttal, "I stayed here all the night before
and I was so tired I slept all day.  I didn't wake up
until it would have been too late to come."\par

"But you knew I was unwell, and that I should
count on you upper girls to fill my place.  Or you
should have known.  What if you {\itshape{were}} tired?  You
are young and strong; you could have stood it easily
enough, and there was much work to be done.  In a
crisis we don't think about being tired.  We just
keep on.  And even if you did sleep all day, I
suppose it never occurred to you in the evening that
someone would be needed to take charge during last
night.  The least you could have done would have
been to run up and see how things were.  But no!
You didn't even do that!  Shall I tell you who did
take charge last night?  Miss Jackson.  She'd been
on duty the whole day yesterday.  She stayed all
night till six o'clock.  And she was back again at
nine o'clock this morning--twenty-five minutes before
you.  And when I told her to go back home, she
positively refused.  She defied me.  That's what I
call the true spirit, my dear Lilian."\par

Miss Grig ceased; only her lustrous reproachful
eyes continued the harangue.  She had shown no
anger.  She had appealed to Miss Share's best
instincts.\par

The address "my dear Lilian" caused misgivings
in the employee's bosom.  Lilian knew that it was
Felix and not Miss Grig who had admitted her to
employment, and that Miss Grig had been somewhat
opposed to the engagement.  She also guessed that
Miss Grig objected to her good looks, and was always
watchful for an occasion to illustrate her theory that
a girl might be too good-looking.  And the tone of
the words "my dear Lilian" had menace in its
appealing, sad sweetness.  Miss Grig had been known
to deviate without warning into frightful inclemency,
and she always implacably got the last ounce out of
her girls.\par

The culprit offered no defence.  There was no
defence.  Assuredly she ought to have run up on the
previous evening.  Miss Grig had spoken truth--the
notion of running up had simply not occurred to the
preoccupied Lilian.  Nevertheless, while saying
naught, she kept thinking resentfully: "Here I
worked over twenty hours on end and this is my
reward--a slating!  This is my reward--a nice old
slating!"  With fallen face and drooping lower lip
she moved to leave.  She was ready to cry.\par

"And there's something else, Miss Share.  Now
please don't cry.  When Mr. Grig came up the night
before last to tell you that I was unwell, you ought
not to have allowed him to stay.  You know that he
can't stand night-work.  Men are not like us
women----"\par

"But how could I possibly----" Lilian interrupted,
quite forgetting the impulse to cry.\par

"You should have seen that he left again at once.
It would have been quite easy--especially for a girl
like you.  The result is that he's been a wreck ever
since.  It seems he stayed till four o'clock and after.
I tried my best to stop him from coming at all; but
he would come....  Please, please, think over what
I've said.  Thank you."\par

Lilian felt all the soft, cruel, unopposable force of
Miss Grig's individuality.  She vaguely and with
inimical deference comprehended the secret of Miss
Grig's success in business.  Youth and beauty and
charm, qualities so well appreciated by Felix, so rich
in promise for Lilian, were absolutely powerless
against the armour of Miss Grig.  To Miss Grig
Lilian was no better than a cross-eyed, flat-bosomed
spinster of thirty-nine.  Not a bit better!  Perhaps
worse!  Miss Grig actually had the assurance to
preach to Lilian the nauseous and unnatural doctrine
that men are by right entitled to the protection and
self-sacrifice of women.\par

Moreover, Miss Grig, without knowing it, had
convinced Lilian that her ideas concerning Lord
Mackworth were the hallucinations of an excessively
silly and despicable kind of brain.  And even if Lord
Mackworth did playfully attempt to continue the
divertissement begun in the romantic night, Miss
Grig by the sureness of her perceptions and the bland
pitilessness of her tactics would undoubtedly counter
him once and for all.  The two women, so acutely
contrasted in age, form and temperament, had this
in common--that they secretly and unwillingly
respected each other.  But the younger was at present
no match at all for the elder.\par

And yet Lilian was not cast down--neither by the
realization of her awful silliness and of her lack of
the sense of responsibility, nor by her powerlessness,
nor by the awaking from the dream of Lord Mackworth.
On the contrary, she was quite uplifted and
agreeably excited, and her brain was working on lines
of which Miss Grig had absolutely no notion
whatever.  Miss Grig, obviously truthful, had said that
she had tried to prevent her brother from coming to
the office on the last night but one.  Miss Grig had
been ready enough to let Lilian stay till morning
without a word.  But Felix had told Lilian that he
had come to the office to warn her at his sister's urgent
request.  Why had Felix lied?\par

The answer clearly was that he had had a fancy to
chat with Lilian alone, without Lilian suspecting
his fancy.  And in fact he had chatted with Lilian
alone, and to some purpose....  The answer was
that Felix was genuinely interested in Lilian.
Further, Miss Grig suspected this interest.  If Gertie
Jackson had happened to be on duty that evening,
would Miss Grig have opposed her brother's coming?
She would not.  Finally, Miss Grig herself had
confessed, perhaps unthinkingly, that Lilian was not
without influential attributes.  The phrase
"especially for a girl like you" shone in the girl's mind.\par

She went into the small room, which was at the
moment empty.  The cover had not been removed
from her own machine, but the other two machines were
open, and Millicent's was ammunitioned with paper.
Lilian could hear Milly, who shared the small room
with herself and Gertie Jackson, dividing work and
giving instructions in an important, curt voice to the
mere rabble of girls in the large room.  To Lilian's
practised sense there was throughout the office an
atmosphere of nervous disturbance and unease.
Mr. Grig being absent, she felt sure that before the end
of the day--probably just about tea-time--the
electrical fluid would concentrate itself in one spot and
then explode in a tense, violent, bitter and yet only
murmured scene between two of the girls in the large
room--unless, of course, she herself and Millicent
happened to get across one another.\par

She took off her things and put them in the
clothes cupboard.  Gertie's hat and jacket were
absent, which meant that Gertie was already out
somewhere on the firm's business.  Millicent's
precious boa was present instead of her thick scarf,
which meant that Millicent was to meet at night the
insufferably pert young man from the new branch of
Lloyds Bank in Bond Street.  The pert young man
would dine Millicent at the Popular Café in Piccadilly,
where for as little as five shillings two persons
might have a small table to themselves, the aphrodisiac
of music, and the ingenuous illusion of seeing
Life with a capital.  Now Lilian never connected Life
with anything less than the Savoy, the Carlton, and
the Ritz.  Lilian had been born with a sure instinct
in these high matters.  She looked at the contents of
the clothes-cupboard and despised them, furiously--and
in particular Millicent's boa; anybody could see
what that was; it would not deceive even a bank
clerk.  Not that Lilian possessed any article of attire
to surpass the boa in intrinsic worth!  She did not.
But she felt no envy in regard to the boa, and indeed
never envied any girl the tenth-rate--no, nor the
second-rate!  Her desire was for the best or nothing;
she could not compromise.  The neighbouring
shop-windows had effectively educated her because she was
capable of self-education.  Millicent and Gertie
actually preferred the inferior displays of Oxford Street.
She gazed in froward insolence at the workroom
full of stitching girls on the opposite side of the street.
They were toiling as though they had been toiling for
hours.  Customers had not yet begun to be shown
into the elegant apartment on the floor below the
workrooms.  Customers were probably still sipping
tea in bed with a maid to help them, and some of
them had certainly never been in a Tube in their lives.
Yet the workgirls, seen broadly across the street, were
on the average younger, prettier, daintier and more
graceful than the customers.  Why then...?  Etc.\par

The upper floors of all the surrounding streets
were studded with such nests of heads bent over
needles.  There were scores and scores of those
crowded rooms, excruciatingly feminine.  "Modes
et Robes"--a charming vocation!  You were always
seeing and touching lovely stuff, laces, feathers
and confections of stuffs.  A far more attractive
occupation than typewriting, Lilian thought.
Sometimes she had dreamt of a change, but not
seriously.  To work on other women's attire, knowing
that she could never rise to it herself, would have
broken her heart.\par

Quickly she turned away from the window, still
uplifted--passionately determined that one day she
would enter the most renowned and exclusive arcana
in Hanover Square, and not as an employee either!
Then, on that day, would she please with the virtuosity
of a great pianist playing the piano, then would
she exert charm, then would she be angelic and
divine; and when she departed there should be a
murmur of conversation.  She smiled her best in
anticipation; her fingers ran smoothingly over her
blouse.\par

Gertie Jackson came in and transformed the
rehearsed smile into an expression of dissatisfaction
and hostility far from divine; the fingers dropped as
it were guiltily; and Lilian remembered all her
grievances and her tragedy.  Gertie Jackson's bright,
pleasant, clear, drawn face showed some traces of
fatigue, but no sign at all of being a martyr to the
industrial system or to the despotism of individual
employers.  She was a tall, well-made girl of
twenty-eight, and she held herself rather nicely.  She was
kindly, cheerful and of an agreeable temper--as placid
as a bowl of milk.  She loved her work, regarding it
as of real importance, and she seemed to be entirely
without ambition.  Apparently she would be quite
happy to go on altruistically typing for ever and ever,
and to be cast into a typist's grave.\par

Lilian's attitude towards her senior colleague was
in various respects critical.  In the first place, the
poor thing did not realize that she was growing
old--already approaching the precipice of thirty!  In
the second place, though possessed of a good figure
and face, she did nothing with these great gifts.  She
had no desire to be agreeable; she was agreeable
unconsciously, as a bird sings; there was no merit in it.
She had no coquetry, and not the slightest inclination
for {\itshape{chic}}.  Her clothes were "good," and bought in
Upper Street, Islington; her excellent boots gave her
away.  She was not uninterested in men; but she did
not talk about them, she twittered about them.  To
Lilian she had the soul of an infant.  And she was
too pure, too ingenuous, too kind, too conscientious;
her nature lacked something fundamental, and Lilian
felt but could not describe what it was--save by
saying that she had no kick in either her body or her
soul.  In the third place, there was that terrible
absence of ambition.  Lilian could not understand
contentment, and Gertie's contentment exasperated
her.  She admitted that Gertie was faultless, and yet
she tremendously despised the paragon, occasionally
going so far as to think of her as a cat.\par

And now Gertie straightened herself, stuck her
chest out bravely, according to habit, and smiled a
most friendly greeting.  Behind the smile lay
concealed no resentment against Lilian for having failed
to appear on the previous evening, and no moral
superiority as a first-class devotee of duty.  What
lay behind it, and not wholly concealed, was a grave
sense of responsibility for the welfare of the business
in circumstances difficult and complex.\par

"Have you seen Miss Grig?" she asked solemnly.\par

"Yes," said Lilian, with a touch of careless
defiance; she supposed Gertie to be delicately
announcing that Miss G. had been lying in wait for her,
Lilian.\par

"Doesn't she look simply frightfully ill?"\par

"She does," admitted Lilian, who in her egotism
had quite forgotten her first impression that morning
of Miss G.'s face.  "What is it?"\par

Gertie mentioned the dreadful name of one of
those hidden though not shameful maladies which
afflict only women--but the majority of women.  The
crude words sounded oddly on Gertie's prim lips.
Lilian was duly impressed; she was as if intimidated.
At intervals the rumour of a victim of that class of
diseases runs whisperingly through assemblages of
women, who on the entrance of a male hastily change
the subject of talk and become falsely bright.  Yet
every male in the circle of acquaintances will catch
the rumour almost instantly, because some wife runs
to inform her husband, and the husband informs all
his friends.\par

"Who told you?" Lilian demanded.\par

"Oh!  I've known about it for a long time," said
Gertie without pride.  "I told Milly just now, before
I went out.  Everybody will know soon."  Lilian
felt a pang of jealousy.  "It means a terrible
operation," Gertie added.\par

"But she oughtn't to be here!" Lilian exclaimed.\par

"No!" Gertie agreed with a surprising sternness
that somewhat altered Lilian's estimate of her.  "No!
And she isn't {\itshape{going}} to be here, either!  Not if I
know it!  I shall see that she gets back home at
lunch-time.  She's quarrelled already with Mr. Grig
this morning about her coming up."\par

"Do you mean at home they quarrelled?"\par

"Yes.  He got so angry that he said if she came
he wouldn't.  He was quite right to be angry, of
course.  But she came all the same."\par

"Miss G. must have told Gertie all that herself,"
Lilian reflected.  "She'd never be as confidential with
me.  She'd never tell me anything!"  And she had
a queer feeling of inferiority.\par

"We must do all we can to help things," said
Gertie.\par

"Of course!" agreed Lilian, suddenly softened,
overcome by a rush of sympathy and a strong impulse
to behave nobly, beautifully, forgivingly towards
Miss G.\par

Nevertheless, though it was Gertie's attitude that
had helped to inspire her, she still rather disdained
the virtuous senior.  Lilian appreciated profoundly--perhaps
without being able to put her feeling into
words--the heroic madness of Miss G. in defying
common sense and her brother for the sake of the
beloved business.  But Gertie saw in Miss G.'s act
nothing but a piece of naughty and sick foolishness.
To Lilian Miss G. in her superficial yearning softness
became almost a terrible figure, a figure to be
regarded with awe, and to serve as an exemplar.  But
in contemplating Miss G. Lilian uneasily realized her
own precariousness.  Miss G. was old and plain (save
that her eyes had beauty), and yet was fulfilling her
great passion and was imposing herself on her
environment.  Miss G. was {\itshape{doing}}.  Lilian could only
{\itshape{be}}; she would always remain at the mercy of someone,
and the success which she desired could last probably
no longer than her youth and beauty.  The
transience of the gifts upon which she must depend
frightened her--but at the same time intensified anew
her resolves.  She had not a moment to lose.  And
Gertie, standing there close to her, sweet and reliable
and good, in the dull cage, amid the daily
circumstances of their common slavery, would have
understood nothing of Lilian's obscure emotion.\par

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The two girls had not settled to work when the door
of the small room was pushed cautiously open and
Mr. Grig came in--as it were by stealth.  Milly,
prolonging her sweet hour of authority in the large
room, had not yet returned to her mates.  By a
glance and a gesture Mr. Grig prevented the girls
from any exclamation of surprise.  Evidently he was
secreting himself from his sister, and he must have
entered the office without a sound.  He looked older,
worn, worried, captious--as though he needed balm
and solace and treatment at once firm and infinitely
soft.  Lilian, who a few minutes earlier had been
recalcitrant to Miss Grig's theory that women must
protect men, now felt a desire to protect Mr. Grig,
to save him exquisitely from anxieties unsuited to his
temperament.\par

He shut the door, and in the intimacy of the room
faced the two girls, one so devoted, the other perhaps
equally devoted but whose devotion was outshone by
her brilliant beauty.  For him both typists were very
young, but they were both women, familiar beings
whom the crisis had transformed from typists into
angels of succour; and he had ceased to be an
employer and become a man who demanded the aid of
women and knew how to rend their hearts.\par

"Is she in there?" he snapped, with a movement
of the head towards the principals' room.\par

"Yes," breathed Lilian.\par

"Yes," said Gertie.  "Oh!  Mr. Grig, she ought
never to have come out in her state!"\par

"Well, God damn it, of course she oughtn't!"
retorted Mr. Grig.  His language, unprecedented in
that room, ought to have shocked the respectable
girls, but did not in the slightest degree.  To judge
from their demeanour they might have been living
all their lives in an environment of blasphemous
profanity.  "Didn't I do everything I could to keep her
at home?"\par

"Oh!  I know you did!" Gertie agreed
sympathetically.  "She told me."\par

"I made a hades of a row with her about it in the
hope of keeping her in the house.  But it was no
use.  I swore I wouldn't move until she returned.
But of course I've got to do something.  Look here,
one of you must go to her and tell her I'm waiting
in a taxi downstairs to take her home, and that I
shall stick in it till she gives way, even if I'm there
all day.  That ought to shift her.  Tell her I've
arranged for the doctor to be at the house at a quarter
to eleven.  You'd better go and do it, Miss Jackson.
She's more likely to listen to you."\par

"Yes, do, Gertie!  You go," Lilian seconded the
instruction.  Then: "What's the matter, Gertie?
What on earth's the matter?"\par

The paragon had suddenly blanched and she
seemed to shiver: first sign of acute emotion that
Lilian had ever observed in the placid creature.\par

"It's nothing.  I'm only----  It's really nothing."\par

And Gertie, who had not taken off her street-things,
rose resolutely from her chair.  She, who a
little earlier had seemed quite energetic and fairly fresh
after her night's work, now looked genuinely ill.\par

"You go along," Mr. Grig urged her, ruthlessly
ignoring the symptoms which had startled Lilian.
"And mind how you do it, there's a good creature.
I'll get downstairs first."  And he stepped out of the
room.\par

The door opening showed tall, thin Millicent
returning to her own work.  Mr. Grig pushed past her
on tiptoe.  As soon as Gertie had disappeared on her
mission into the principals' room, Lilian told
Millicent, not without an air of superiority, as of an
Under-secretary of State to a common member of Parliament,
what was occurring.  Millicent, who loved "incidents,"
bit her lips in a kind of cruel pleasure.  (She had a
long, straight, absolutely regular nose, and was born
to accomplish the domestic infelicity of some male
clerk.)  She made an excuse to revisit the large room
in order to spread the thrilling news.\par

Lilian stood just behind the still open door of the
small room.  A long time elapsed.  Then the door
of the principals' room opened, and Lilian, discreetly
peeping, saw the backs of Miss Grig and Gertie
Jackson.  They seemed to be supporting each other in
their progress towards the outer door.  She wondered
what the expressions on their faces might be; she
had no clue to the tenor of the scene which had
ended in Gertie's success, for neither of the pair spoke
a word.  How had Gertie managed to beat the old
fanatic?\par

After a little pause she went to the window and
opened it and looked out at the pavement below.
The taxi was there.  Two foreshortened figures
emerged from the building.  Mr. Grig emerged
from the taxi.  Miss Grig was induced into the
vehicle, and to Lilian's astonishment Gertie followed
her.  Mr. Grig entered last.  As the taxi swerved
away, a little outcry of voices drew Lilian's attention
to the fact that both windows of the large room were
open and full of clusters of heads.  The entire office,
thanks to that lath, Millicent, was disorganized.
Lilian whipped in her own head like lightning.\par

At three o'clock she was summoned to the telephone.
Mr. Grig was speaking from a call-office.\par

"Miss Jackson's got influenza, the doctor says,"
he announced grimly.  "So she has to stay here.  A
nice handful for me.  You'd better carry on.  I'll
try to come up later.  Miss Grig said something
about some accounts--I don't know."\par

Lilian, quite unable to check a feeling of intense,
excited happiness, replied with soothing, eager
sympathy and allegiance, and went with dignity into the
principals' room, now for the moment lawfully at her
mercy.  The accounts of the establishment were
always done by Miss Grig, and there was evidence
on the desk that she had been obdurately at work on
bills when Gertie Jackson enticed her away.  In the
evening Lilian, after a day's urgent toil at her
machine, was sitting in Miss Grig's chair in the
principals' room, at grips with the day-book, the
night-book, the ledger and some bill-forms.  Although
experiencing some of the sensations of a traveller lost
in a forest (of which the trees were numerals), she was
saturated with bliss.  She had dismissed the rest of
the staff at the usual hour, firmly refusing to let
anybody remain with her.  Almost as a favour Millicent
had been permitted to purchase a night's food for her.\par

Just as the clock of St. George's struck eight, it
occurred to her that to allow herself to be found by
Mr. Grig in the occupation of Miss Grig's place
might amount to a grave failure in tact; and
hastily--for he might arrive at any moment---she removed
all the essential paraphernalia to the small room.
She had heard nothing further from Mr. Grig, who,
moreover, had not definitely promised to come, but
she was positive that he would come.  However late
the hour might be, he would come.  She would hear
the outer door open; she would hear his steps; she
would see him; and he would see her, faithfully
labouring all alone for him, and eager to take a whole
night-watch for the second time in a week.  For this
hour she had made a special toilette, with much
attention to her magnificent hair.  She looked
spick-and-span and enchanting.\par

Nor was she mistaken.  Hardly had she arranged
matters in her own room when the outer door did
open, and she did hear his steps.  The divine moment
had arrived.  He appeared in the doorway of the
room.  Rather to her regret he was not in evening
dress.  (But how could he be?)  Still, he had a
marvellous charm and his expression was less worried.
He was almost too good to be true.  She greeted him
with a smile that combined sorrow and sympathy and
welcome, fidelity and womanly comprehension, the
expert assistant and the beautiful young Eve.  She
was so discomposed by the happiness of realization
that at first she scarcely knew what either of them
was saying, and then she seemed to come to herself
and she caught Mr. Grig's voice clearly in the middle
of a sentence:'\par

"... with a temperature of 104.  The doctor said
it would be madness to send her to Islington.  This
sort of influenza takes you like this, it appears.  I
shall have it myself next....  What are you supposed
to be doing?  Bills, eh?"\par

He looked hard at her, and her eyes dropped
before his experienced masculine gaze.  She liked
him to be wrinkled and grey, to be thirty years older
than herself, to be perhaps even depraved.  She
liked to contrast her innocent freshness with his worn
maturity.  She liked it that he had not shown the
slightest appreciation of her loyalty.  He spoke only
vaguely of Miss Grig's condition; it was not a topic
meet for discussion between them, and with a few
murmured monosyllables she let it drop.\par

"I do hope you aren't thinking of staying, Mr. Grig,"
she said next.  "I shall be perfectly all right
by myself, and the bills will occupy me till something
comes in."\par

"I'm not going to stay.  Neither are you," replied
Mr. Grig curtly.  "We'll shut the place up."\par

Her face fell.\par

"But----"\par

"We'll shut up for to-night."\par

"But we're supposed to be always open!
Supposing some work does come in!  It always
does----"\par

"No doubt.  But we're going to shut up the
place--at once."  There was fatigue in his voice.\par

Tears came into Lilian's eyes.  She had expected
him, in answer to her appeal to him to depart, to
insist on staying with her.  She had been waiting for
heaven to unfold.  And now he had decided to break
the sacred tradition and close the office.  She could
not master her tears.\par

"Don't worry," he said in tones suddenly charged
with tenderness and sympathetic understanding.  "It
can't be helped.  I know just how you feel, and don't
you imagine I don't.  You've been splendid.  But I had
to promise Isabel I'd shut the office to-night.  She's
in a very bad state, and I did it to soothe her.  You
know she hates me to be here at nights--thinks I'm
not strong enough for it."\par

"That's not her reason to-night," said Lilian to
herself.  "I know her reason to-night well enough!"\par

But she gave Mr. Grig a look grateful for his
exquisite compassion, which had raised him in her
sight to primacy among men.\par

Obediently she let herself be dismissed first,
leaving him behind, but in the street she looked up at her
window.  The words "Open day and night" on the
blind were no longer silhouetted against a light
within.  The tradition was broken.  On the way to
the Dover Street Tube she did not once glance behind
her to see if he was following.\par

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Late in the afternoon of the following day Mr. Grig
put his head inside the small room.\par

"Just come here, Miss Share," he began, and then,
seeing that Millicent was not at her desk, he appeared
to decide that he might as well speak with Lilian
where she was.\par

He had been away from the office most of the day,
and even during his presences had seemingly taken no
part in its conduct.  Much work had been received,
some of it urgent, and Lilian, typing at her best
speed, had the air of stopping with reluctance to listen
to whatever the useless and wandering man might
have to say.  He merely said:\par

"We shall close to-night, like last night."\par

"Oh, but, Mr. Grig," Lilian protested--and there
was no sign of a tear this time--"we can't possibly
keep on closing.  We had one complaint this morning
about being closed last night.  I didn't tell you
because I didn't want to worry you."\par

"Now listen to me," Mr. Grig protested in his
turn, petulantly.  "Nothing worries me more than
the idea that people are keeping things from me in
order that I shan't be worried.  My sister was always
doing that; she was incurable, but I'm not going to
have it from anyone else.  If you hide things, why
are you silly enough to let out afterwards that you
were hiding them and why you were hiding them?
That's what I can't understand."\par

"Sorry, Mr. Grig," Lilian apologized briefly and
with sham humility, humouring the male in such a
manner that he must know he was being humoured.\par

His petulancy charmed her.  It gave him youth,
and gave her age and wisdom.  He had good excuse
for it--Miss Grig had been moved into a nursing
home preparatory to an operation, and Gertie was
stated to be very ill in his house--and she enjoyed
excusing him.  It was implicit in every tone of his
voice that they were now definitely not on terms of
employer and employee.\par

"That's all right!  That's all right!" he said,
mollified by her discreet smile.  "But close at six.
I'm off."\par

"I really don't think we ought to close," she
insisted, with firmness in her voice followed by
persuasion in her features, and she brushed back her hair
with a gesture of girlishness that could not be
ineffective.  He hesitated, frowning.  She went on:
"If it gets about that we're closing night after night,
we're bound to lose a lot of customers.  I can
perfectly well stay here."\par

"Yes!  And be no use at all to-morrow!"\par

"I should be here to-morrow just the same.  If
other girls can do it, why can't I?"  (A touch of
harshness in the question.)  "Oh, Milly!" she
exclaimed, neglecting to call Milly Miss Merrislate,
according to the custom by which in talking to the
principals everybody referred to everybody else as
"Miss."  "Oh, Milly!"--Millicent appeared behind
Mr. Grig at the door and he nervously made way for
her--"here's Mr. Grig wants to close again to-night!
I'm sure we really oughtn't to.  I've told Mr. Grig
I'll stay--and be here to-morrow too.  Don't you
agree we mustn't close?"\par

Millicent was flattered by the frank appeal as an
equal from one whom she was already with annoyance
beginning to regard as a superior.  From timidity in
Mr. Grig's presence she looked down her too straight
nose, but she nodded affirmatively her narrow head,
and as soon as she had recovered from the disturbing
novelty of deliberately opposing the policy of an
employer she said to Lilian:\par

"I'll stay with you if you like.  There's plenty
to do, goodness knows!"\par

"You are a dear!" Lilian exclaimed, just as if
they had been alone together in the room.\par

"Oh, well, have it as you like!" Mr. Grig rasped,
and left, defeated.\par

"Is he vexed?" Milly demanded after he had
gone.\par

"Of course not!  He's very pleased, really.  But
he has to save his face."\par

Milly gave Lilian a scarcely conscious glance of
admiration, as a woman better versed than herself in
the mysteries of men, and also as a woman of
unsuspected courage.  And she behaved like an angel
through the whole industrious night--so much so that
Lilian was nearly ready to admit to an uncharitable
premature misjudgment of the girl.\par

"And now what are you going to do about keeping
open?" inquired Mr. Grig, with bland, grim triumph
the next afternoon to the exhausted Lilian and the
exhausted Millicent.  "I thought I'd let you have
your own way last night.  But you can't see any
further than your noses, either of you.  You're both
dead."\par

"I can easily stay up another night," said Lilian
desperately, but Millicent said nothing.\par

"No doubt!" Mr. Grig sneered.  "You look as
if you could!  And supposing you do, what about
to-morrow night?  The whole office is upset, and, of
course, people must go and choose just this time to
choke us with work!"\par

"Well, anyhow, we can't close," Lilian stoutly
insisted.\par

"No!" Mr. Grig unexpectedly agreed.  "Miss
Merrislate, you know most about the large room.
You'd better pick two of 'em out of there, and tell
'em they must stay and do the best they can by
themselves.  But that won't carry us through.  {\itshape{I}} certainly
shan't sit up, and I won't have you two sitting up
every second night in turn.  There's only one thing
to do.  I must engage two new typists at once--that's
clear.  We may as well face the situation.  Where
do we get 'em from?"\par

But neither Lilian nor Milly knew just how Miss
Grig was in the habit of finding recruits to the staff.
Each of them had been taken on through private
connexions.  Gertie Jackson would probably have known
how to proceed, but Gertie was down with influenza.\par

"I'll tell you what I shall do," said Mr. Grig at
last.  "I'll get an advertisement into to-morrow's
{\itshape{Daily Chronicle}}.  That ought to do the trick.  This
affair's got to be handled quickly.  When the
applicants come you'd better deal with 'em, Miss
Share--in my room.  I shan't be here to-morrow."\par

He spoke scornfully, and would not listen to offers
of help in the matter of the advertisement.  He would
see to it himself, and wanted no assistance, indeed
objected to assistance as being merely troublesome.
The next day was the day of Miss Grig's operation,
and the apprehension of it maddened this affectionate
and cantankerous brother.  Millicent left the small
room to bestow upon two chosen members of the
rabble in the large room the inexpressible glory of
missing a night's sleep.\par

On the following morning, when Lilian, refreshed,
arrived zealously at the office half an hour earlier than
usual, she found three aspirants waiting to apply for
the vacant posts.  The advertisement had been drawn
up and printed; the newspaper had been distributed
and read, and the applicants, pitifully eager, had
already begun to arrive from the ends of London.
Sitting in Miss Grig's chair, Lilian nervously
interviewed and examined them.  One of the three gave
her age as thirty-nine, and produced yellowed
testimonials.  By ten o'clock twenty-three suitors had
come, and Lilian, frightened by her responsibilities,
had impulsively engaged a couple, who took off hats
and jackets and began to work at once.  She had
asked Millicent to approve of the final choice, but
Millicent, intensely jealous and no longer comparable
to even the lowest rank of angel, curtly declined.\par

"You're in charge," Millicent said acidly.  "Don't
you try to push it on to me, Miss Lilian Share."\par

Aspirants continued to arrive.  Lilian had the
clever idea of sticking a notice on the outer door:
"All situations filled.  No typists required."  But
aspirants continued to enter, and all of them averred
positively that they had not seen the notice on the
door.  Lilian told a junior to paste four sheets of
typing paper together, and she inscribed the notice
on the big sheet in enormous characters.  But
aspirants continued to enter, and all of them averred
positively that they had not seen the notice on the
door.  It was dreadful, it was appalling, because
Lilian was saying to herself: "I may be like them
one day."  Millicent, on the other hand, disdained
the entire procession, and seized the agreeable rôle
of dismissing applicants as fast as they came.\par

In the evening Mr. Grig appeared.  The operation
had been a success.  Gertie Jackson was, if
anything, a little worse; but the doctor anticipated an
improvement.  Mr. Grig showed not the least interest
in his business.  Lilian took the night duty alone.\par

Thenceforward the office settled gradually into its
new grooves, and, though there was much less
efficiency than under Miss Grig, there was little friction.
Everybody except Millicent regarded Lilian as the
grand vizier, and Millicent's demeanour towards
Lilian was by turns fantastically polite and
fantastically indifferent.\par

A fortnight passed.  The two patients were going
on well, and it was stated that there was a possibility
of them being sent together to Felixstowe for
convalescence.  Mr. Grig's attendance grew more regular,
but he did little except keep the books and make out
the bills; in which matter he displayed a facility that
amazed Lilian, who really was not a bit arithmetical.\par

One day, entering the large room after hours,
Lilian saw Millicent typing on a machine not her
own.  As she passed she read the words: "My
darling Gertie.  I simply can't tell you how glad I
was to get your lovely letter."  And it flashed across
her that Millicent would relate all the office doings to
Gertie, who would relate them to Miss Grig.  She
had a spasm of fear, divining that Millicent would
misrepresent her.  In what phrases had Millicent told
that Lilian had sat in Miss Grig's chair and
interviewed applicants for situations!  Was it not strange
that Gertie had not written to her, Lilian, nor she
even thought of writing to Gertie?  Too late now for
her to write to Gertie!  A few days later Mr. Grig
said to Lilian in the small room:'\par

"You're very crowded here, aren't you?"\par

The two new-comers had been put into the small
room, being of a superior sort and not fitted to join
the rabble.\par

"Oh, no!" said Lilian.  "We're quite comfortable, thank you."\par

"You don't seem to be very comfortable.  It
occurs to me it would be better in every way if you
brought your machine into my room."\par

An impulse, and an error of judgment, on Felix's
part!  But he was always capricious.\par

"I should prefer to stay where I am," Lilian
answered, not smiling.  What a letter Millicent would
have written in order to describe Lilian's promotion
to the principals' room!\par

Often, having made a mistake, Felix would
persist in it from obstinacy.\par

"Oh!  As you like!" he muttered huffily, instead
of recognizing by his tone that Lilian was right.  But
the next moment he repeated, very softly and kindly:
"As you like!  It's for you to decide."  He had not
once shown the least appreciation of, or gratitude for,
Lilian's zeal.  On the contrary, he had been in the
main querulous and censorious.  But she did not
mind.  She was richly rewarded by a single
benevolent inflection of that stirring voice.  She seemed
to have forgotten that she was born for pleasure,
luxury, empire.  Work fully satisfied her, but it was
work for him.  The mere suggestion that she should
sit in his room filled her with deep joy.\par

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{\noindent}
Miss Grig came back to the office on a Thursday,
and somewhat mysteriously.  Millicent, no doubt
from information received through Gertie Jackson,
had been hinting for several days that the return
would not be long delayed; but Mr. Grig had said not
one word about the matter until the Wednesday
evening, when he told Lilian, with apparent casualness,
as she was leaving for the night, that his sister might
be expected the next morning.  As for Miss Jackson,
she would resume her duties only on the Monday,
having family affairs to transact at Islington.  Miss
Jackson, it seemed, had developed into the trusted
companion and intimate--almost ally, if the term were
not presumptuous--of the soul and dynamo of the
business.  Miss Grig and she had suffered together,
they had solaced and strengthened each other; and
Gertie, for all her natural humility, was henceforth to
play in the office a rôle superior to that of a senior
employee.  She had already been endowed with
special privileges, and among these was the privilege
of putting the interests of Islington before the interests
of Clifford Street.\par

The advent of Miss Grig, of course, considerably
agitated the office and in particular the small room,
two of whose occupants had never seen the principal
of whose capacity for sustained effort they had heard
such wonderful and frightening tales.\par

At nine-thirty that Thursday morning it was
reported in both rooms that Miss Grig had re-entered
her fortress.  Nobody had seen her, but ears had
heard her, and, moreover, it was mystically known
by certain signs, as, for example, the reversal of a
doormat which had been out of position for a week,
that a higher presence was immanent in the place and
that the presence could be none other than Miss Grig.
Everybody became an exemplar of assiduity, amiability,
and entire conscientiousness.  Everybody prepared
a smile; and there was a universal wish for the
day to be over.\par

Shortly after ten o'clock Miss Grig visited the
small room, shook hands with Lilian and Millicent,
and permitted the two new typists to be presented to
her.  Millicent spoke first and was so effusive in
the expression of the delight induced in her by the
spectacle of Miss Grig and of her sympathy for the
past and hope for the future of Miss Grig's health,
that Lilian, who nevertheless did her best to be
winning, could not possibly compete with her.  Miss
Grig had a purified and chastened air, as of one
detached by suffering from the grossness and folly
of the world, and existing henceforth in the world
solely from a cold, passionate sense of duty.  Her
hair was greyer, her mild equable voice more soft,
and her burning eyes had a brighter and more
unearthly lustre.  She said that she was perfectly
restored, let fall that Mr. Grig had gone away at her
request for a short, much-needed holiday, and then
passed smoothly on to the large room.\par

After a while a little flapper of a beginner came
to tell Millicent that Miss Grig wanted her.  Millicent,
who had had charge of the petty cash during the
interregnum, was absent for forty minutes.  When
she returned, flushed but smiling, to her expectant
colleagues, she informed Lilian that Miss Grig
desired to see her at twelve o'clock.\par

"I notice there's an account here under the name
of Lord Mackworth," Miss Grig began, having
allowed Lilian to stand for a few seconds before
looking up from the ledger and other books in which she
was apparently absorbed.  She spoke with the utmost
gentleness, and fixed her oppressive deep eyes on
Lilian's.\par

"Yes, Miss Grig?"\par

"It hasn't been paid."\par

"Oh!"  Lilian against an intense volition began
to blush.\par

"Didn't you know?"\par

"I didn't," said Lilian.\par

"But you've been having something to do with the
books during my absence."\par

"I did a little at first," Lilian admitted.  "Then
Mr. Grig saw to them."\par

"Miss Merrislate tells me that you had quite a lot
to do with them, and I see your handwriting in a
number of places here."\par

"I've had nothing to do with them for about three
weeks--I should think at least three weeks, and--and
of course I expected the bill would be paid by
this time."\par

"But you never asked?"\par

"No.  It never occurred to me."\par

This statement was inaccurate.  Lilian had often
wondered whether Lord Mackworth had paid his bill,
but, from some obscurely caused self-consciousness,
she had not dared to make any inquiry.  She felt
herself to be somehow "mixed up" with Lord Mackworth,
and had absurdly feared that if she mentioned
the name there might appear on the face or in the
voice of the detestable Milly some sinister innuendo.\par

"Miss Merrislate tells me that she didn't trouble
about the account as she supposed it was your affair."\par

"My affair!" exclaimed Lilian impulsively.  "It's
no more my affair than anybody else's."  She
surmised in the situation some ingenious malevolence of
the flat-breasted mischief-maker.\par

"But you did the work?"\par

"Yes.  It came in while I was on duty that night,
and I did it at once.  There was no one else to do it."\par

"Who brought it in?"\par

"Lord Mackworth."\par

"Did you know him?"\par

"Certainly not.  I didn't know him from Adam."\par

"Never mind Adam, Miss Share," observed Miss
Grig genially.  "Has Lord Mackworth been in since?"\par

"If he has I've not seen him," Lilian answered
defiantly.\par

Miss Grig's geniality exasperated her because it
did not deceive her.\par

"I'm only asking for information," Miss Grig said
with a placatory smile.  "I see the copies were
delivered at six-thirty in the morning.  Who delivered
the job?"\par

"I did."\par

"Where?"\par

"At his address.  I dropped it into the letter-box
on my way home after my night's work.  I stayed
here because somebody had to stay, and I did the
best I could."\par

"I'm quite sure of that," Miss Grig agreed.
"And, of course, you've been paid for all overtime--and
there's been quite a good deal.  We all do the
best we can.  At least, I hope so....  And you've
never seen Lord Mackworth since?"\par

"No."\par

"And you simply dropped the envelope into the
letter-box?"\par

"Yes."\par

"Didn't see Lord Mackworth that morning?"\par

"Certainly not."\par

By this time Lilian was convinced that Miss Grig's
intention was to provoke her to open resentment.
She guessed also that Milly must have deliberately
kept silence to her, Lilian, about the Mackworth
account in the hope of trouble on Miss Grig's return,
and that Milly had done everything she could that
morning to ensure trouble.  The pot had been
simmering in secret for weeks; now it was boiling over.
She felt helpless and furious.\par

"You know," Miss Grig proceeded, "there's a rule
in this office that night-work must only be delivered
by hand by the day-staff the next day.  If it's wanted
urgently before the day-staff arrives the customer must
fetch it."\par

"Excuse me, Miss Grig, I never heard of that rule."\par

Miss Grig smiled again: "Well, at any rate, it
was your business to have heard of it, my dear.
Everybody else knows about it."\par

"I told Mr. Grig I was going to deliver it myself,
and he didn't say anything."\par

"Please don't attempt to lay the blame on my
brother.  He is far too good-natured."  Miss Grig's
gaze burned into Lilian's face as, with an enigmatic
intonation, she uttered these words.  "You did
wrong.  And I suppose you've never heard either
of the rule that new customers must always pay on
or before delivery?"\par

"Yes, I have.  But I couldn't ask for the money
at half-past six in the morning, could I?  And I
couldn't tell him how much it would be before I'd
typed it."\par

"Yes, you could, my dear, and you ought to have
done.  You could have estimated it and left a margin
for errors.  That was the proper course.  And if you
know anything about Lord Mackworth you must
know that his debts are notorious.  I believe he's
one of the fastest young men about town, and it's
more than possible that that account's a bad debt."\par

"But can't we send in the account again?" Lilian
weakly suggested; she was overthrown by the charge
of fast-living against Lord Mackworth, yet she had
always in her heart assumed that he was a fast liver.\par

"I've just telephoned to 6a St. James's Street, and
I needn't say that Lord Mackworth is no longer there,
and they don't know where he is.  You see what
comes of disobeying rules."\par

Lilian lifted her head: "Well, Miss Grig, the
bill isn't so very big, and if you'll please deduct it
from my wages on Saturday I hope that will be the
end of that."\par

It was plain that the bewildered creature had but
an excessively imperfect notion of how to be an
employee.  She had taken to the vocation too late in
life.\par

Miss Grig put her hand to the support of her
forehead, and paused.\par

"I can tolerate many things," said she, with great
benignity, "but not insolence."\par

"I didn't mean to be insolent."\par

"You did.  And I think you had better accept a
week's notice from Saturday.  No.  On second
thoughts, I'll pay your wages up to Saturday week
now and you can go at once."  She smiled kindly.
"That will give you time to turn round."\par

"Oh!  Very well, if it's like that!"\par

Miss Grig unlocked a drawer; and while she was
counting the money Lilian thought despairingly that
if Mr. Grig, or even if the nice Gertie, had been in
the office, the disaster could not have occurred.\par

Miss Grig shook hands with her and wished her well.\par

"Where are you going to?  It's not one o'clock
yet," asked Millicent in the small room as Lilian
silently unhooked her hat and jacket from the
clothes-cupboard.\par

"Out."\par

"What for?"\par

"For Miss G., if you want to know."\par

And she left.  Except her clothes, not a thing in
the office belonged to her.  She had no lien, no
attachment.  The departure was as simple and complete
as leaving a Tube train.  No word!  No good-bye!
Merely a disappearance.\par

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She walked a mile eastwards along Oxford Street
before entering a teashop, in order to avoid meeting
any of the girls, all of whom, except the very youngest
and the very stingiest, distributed themselves among
the neighbouring establishments for the absurdly
insufficient snack called lunch.  Every place was full
just after one o'clock, and crammed at one-fifteen.
She asked for a whole meat pie instead of a half, for
she felt quite unusually hungry.  A plot!  That was
what it was!  A plot against her, matured by Miss
G. in a few minutes out of Milly's innuendoes written
to Gertie and spoken to Miss G. herself.  And the
reason of the plot was Miss G.'s spinsterish, passionate
fear of a friendship between Felix Grig and Lilian!
Lilian was ready to believe that Miss G. had
engineered the absence of both her brother and Gertie
so as to be free to work her will without the
possibility of complications.  If Miss G. hated her, she
hated Miss G. with at least an equal fierceness--the
fierceness of an unarmed victim.  The injustice of the
world staggered her.  She thought that something
ought to be done about it.  Even Lord Mackworth
was gravely to blame, for not having paid his bill.
Still, that detail had not much importance, because
Miss G., deprived of one pretext, would soon have
found another.  After all that she, Lilian, had done
for the office, to be turned off at a moment's notice,
and without a character--for Miss G. would never
give a reference, and Lilian would never ask for a
reference!  Never!  Nor would she nor could she
approach Felix Grig; nor Gertie either.  Perhaps
Felix Grig might communicate with her.  He certainly
ought to do so.  But then, he was very casual,
forgetful and unconsciously cruel.\par

All the men and girls in the packed tea-shop had
work behind them and work in front of them.  They
knew where they were; they had a function on the
earth.  She, Lilian, had nothing, save a couple of
weeks' wages and perhaps a hundred pounds in the
Post Office Savings Bank.  Resentment against her
father flickered up anew from its ashes in her
heart.\par

How could she occupy herself after lunch?
Unthinkable for her to go to her lodging until the
customary hour, unless she could pretend to be ill;
and if she feigned illness the well-disposed slavey
would be after her and would see through the trick
at once, and it would be all over the house that
something had happened to Miss Share.  The afternoon
was an enormous trackless expanse which had to be
somehow traversed by a weary and terribly discouraged
wayfarer.  Her father had been in the habit of
conducting his family on ceremonial visits to the
public art galleries.  She went to the Wallace Collection,
and saw how millionaires lived in the 'seventies,
and how the unchaste and lovely ladies were dressed
for whom entire populations were sacrificed in the
seventeenth and eighteenth centuries.  Thence to a
cinema near the Marble Arch, and saw how virtue
infallibly wins after all.\par

When, after travelling countless leagues of time
and ennui, she reached home she received a note from
Mr. Pladda inviting her to the Hammersmith Palais
de Danse for the following night.  Mr. Pladda was
the star lodger in the house--a man of forty-five,
legally separated from his wife but of impeccable
respectability and decorum.  His illusion was that he
could dance rather well.  Mr. Pladda was evidently
coming on.\par

The next morning, which was very fine, Lilian
spent in Hyde Park, marshalling her resources.
Beyond her trifling capital she had none.  Especially
she had no real friends.  She had unwisely cut loose
from her parents' acquaintances, and she could not
run after them now that she was in misfortune.  Her
former colleagues?  Out of the question!  Gertie
might prove a friend, but Gertie must begin; Lilian
could not begin.  Lord Mackworth?  Silly idea!
She still thought of Lord Mackworth romantically.
He was an unattainable hero at about the same level
as before in her mind, for while his debts had lowered
him his advertised dissoluteness had mysteriously
raised him.  (Yet in these hours and days Mr. Pladda
himself was not more absolutely respectable and
decorous, in mind and demeanour, than Lilian.)  She
went to two cinemas in the afternoon, and, safe in
the darkness of the second one, cried silently.\par

But with Mr. Pladda at the Palais de Danse she
was admirably cheerful, and Mr. Pladda was
exceedingly proud of his companion, who added refined
manners to startling beauty.  She delicately praised
his dancing, whereupon he ordered lemon squashes
and tomato sandwiches.  At the little table she told
him calmly that she was leaving her present situation
and taking another.\par

Back in her room she laughed with horrid derision.
And as soon as she was in bed the clockwork mice
started to run round and round in her head.  A plot!
A plot!  What a burning shame!  What a burning
shame! ... A few weeks earlier she had actually been
bestowing situations on pitiful applicants.  Now she
herself had no situation and no prospect of any.  She
had never had to apply for a situation.  She had not
been educated to applying for situations.  She could
not imagine herself ever applying for a situation.  She
had not the least idea how to begin to try to get a
situation.  She passed the greater part of Sunday in
bed, and in the evening went to church and felt
serious and good.\par

On Monday morning she visited the Post Office
and filled up a withdrawal form for forty pounds.
She had had a notion of becoming a companion to
a rich lady, or private secretary to a member of
Parliament.  She would advertise.  Good clothes, worn as
she could wear them, would help her.  (She could
not face another situation in an office.  No, she
couldn't.)  The notion of a simpleton, of course!
But she was still a simpleton.  The notion, however,
was in reality only a pretext for obtaining some good
clothes.  All her life she had desired more than
anything a smart dress.  There was never a moment in
her life when she was less entitled to indulge herself;
but she felt desperate.  She was taking to clothes as
some take to brandy.  On the Wednesday she
received the money: a colossal, a marvellous sum.  She
ran off with it and nervously entered a big shop in
Wigmore Street; the shop was a wise choice on her
part, for it combined smartness with a discreet and
characteristic Englishness.  Impossible to have the
dangerous air of an adventuress in a frock bought at
that shop!\par

The next few days were spent in exactly fitting
and adapting the purchases to her body.  She had
expended the forty pounds and drawn out eight more.
Through the medium of the slavey she borrowed a
mirror, and fixed it at an angle with her own so that
she could see her back.  She was so interested and
absorbed that she now and then neglected to feel
unhappy and persecuted.  She neglected also to draw
up an advertisement, postponing that difficult matter
until the clothes should be finished.  But the house
gathered that Miss Share had got her new situation.
One afternoon, early, returning home after a search
for white elastic in Hammersmith, she saw Mr. Grig
coming away from the house.  She stood still,
transfixed; she flushed hotly, and descried a beneficent
and just God reigning in heaven.  She knew she was
saved; and the revulsion in her was nearly overwhelming.
A miracle!  And yet--not a miracle at all; for
Mr. Grig was bound by every consideration of honour
and decency to get into communication with her
sooner or later.  Her doubts of his integrity had been
inexcusable.\par

"I've just left a note for you," he said, affecting
carelessness.  "I brought it down myself because I
couldn't remember whether your number was 56 or
65, and I had to inquire.  Moreover, it's urgent.  I
want to talk to you.  Will you dine with me to-night
at the Devonshire Restaurant, Jermyn Street?  Eight
o'clock.  I shan't be able to dress, so you could wear
a hat.  Yes or no?..."  He was gone again in a moment.\par

Lilian literally ran upstairs to her room in order
to be alone with her ecstatic happiness.  She hugged
it, kissed it, smothered it; then read the wonderful
note three times, and reviewed all her new clothes.\par

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{\Large\strut{The Avowal}}
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As Lilian armed herself for the field she discovered
that, after all her care, she had omitted to provide
several small details, the absence of each of which
seemed for a few moments in turn to be a disaster.
But on the whole she was well satisfied with the total
effectiveness.  The slattern, who had been furtively
summoned, and who was made to wash her hands
before touching a hook-and-eye, expressed, in
whispers, an admiring amazement which enheartened
Lilian in spite of its uninformed quality.  The girl,
as if bewitched, followed the vision down to the
front door.\par

"If it rains you're ruined, miss," said the girl
anxiously, glancing up into the heavy darkness where
not a star was to be seen.  "You ought for to have
an umbrella."\par

Lilian shook her head.\par

"It won't rain," she answered cheerfully.\par

But as soon as she was fairly away from the house
she felt, or thought she felt, a drop of rain, and,
seeing a taxi, she impulsively hailed it, wishing to
heaven the next instant that she had not been so
audacious.  For although twice with her father and
mother she had ridden in taxis on very great
occasions, she had never in her life actually taken one
by herself.  Her voice failed and broke as she said
to the driver: "Devonshire Restaurant, Jermyn
Street"; but the driver was proficient in comprehension,
and the Devonshire Restaurant in Jermyn Street
seemed to be as familiar to him as Charing Cross
Station.\par

In the taxi she collected herself.  She thought she
was all right except for her lips.  She knew that her
lips ought to have been slightly coloured, but she
thought she also knew what was the best lip-stick and
she had not been able to get it in Hammersmith.  As
for her nails, she was glad that it had been impossible
for her to tint them.  She must remember that she
was a typist, and though typists, and even discharged
typists, generally help their lips to be crimson on
state-nights, they do not usually tint their
nails--unless they have abandoned discretion.\par

Lilian was glad when justifying rain began to
fall.  While she paid the driver at her destination,
a commissionaire held a vast umbrella over her fragile
splendour.\par

Her legs literally shook as she entered the restaurant,
exactly as once they had shaken in an air-raid.
Within was a rich, tiny little waiting-room with a
view of the dining-room beyond.  She hesitated
awkwardly, for owing to the taxi she was nearly a quarter
of an hour too early.  A respectful attendant said:\par

"Are you expecting anyone, madam?"\par

"Yes."\par

"What name, madam?"\par

"Mr. Grig."\par

"Oh yes, madam.  His table is booked."\par

She had sat down.  She could now inspect herself
in half a dozen large mirrors, and she almost ceased
to fear for her appearance.  It was her deportment
and demeanour that now troubled her.  In this matter
she was disturbingly aware that she had both to
unlearn and to learn.  She looked through the glass
partition into the restaurant.  It was small but
sumptuous; and empty of diners save for a couple of women
who were smoking and eating simultaneously.
People, chiefly in couples, kept arriving and passing
through the antechamber.  She picked up a copy of
{\itshape{What's On}}, pretending to study it but studying the
arrivals.  Then she felt a man come in and glimpsed
the attendant pointing to herself.  Mr. Grig could not
entirely conceal his astonishment at the smartness of
her appearance.  He had in fact not immediately
recognized her.  His surprised pleasure and
appreciation gave her both pleasure and confidence.\par

"I'm not late," he said, resuming rapidly his
rather quizzical matter-of-factness.\par

"No.  I was too early."\par

The attendant took Mr. Grig's overcoat like a
sacred treasure; he was shown to be in a dark blue
suit; and they passed to the restaurant.\par

Lilian thought:\par

"Anyway, he can't think I've bought these clothes
specially for this affair, because he only asked me this
afternoon."\par

The table reserved was in a corner.  Lilian had a
full view of the whole restaurant, while Mr. Grig
had a full view of nothing but Lilian.  For a girl in
Lilian's situation he was an ideal host, for the reason
that he talked just as naturally--and in particular
curtly--as if they had been at the office together.
When a waiter shackled in silver approached with
the wine list, he asked:\par

"What wine do you prefer?"\par

"Whatever you prefer," she replied, with a prompt
and delicious smile.\par

"Oh, no!" he protested.  "That won't do at all.
If a woman's given the choice she ought to choose.
She must submit ideas, at any rate.  Otherwise we
shall go wandering all through the wine list and
finally settle on something neither of us wants."\par

Lilian had learnt a little about wines (she had
sipped often from the paternal glass), and also about
good plain cooking.\par

"Burgundy," she said.\par

Without another word Mr. Grig turned to the
Burgundy page, and while he was selecting Lilian
took off her gloves and gazed timidly around.  It was
the silver table-lamps, each glowing under a canopy
of orange, that impressed her more than anything
else.  She saw shoulders, bosoms, pearls, white
shirt-fronts, black backs--the room was still filling--all
repeated in gilt mirrors.  The manner of the
numerous waiters corresponded to her notion of court
chamberlains.  This was the first high-class
restaurant she had ever seen, and despite her nervousness
she felt more at home in it, more exultingly happy
in it, than anywhere before in all her existence.  She
passionately loved it, and her beauty seemed to
increase in radiance.  She liked to think that it was
extremely costly.  Compare it to the Palais de Danse,
Mr. Pladda, and the tomato sandwiches!  Ah!  It
was the genuine article at last!  She took surreptitious
glances also at Mr. Grig's bent face; and the face was
so strange to her, though just the same as of old, that
she might have been seeing it for the first time.  The
greatness, the enormity of the occasion, frightened
her.  What were they doing there together?  And
what in the future would they do together?  Was he
really and seriously attracted by her?  Was she in
love with him?  Or was it all a curious and
dangerous deception?  She had always understood that
when one was in love one knew definitely that one
was in love.  Whereas she was sure of nothing
whatever.  Nevertheless she was uplifted into a beatific,
irrational and reckless joy.  Never had she felt as she
felt while Mr. Grig was selecting the Burgundy.\par

"Now we'd better be getting to business," said
he, when the hors {\itshape{d'oeuvre}} had been removed and the
soup served.  "I had a letter from my sister this
morning.  She wrote--wait a minute!"  He pulled
a letter from his pocket and read out: "'I'm sorry
to say I've been compelled to get rid of poor Lilian
Share.  She's a nice enough girl in her way, but
when you're not here I'm in charge of this office, and
as she couldn't treat me with the respect due to me,
I had to decide at once what to do, and I did decide.
I treated her generously, and I hope she'll soon get
another place.  She will, of course, because she can
be so very attractive {\itshape{when she likes}}'--underlined--'but
I fear she isn't likely to keep it unless she
changes her style of behaviour.'"  He smacked the
letter together and returned it to his pocket.  "There,
you see!  I'm being remarkably frank with you.  I
came up from Brighton on purpose to tell you, and
I'm going, back by the last train to-night.  My sister
is quite unaware of this escapade.  In fact, at the
moment I'm leading a double life.  Now!  I've
given you one version of this mighty incident.  Give
me your version."\par

Lilian, troubled, looked at her mother's engagement
ring on her finger--the sole jewel she carried--and
smiled with acute restraint at her plate.\par

"{\itshape{Have}} you got another situation?  I suppose
not," Mr. Grig went on.\par

"No--not yet."\par

"Have you tried for one?"\par

"No."\par

"Then what are you about?"\par

"Oh!  My father left me a little money--very
little, but I'm not starving."\par

"So I should judge....  Well, tell me all about it."\par

"I didn't mean to be rude to her--really I didn't.
It was about a small bill of Lord Mackworth's."\par

She related the episode in detail, repeating the
conversation with marvellous exactitude, but with too
many "she saids, she saids" and "I saids, I
saids."  Mr. Grig laughed when she came to the offer to pay
the bill herself, and after a moment she gave a slight
responsive smile.  She was very careful not to make
or even to imply the least charge against Miss Grig,
and she accomplished the duplicity with much skill.\par

"I can promise you one thing," said Mr. Grig.
"The moment I get back I'll see that Milly is sacked.
I cannot stick that bag of bones."\par

"{\itshape{Please}} don't!"\par

"You don't want me to?"\par

Lilian shook her head slowly.\par

"All right, then.  I won't.  Now I'll tell you the
whole business in a nutshell.  My sister's a great
woman.  She's perfectly mad, but she's a great
woman.  Only where I'm concerned she's always
most monstrously unscrupulous.  I'm her religion--always
was, but more than ever since I bought that
amusing business.  She was dying of boredom.  It
saved her.  When I got myself divorced she was
absolutely delighted.  She had me to herself again.
Her jealousy where I'm concerned is ferocious.  She
can't help it, but it's ferocious.  Tigresses aren't in
it with her.  She was jealous of you, and she'd
determined to clear you out.  I've perceived that for a
long time."\par

"But why should she be jealous of me?  I'm sure
I've never----"\par

"Well, she's damned clever, Isabel is, and she's
seen that I'm in love with you.  Gone--far gone!"\par

He spoke with strange detachment, as of another
person.\par

The thud-thud of Lilian's heart appalled her.  She
blushed down to her neck.  Her hand shook.  The
restaurant and all its inhabitants vanished in a cloud
and then slowly reappeared.  Her confusion of mind
was terrible.  She was shocked, outraged, by the
negligently brutal candour of the avowal; and at the
same time she was thinking: "I'd no idea that any
man was as marvellous as this man is, and I don't
think there can possibly be another man quite as
marvellous anywhere.  And his being in love with
me is the most ravishing, lovely, tender--tender--tender
thing that ever happened to any girl.  And,
of course, he is in love with me.  He's not pretending.
{\itshape{He}} would never pretend...."\par

She wanted to be unconscious for a little while.
She did not know it, but her beautiful face was
transfigured by the interplay of shyness, modesty, soft
resentment, gratitude, ecstasy and determination.
Her head was bowed and she could not raise it.
Neither could she utter a single word.  She looked
divine, and thought she looked either silly or sulky.
Mr. Grig glanced aside.  A glimpse of paradise had
dazzled the eternal youth in him.  The waiter bore
away the soup-plates.\par

"Perhaps that's enough about business for the
present," said Mr. Grig at length.  "Let's talk about
something else.  But before we start I must just tell
you you're the most stylish creature in this restaurant.
I was staggered when I came in and saw you.
Staggered!"\par

She did raise her head.\par

"Why?" she asked with exquisite gentleness.\par

Mr. Grig, overwhelmed, offered no response.\par

As for her determination, it amounted to this: "I
will be as marvellous as he is.  I will be more
marvellous.  I will be queen, slave, everything.  He doesn't
guess what is in store for him."  She did not think
about the difference in their ages, nor about marriage;
nor did she even consider whether or not she was in
love with him.  Chiefly, she was grateful.  And what
she saw in front of her was a sublime vocation.  Her
mood was ever so faintly tinged with regret because
they were not both in evening dress.\par

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The evening and all Lilian's emotions seemed to start
afresh.  The look of the restaurant was changed.
The tables had been cleared of the grosser apparatus
of eating, and showed white cloths with only white
plates, fruit, small glasses, small cups, ash-trays.
Most of the waiters had vanished; the remainder stood
aside, moveless, inobtrusive, watchful.  The diners
had abandoned themselves to intimacy or the sweet
coma of digestion.  Some talked rather loudly, others
in a murmur.  Women leaned back, or put their
elbows on the table, letting cigarette smoke float
upwards across their eyes.  A few tables were already
deserted, and the purity of their emptiness seemed
bafflingly to demonstrate that events may happen and
leave behind absolutely no trace.  Without
consulting Lilian Mr. Grig gave an order and two small
glasses were slowly filled to the brim with a green
liquid.  Lilian recognized it for the very symbol of
delicate licence.  She was afraid to sip, lest she
might be disillusioned concerning it, and also lest
the drinking of it might malignly hasten the
moment of departure of the last train for
Brighton.\par

Mr. Grig was of those who murmured.  His wrists
lay one over the other on the table and his face was
over the table; and it seemed strange, so low and
even was his speech, that Lilian could catch every
word, as she did.  The people at the next table could
have heard nothing.  All the animation and variety
were in his features, none in his tone.  He had been
telling her about Brighton.  He saw the town of
Brighton as a living, developing whole, discussing
it as a single organism, showing how its evolution
was still in active process, and making the small
group of men who were exploiting it and directing
it appear like creative giants and the mass of
inhabitants like midgets utterly unconscious of their own
manipulation.  And in his account of the vast affair
there was no right and no wrong; there were merely
the dark aims and the resolution of the giants
determined to wax in power and to imprint themselves on
the municipality.  Lilian had never heard such
revealing talk; she could not follow all of it, but she
was fascinated, wonderstruck; profoundly impressed
by the quality of the brain opposite to her and the
contemptibleness of her own ignorance of life; amazed
and enraptured that this brain could be interested in
herself.  Mr. Grig related the story of the middle-aged
proprietor of one of the chief hotels who had
married a young wife.\par

"He had broken up his family, and the family is
the real unit of society--and there was no need for it!
No need at all!  But then, you see, he'd never had
time in his existence to understand that a middle-aged
man who has already had experience of marriage and
marries a girl young enough to be his daughter is
either a coward or a fool or without taste.  He would
only do it because he's mad for her, and that's the
very reason for not doing it.  When romance comes
in that way it wants the sauce of secrecy and
plotting--the double life, and so on.  The feeling of
naughtiness--naughtiness is simply a marvellous feeling;
you must sometimes have guessed that, haven't
you?--perversity, doing society in the eye.  It's a
continual excitement.  Of course, it needs cleverness on
both sides.  You haven't got to be clumsy over it.
The woman runs risks, but nothing to the risks she'd
run in marriage.  And if the thing dies out in her,
and they haven't been clumsy, she's free as air to start
again.  She's got her experience gratis, and there's
a mysterious flavour about her that's nearly the most
enticing flavour on earth.  Naturally people will talk.
Let 'em.  No harm in rumour.  In fact, the more
rumour the better."  He went on with no pause.
"You've not looked at me for about five hours.  Look
at me now and tell me you're disgusted.  Tell me
you're frightened."\par

She lifted her eyes and gazed at him for a few
seconds, not smiling.  Her skin tingled and crept.
Then she sipped the crême de menthe and at first it
tasted just like water.\par

"A woman wants making.  Only a man can make
a woman.  She has to be formed.  She can't do it
herself.  A young man may be able to do it, but
he's like a teacher who swots up the night before
what he has to teach the next day.  And he's a
fearful bungler, besides being cruel--unconsciously.
Whereas an older man, a much older man--he
knows!  It's a unique chance for both of them.  She
has so much to give, and she has so much to learn.
It's a fair bargain.  Perhaps the woman has a little
the best of it.  Because after all she loses nothing
that it isn't her business to lose--and the man
may--well, he may kill himself.  And the chance for a
clever girl to be 'made' without any clumsiness!
What a chance! ... Well, I won't say {\itshape{which}} of 'em
has the best of it....  I'm speaking impartially.  If
you live to be as old as Ninon de l'Enclos you'll
never meet a more honest man than I am."\par

Lilian felt intoxicated, but not with the Burgundy
nor with the crême de menthe.  Rather with sudden
fresh air.  She thought: "Be careful!  Be careful!
You aren't yourself.  Something queer's come over
you."  She was not happy.  She was alarmed.  Once
before she had been alarmed by herself, but this time
she was really alarmed.  She was glad that she had
always despised boys of her own age.  What did
Mr. Grig mean by saying that a man might kill
himself?  She didn't know....  Yes, she knew....
She saw clearly that a woman must be formed by a
man, and that until she was formed she would not be
worthy of herself.  She longed ardently to be formed.
As she stood she was futile.  She could exercise no
initiative, make use of no opportunities; and her best
wisdom was to remain negative--in order to avoid
mistakes.  Something that looked like a woman but
wasn't one.  She had the intelligence to realize how
insipid she was.  Ambition surged through her anew
and with fresh power.\par

Mr. Grig drove her home, and the taxi was a little
dark vibrating room in which they were alone
together, and safe from all scrutiny.  She was
painfully constrained.\par

"Yes," said Mr. Grig, after an interminable
silence.  "My sister was quite right."\par

"What about?" Lilian asked in a child's voice.\par

"I'm in love.  What are you going to do about
it?"  He turned his head impulsively towards her,
gazed at her in the dim twilight of the taxi, and then
kissed her.  In spite of herself she yearned to give,
and the yearning thrilled her.\par

"Please!  Please!" she murmured in modest,
gentle, passive protest.\par

Another pause.\par

"I shall write to you to-morrow," he said.  "In
the meantime, believe me, you're entirely marvellous."  He
was looking straight in front of him at the driver's
shaggy shoulders.  That was all that occurred, except
the handshake.\par

When she let herself into the house the servant
was just going upstairs to bed, after her usual
sixteen-hour day.\par

"So you're back, miss."\par

"No!" thought Lilian.  "It's somebody else
that's come back.  The girl you mean will never
come back."\par

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{\Large\strut{PART III}}
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{\Large\strut{I}}
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{\Large\strut{In the Hotel}}
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{\noindent}
Felix came quietly through the communicating door
into Lilian's shuttered and close room.  Between the
two bedrooms was a bathroom.  All the bedrooms in
the hotel seemed to be designed on the same plan--too
high, too long, too narrow, with the head of the
bed behind the door and directly facing the window;
a wardrobe, a dressing-table, a washstand, a
writing-table, an easy chair (under the window), two cane
chairs, a night-table, and two electric lights so
devilishly arranged that they could not be persuaded
to burn simultaneously; a carpet overgrown with
huge, gorgeous flowers, and the walls overgrown with
huge, gorgeous flowers of another but equally mirific
plant.  Outside the bedroom a bell rang at short
intervals--all the guests in the neighbourhood
performed, according to their idiosyncrasies, on the same
bell--and slippered feet of servants rushing to and fro
in the corridor shook the planks of Lilian's floor as
they passed.\par

Amid the obscurity of the room Lilian's curved
form, lying heaped on its side, and rather like a
miniature mountain that sloped softly down towards
the head and towards the feet, could be vaguely
deciphered in the bed; and hillocks of attire, some
pale, others coloured, some fragile and diaphanous,
others resistant to the world's peering, lay dimly about
on chairs and even on the writing-table.  The air,
exhausted by the night, had a faint and delicate
odour that excited, but did not offend, Felix's
nostrils.\par

"Is it time to get up?" Lilian murmured in the
voice of a sleepy child.\par

"No."\par

Her brain slowly came to life.  Flitting in and out
of her happiness there were transient apprehensions--not
about the morality, but about the security, of her
situation.  They disappeared, all except one, as soon
as she looked firmly at them, because she had the
most perfect confidence in Felix's good faith.  The
unity of the pair had begun in London, under
conditions provided by Felix, who, however, did not
care for them, and who had decided that he would
take her away for a holiday in order that they might
both reflect upon and discuss at length the best
method of organizing a definite secret existence.\par

It was during the preliminaries to the departure
that she had been specially struck by his
straightforwardness.  He would have no wangling with
passports.  She must travel as herself.  She could think
of no acquaintance qualified to sign the application
for her passport.  It was Felix's suggestion that she
should go to the Putney doctor who had attended her
father and mother.  The pair had travelled separately
on the same {\itshape{train de luxe}}, for which, with Felix's
money, she bought her own ticket.  The cost of the
ticket and the general expensiveness of the purchases
which Felix insisted on her making had somewhat
frightened her.  He reassured her by preaching the
relativity of all things.  "You must alter your
scale--it needs only an effort of the imagination," he had
said; and explained to her his financial status.  She
learned that he had an independent income, and his
sister another though much smaller independent
income, and that the typewriting business was a
diversion, though a remunerative one; also that an
important cash bonus just received from an insurance policy
enabled him to be profuse without straining his
ordinary resources.\par

She had trembled at the reception office of the
great hotel, but Felix, laughing at her fears, accomplished
all formalities for her quite openly, and indeed
the discreet incuriosity of the hotel officials fully
confirmed the soundness of his attitude.  Ignoring the
description on the passport, he had told her to sign
as "Madame," and he threw out negligently that she
was his cousin.  This was his sole guile.  Before
going upstairs he had written out a telegram and
shown it to her.  It was to his sister, to say that he
had arrived safely and sent his love.  "She has to
be deceived," he murmured, "but she's got to be
treated decently.  It was all I could do to keep her
from coming to see me off at Victoria!"  He smiled.
Lilian was impressed.  When Lilian found that
Felix's bedroom stood next to her bathroom her
anxieties were renewed.  Felix laughed again, and
rang, for the door between the bathroom and his
bedroom was locked.  In a few minutes a dark and
stoutish chambermaid entered with a pleasant,
indulgent, comprehending gravity, and unlocked the door.
"What is your name?" he asked.  "Jacqueline, monsieur,"
she replied, and cordially accepted a twenty-franc
note from him.  It was all so simple, so natural,
so un-English, so enheartening.  In two hours they
had settled down.  All the embarrassing preludes to
the closest intimacy had been amply achieved in
London.\par

Lilian stretched herself voluptuously, murmured
with a magnificent yawn, "Ah!  How I have slept!"
and, slipping out of bed, padded unshod up the room
to Felix, who sat passive in the easy chair.  She took
the bearings of his shape in the gloom, and dropped
lightly on to his knees.\par

"What am I sitting on?" she exclaimed, startled.\par

"My newspapers."\par

Touched by the fact that he had been waiting to
read his beloved papers until she should be ready to
rise, she threw her arms passionately round his neck
and crushed her face into his.  Daily it became
clearer to her that he adored her; and yet she could
scarcely believe it, because she felt so young--even
childish--and so crude and insipid.  She determined
with a whole-souled resolve that renewed itself every
hour to stop at nothing to please him.\par

"Do I make you happy?" she whispered
almost inarticulately, her lips being buried in his
cheek.\par

"You do."\par

After a moment she sprang up, seized her thin,
loose, buttonless dressing-gown, and having somehow
got into it, opened the window and violently pushed
back the shutters.  Strong sunlight rushed blazing
into the room like an army into a city long besieged
and at last fallen.  Millions of buoyant motes were
revealed, and all the minutest details of the chamber.
Lilian looked out.  There were the shady gardens of
the hotel, the white promenade with strolling visitors
in pale costumes, the calm ultramarine Mediterranean,
the bandstand far to the right emitting inaudible
music, the yellow casino, beyond the casino the jetty
with its group of white yachts, and, distant on either
side, noble and jagged mountains, some of them
snow-capped.  Incredible!  She heard Felix moving
within the room, and turned her head.\par

"Darling, what are you doing?"\par

"Ringing for your coffee."\par

"What time is it?"\par

"Haven't the least."\par

"But your watch?"\par

"Haven't got it on."\par

"But you're all dressed."\par

"Haven't put my things in my pockets."\par

She clasped his arm and led him silently through
the bathroom into his own bedroom, and up to
the night-table, the drawer of which she pulled
open.  All his "things" were arranged carefully
therein.\par

"Oh!  Men are funny!" she laughed.\par

The number and the variety of the articles they
carried in their innumerable pockets!\par

"{\itshape{I}} will put your things in your pockets," she said,
and began to do so.\par

"Wrong!" he would protest from time to time;
but he would give no positive direction, and she had
to discover the proper pocket by experiment.  It was
a most wonderful operation, and it deliciously
illustrated the exotic, incomprehensible, exquisite
curiousness of men.  She was proud of having thought of
it, and proud of the pleasure in his face.  As she
glanced at the watch her brow puckered.\par

"I shall be frightfully late!"\par

"It is impossible to be late where time does not
exist."\par

"Is that Jacqueline with my coffee?" she said,
listening, and ran back to her room, pulling him after
her.\par

Yes, she admitted she was a perfect child, but she
could not help it.  While she drank the coffee he
put on his eyeglasses and opened the newspapers,
one English, one French.  She went into the
bathroom.\par

"Felix!  Felix!" she called presently from the
bathroom.  "Bring me in that soft towel I've left on
the chair by the writing-table."\par

Then she returned to the bedroom and did her
abundant glossy chestnut hair, and by innumerable
small stages dressed.  He was reading his papers, but
she knew that he was also watching her, and she loved
him to watch her dress, from the first stage to the
last.  She was too young to have anything to conceal,
and his pleasure, which he tried to mask, was so
obvious.  He dropped {\itshape{The Times}} and turned to the
French paper.\par

"Felix, do you know what?"\par

"What?"\par

"I'm frightfully ashamed of not being able to
speak French.  If I could only speak it a quarter as
well as you do."\par

"That's nothing.  I couldn't say two words
without a Frenchman knowing instantly that I wasn't
French."\par

"But you can talk it so quickly.  Couldn't I have
someone in here every morning to teach me for an
hour?  People do.  I could get up earlier."\par

"Certainly not," Felix replied.  "If you did you'd
have something to be late for.  You'd bring time
into existence and spoil everything.  Besides,
learning French is hard work.  You wouldn't learn it by
instinct, as you learn clothes.  And you aren't here
for hard work.  Learn French by all means, but not
in this place.  London's the place for hard work.
Exercise your sense of the fitness of things, my clever
girl."\par

She did not fully understand this philosophy, but
she accepted it admiringly.\par

"What dress would you like me to wear,
darling?"  She was at the wardrobe.\par

"That white one."\par

"Then I shall have to change my stockings."\par

"Well, the yellow one, then.  It doesn't matter."\par

"Of course it matters," she said with earnestness,
sitting down religiously, fanatically, to change her
stockings.  "Don't you know that I don't want
anything in the world except to please you?  I only
wanted to learn French so you shouldn't have to be
ashamed of me."\par

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{\Large\strut{II}}
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{\centering
{\Large\strut{The Big Yacht}}
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{\noindent}
After lunching to music beneath a vast parasol in
the hotel garden, which looked like a tented field,
they were bowed away by servitors in black and white,
and bowed into the hotel by servitors in blue and
gold, and bowed along the central artery of the hotel
by apprentice-servitors in scarlet, and bowed out of
the hotel again on to the promenade by servitors in
blue and gold.  It was half-past two; the glorious
sun was already slipping down; they had done
absolutely nothing, and yet they had not wasted a
moment; and on the faces of all the many-coloured
servitors there was the smiling assurance that they
had been admirably exerting themselves in full
correctness, and had not a moment to waste if they
honestly desired to pursue idleness as idleness ought
to be pursued.  Indeed, the winter day was too short
for the truly conscientious.\par

"Your little fur?" exclaimed Felix, who was
wearing his overcoat; he stopped.\par

"But, darling, I'm far too hot as it is!"\par

"In an hour the day will be gone," said he, and
insisted on the treachery of the climate.\par

He frequently insisted on the treachery of the
climate.  If he happened to cough ever so slightly,
he would say that the entire Riviera was bad for the
throat and that a sore throat was the most dangerous
complaint known to man.  Lilian indulgently thought
him fussy about her health and his own and the
awful menaces of the exquisite climate; but she did
not attribute his fussiness to his age; she regarded
him as merely happening to be a bit fussy on certain
matters.  Nor did she regret the fussiness, for it gave
her new occasions to please him and (in her heart) to
condescend femininely towards him.\par

"I shan't need it----"\par

"Please!  I'll fetch it, and I'll carry it.  No!
You stay there."\par

"But do you know where it is, Felix?"\par

"I know where it is."  His voice had become very
firm and somewhat tyrannic.\par

She stood on the pavement, put up her orange
sunshade, and mused contentedly upon his prodigious
care for her--proof of his passionate attachment.
People were passing in both directions all the time on
the broad {\itshape{digue}} beyond the roadway.  Some strolled
in complete possession of idleness; others hurried
after it, with tools such as tennis rackets to help them.
Nearly all, men and women, stared at her as they
passed, until at length she turned round and faced
the revolving door of the hotel.\par

"Oh!  {\itshape{Thank}} you, dearest; you're spoiling me
horribly.  Do let me take it."\par

"I will not.  Of course I am spoiling you.  That
is what you're here for.  Your highest duty in life is
to be spoiled.  Let's go on the Mole."\par

They set off.  A dark man, overdressed in striped
flannels, nearly stood still at the sight of Lilian,
gazing at her as though he had paid five francs for
the right to do so.\par

"My goodness!" she muttered.  "How they do stare here!"\par

"Why grudge them harmless enjoyment," Felix
observed.  "You're giving pleasure to every man
that looks at you, and envy to most of the women.
You're fulfilling a very valuable function in the world,
If anyone is justified in objecting, I am, and I don't
object.  On the contrary, I'm as proud of the staring
as if I'd created you.  There's nothing to beat you
on this coast, with your ingenuous English style of
beauty, and half the pretty women here would sell
their souls to look as innocent as you {\itshape{look}}, believe me!"\par

Lilian said nothing in reply.  The fact was that
the man simply could not open his mouth without
giving her more to think about than she could
manage.\par

At the quay they examined all the yachts, big and
little, that were moored, stern on, side by side.  There
were three large steam yachts, and the largest of the
three, with two decks and a navigating deck, all
white and gold and mahogany and bunting and
flowers and fluttering awnings, overpoweringly
dominated the port.  Felix stopped and stared at the
glinting enormity.\par

"Is that only a yacht?" Lilian cried.  "Why!
It's bigger than the Channel steamer!"\par

"No!" said Felix, "but she's the fourth largest
yacht in the world.  That's the celebrated {\itshape{Qita}}.
Crew of eighty odd.  She came in last night for
stores, and she's leaving again to-night, going to
Naples.  And here are the stores, you may depend."  A
lorry loaded with cases of wine drove up.\par

"But it's all like a fairy tale," said Lilian.\par

"Yes, it is.  And so are you.  You see, the point
is that she's just about the finest of her kind.  And
so are you.  She costs more than you to run, of
course.  A machine like that can't be run on less than
a thousand pounds a week.  Come along.  Who's
staring now?"\par

"A thousand pounds a {\itshape{week}}!" Lilian murmured,
aghast.  Her imagination resembled that of a person
who, on reaching a summit which he has taken for
the top of the range, sees far higher peaks beyond.
And the conviction that those distant peaks were
unattainable saddened her for a moment.  "It's
absolutely awful."\par

"Why awful?  If you have the finest you must
pay for it.  A thousand a week's nothing to that
fellow.  Moreover, he's a British citizen, and he did
splendid service for his country in the war.  Among
other things, he owns two of the best brands of
champagne.  The War Office gave him a commission and
a car; and he travelled all over Europe selling his
own champagne at his own price to officers' messes.
After all, officers couldn't be expected to fight
without the drinks they're accustomed to, could they?"\par

Lilian obscurely divined irony.  She often wished
that she could be ironical and amusing, as Felix was;
but she never could.  She couldn't conceive how it
was done.\par

They reached the Mole, which was quite deserted,
being off the map of correctness, and surveyed the
entire scene--ships, blue water, white hotels, casino,
villas, green wooded slopes all faint in the haze, and
rising sharply out of the haze the lofty line of snow.
In the immediate foreground, almost under their feet,
was a steel collier from the north.  Along the whole
length of the ship carts were drawn up and cranes
were creaking, and grimy ragged men hurried sweating
to drop basketfuls of coal into the carts, and full
carts were always departing and empty carts always
coming.  The activity seemed breathless, feverish and
without the possibility of end--so huge was the
steamer and so small were the pair-horse carts.\par

Two yacht's officers passed in shiny blue with gilt
buttons and facings.  Growled one:\par

"Yes, and how the hell do they expect me to keep
my ship clean with this thing between me and the
weather?"\par

"Yes," agreed the other.  "How in hell do they?
Why they don't make 'em unload somewhere else
beats me."\par

Then Felix and Lilian turned seawards and
watched the everlasting patience of the fishers on the
rocks below.\par

"Better put your fur on," said Felix suddenly.\par

She put it on.\par

Returning to the quay Lilian could not keep her
eyes off the superb yacht.  But in a moment she bent
them suddenly and quickened her pace.\par

"You're feeling chilly," said Felix triumphantly.
"The sun's got behind the fort."\par

On the lower deck of the yacht, under an awning
and amid easy chairs and cushions, she had seen a
tall man earnestly engaged in conversation with a
young and pretty girl.  She thought the man was
Lord Mackworth.  She felt sure it was Lord
Mackworth.  She wanted to turn her head and make
certain, but she dared not lest he should see her.  She
was blushing.  There was nothing whatever in the
brief relations between Lord Mackworth and herself
to which the slightest exception could be taken by the
strictest moralist.  Yet she was blushing.  She blushed
because of the dreams she had once had concerning
him.  Her old, forgotten thoughts, which nobody on
earth could ever have guessed, made her into a kind of
criminal.  It was very strange.  Perhaps also she
feared a little what Lord Mackworth might think of
her if he saw her in that place, in those clothes, with
a man much older than herself.  How inexpressibly
fortunate that the yacht was leaving that night!
Instead of looking over her shoulder at Lord
Mackworth, she looked over her shoulder at Felix, to
reassure herself about her deep fondness for him and
about his reliability in even the greatest crises.\par

"I love him," she reflected, "because he is so
marvellously clever and kind and dependable and
just, and because he worships me--I don't know why."\par

But she was devoted to him because he had picked
her out of a batch and opened her eyes to the apple
on the tree and made her eat it, and because she had
worked and watched and suffered for him in the office,
and been cast out of the office for him, and because
of a funny enigmatic look in his wrinkled eyes.  She
would have liked him just the same if he had been
cruel and undependable and had not worshipped her.
And she desired ardently to be still more and more
beautiful and luxurious for him, and more and more
to be stared at for him, and to render him still happier
and happier.  She was magnificently ready to kill
him with bliss.\par

After several hundred yards she turned round and
looked at the yacht.  No figures were distinguishable
now on the deck.  She thought captiously:\par

"I wonder who that doll was and what they were
talking about with their heads so close together."\par

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{\noindent}
Lilian, in a {\itshape{negligé}}, was somnolently stretched out
in the easy chair in her room when Felix peeped in.
He looked at her enquiringly in silence for a moment,
and she gave him a hazy smile.\par

"Oh!" he said.  "Then you won't feel like going
into the Casino to-night after all?"\par

"Nothing to stop me," she replied, with a peculiar
intonation, light and yet anxious.\par

"Hurrah!" exclaimed Felix very gaily, almost
boyishly.  "Then we'll go."\par

The apprehension which now for two days had
been eating like a furtive cancer into her mind
suddenly grew and contaminated the whole of her
consciousness; she could not understand his levity, for
she had not concealed from him the sinister misgiving.\par

"Yes!" she murmured with a sort of charming
and victimized protest.  "That's all very well,
but----"  And she stopped, and the smile expired from
her face.\par

He shrugged his shoulders, gave a short,
affectionate, humouring laugh, and said with kind
superiority, utterly positive:\par

"What have I told you?  The thing's absolutely
imposs!"\par

And just as suddenly she was quite reassured and
the apprehension vanished away.  It could not exist
against his perfect certitude.  She lit up a new smile.\par

"Look here," he went on, "we'll dine in the
Casino if we can.  Of course, every blessed table may
be booked, but I'll have a try."\par

A quarter of an hour later, when she had begun
to dress, he returned with the exciting information
that, at precisely the right instant, somebody had
telephoned to countermand an inside table and he had
secured it.\par

They arrived very late in the Casino restaurant,
yet more diners came after them than had come
before, so that ultimately it would have been difficult
to draw a straight line between dinner and supper.
The stars in the arched firmament of the vast and
lofty hall challenged the stars of heaven in number
and splendour, and seemed to win easily.  Light fell
in glittering floods on the flowered tables and on the
shoulders of the women.  In the centre of the floor was
an oblong parquet sacred to dancing.  The band, in
which Englishmen and varied dagoes were mingled,
sat, clothed apparently in surplices, on a daïs in a
mighty alcove.  The drummer and the banjoist each
procured an unnatural union of light and sound by
electric illumination of their instruments from within.
The leader wore a battered opera hat, and at the end
of a piece he would exclaim grimly and scornfully,
"So that's that!" or, "We are the goods!" or some
such phrase.  Now and then the band overflowed
into song, and the wild chants of the Marquesas or
the Fiji Islands rang riotously through the correctness
of the restaurant, and Lilian caught fragments
of significant verse, such as:\par

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"The rich get rich,\par}
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{\vl Ain't we got fun?"\par}
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showing that one touch of nature makes the Southern
archipelago the very sister and bride of Europe.\par

The primary mission of the band was to induce a
general exultant gaiety; and the mission was
accomplished, nobody understood how.  Lilian exulted in
the food, the wine, the glitter, the noise, the wise,
humorous face of Felix, and the glances which
assailed her on every hand.  All care fell away from
her.  She forgot the future, and the whole of her
vitality concentrated itself intensely in the moment.
Most of the conversation at neighbouring tables was
in English, and it was all about gambling, dancing,
golf, lawn-tennis, polo, cards, racing, trains de luxe,
clothes, hotels, prices, and women.  Even in the
incomprehensible French gabble that reached her she
could distinguish words like "golf," and "bridge,"
and "picnic."\par

Then four elegant, waisted young men appeared
mysteriously from nowhere and approached certain
tables and bowed with an assured air, and instantly
four elegant young women rose up, without being
asked, and the professional couples began to display
to the amateurs the true art of the dance.  Lilian
had never seen such dancing.\par

"Why are they all Spanish girls?" she innocently
asked, struck by the rich, dark skin of the women.\par

"They're no more Spanish than you are," said
Felix.  "You perceive that one there.  She's at our
hotel, on our floor, and I've seen her as blonde as a
Norwegian.  The dark olive is the result of strange
cosmetics, and a jolly fine result, too.  Nothing finer
has been invented for a century.  It's so perverse.
Don't you like it?"\par

"I think it's lovely!" she agreed with enthusiasm,
also with a vague envy.\par

Later, when the senoritas had left their partners
and resumed their interrupted meals, and the parquet
was empty again, she said:\par

"I do really think it's awful, all this!  It's so
expensive, everything; and it's all for pleasure.  The
whole town's for pleasure."  In the background she
had a vision of her working life, with its discipline
and cast-iron hours and wristlets and fatigue and
privations and penury.  The click of the typewriter,
the green-shaded lamps, the Tube, the cold bedroom,
the washing and sewing done in the cold bedroom!
The blue working frock with its pathetic red line of
clumsy embroidery!\par

"What about Margate?" Felix demanded quietly.\par

She was nonplussed.\par

"Oh!  But that's different!"\par

"It is.  It's not half as good.  You must remember
there's nothing new in all this.  It's been going on in
the Mediterranean for thousands of years, and it's
likely to go on for thousands of years more.  It's
what human nature is.  What are you going to do
about it?  Would you abolish luxury and pleasure?
Not you.  Do you imagine that God created the
shores of the Mediterranean and this climate for
anything else but this?  What frightens you is the
tremendous organization and concentration of the
affair.  Nothing else.  And let me tell you that this
town is the most interesting town on the coast just
now.  The fellow that's got the new concession for
the casino is a bit of a genius.  He's moulding the
place into something fresh.  It used to be the
primmest place on earth.  He discovered that the
English don't want to be prim any more; he showed
them to themselves.  Do you suppose all these women
began to come here on their own?  They're pawns in
his great game.  He brought them; but no nice-minded
person asks how, nor whether they really pay
for their meals or their rooms, nor how they manage
to encourage big gambling in the baccarat rooms.
This fellow has put the wind up to the next town up
the coast: it used to be the most corrupt town in the
whole of Europe, that place used to be!  And now
the rival genius there is introducing large families of
children and nurses there in the hope of persuading
the English that they prefer to be prim and domestic
after all.  The fact is these two geniuses are gambling
against one another for far bigger stakes than any
of the baccarat maniacs.  It's a battle for the
command of the coast.  That's what it is.  You don't
get the hang of it all at once; but you will in time.
Let's dance."\par

Lilian was startled by the invitation, for they had
not yet danced together.  She remembered how, on
that night when he first talked to her about herself,
he had known that she was being deprived of an
evening's dancing.  They stood up as the chicken
was being removed.  She smiled at him with fresh
admiration.  He had impregnated her with new ideas;
he had reassured her; he had justified her enjoyment;
he was amazing; he was mad about her, in his
restrained style; and now he would surprisingly dance
with her.\par

Although they took the floor early in the dance,
when only two other couples had begun to dance, it
was impossible for her to be nervous within his arm.
Half the room gazed at her, for she had attracted
attention from the first.  She knew that half the room
was gazing at her, and she liked it.  She guessed
that half the room was saying: "Look at that fresh
young creature who's with that middle-aged
man--she must be really very young."  And she liked it.
She liked to show herself with the man who was more
than old enough to be her father, worn by knowledge
and experience and the corrupting of the world; to
contrast her untried simplicity--the bloom of the
virginal scarcely gone from it--with his grey hairs
and his wrinkled, disillusioned, passive eyes.  She
was happy in the thought that everybody knew that
she must have given herself to him, and that there
was something strange, sinister, and even odious in
her abandonment.  He had used the word
"perverse."  She did not wholly understand the word, but
it appealed to her, and for her it expressed her mood.\par

She had noticed, in the room, how the women no
longer unquestionably young were more consciously
and carefully charming towards their men, receiving
adulation but rendering it back; whereas the
unquestionably young were more negligent and far more
egotistic.  And so she behaved like one no longer
unquestionably young.  She glanced up at her
partner with ravishing, ecstatic smiles; she publicly
adored him.  And she was glad that her green and
gold frock with its long arm-holes was not of the
Wigmore Street cut, but quite other in origin and
spirit and in its effect upon the imagination.\par

The dancing had by this time become general, but
the olive-tinted temptresses were still prominent in
the throng, and sometimes she touched them in the
curves of the dance.  She knew where they beat her
and where she beat them.  And it was vouchsafed
to her from the eyes of Felix that she was lovely and
marvellous.  She felt intensely, inexpressibly happy,
and more than happy--triumphant.  Her quiet,
obstinate resentment against the domestic policy of
her father died out, and she forgave him as she
danced.  She thought with a secret sigh almost
painful in its relief:\par

"Thank God I have fulfilled myself and succeeded
not too late!"\par

She had premonitions of power, a foretaste of
dominion.  Felix was hers.  She could influence him.
She could re-make him.  And for the thousandth
time she breathed to him in her soul: "I have made
you happy, but I will make you more happy--infinitely
more happy.  You don't know yet what I am
capable of."  He danced very correctly and quite
nicely,--rather stiff, of course, but with a certain
clever abandonment of his body to the rhythm.  She
thought: "With what women did he learn to dance?
He must have danced a lot.  Never will I ask!
Never!"  The fox-trot ended.\par

As they were crossing the floor to their table she
saw Lord Mackworth dining with a man older than
himself at a table near the windows.  She sat down
to the sweet.  He had caught sight of her and was
looking at her fixedly.  She stared at him for a
moment with the casually interested stare of
non-recognition, perfectly executed.\par

"The yacht hasn't left, then, after all," she
reflected, and to Felix: "Did that big yacht leave
to-night?"\par

"No," said Felix.  "I heard they'd changed their
minds."  Felix had the faculty of hearing everything.\par

In spite of herself Lilian was disturbed.\par

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When Felix said that of course they must visit the
baccarat rooms she vaguely acquiesced.  A mood of
the old apprehension had mysteriously succeeded her
exultation; she wanted to exorcise it and couldn't.
She would have tried to dance the gloom away, but
Felix did not suggest another dance; she understood
that he had danced once because it was proper for an
enlightened amateur of life to forgo no sensation,
and that he would not dance again unless asked.
She would not ask.  He had given her a cigarette and
a liqueur; she had accepted a second liqueur and then
declined it, afraid of it and anxious for her reputation
in his eyes.  There were formalities to accomplish at
the entrance to the baccarat rooms--forms to be filled
up and money to be paid.\par

"They make a small charge for emptying your
pockets," said Felix.  "They pretend to be rather
particular about their victims."\par

The select rooms were crowded.  Every table in
the blazing interior had round it a thick ring of sitters
and standers, and many people were walking to and
fro, disappointed or hopeful.  By tiptoeing and
supporting herself on Felix's shoulder Lilian could just
see the green cloth of a table, like the floor of a pit
whose walls were bodies elegant in evening dress; it
was littered with white, rose, and green counters,
banknotes, cards, ash-trays, cigarette cases, and
vanity bags.  More women were seated than men.
A single croupier dominated and ruled the game.
Cards and counters were thrown about from side to
side.\par

"It seems frightfully exciting," murmured Lilian,
scarcely audible, into the ear of Felix.\par

"It is," said Felix gruffly.  "It's the real thing,
you know, gambling is.  When people lose they lose
real money, and when they win, ditto.  You can
genuinely ruin yourself here.  There's no sham about
it.  You may go out without even your fare home."  He
offered these remarks separately, between
considerable pauses.\par

"Is baccarat easy to learn?"\par

"Very.  But not here--and this isn't baccarat.
This is {\itshape{chemin de fer}}--equally easy, though.  I'll get
a pack of cards at the hotel and teach you.  It's
{\itshape{chemin de fer}} at every table.  I suppose that's why
they call the rooms 'baccarat'?"\par

He was edging nearer the croupier.  A stout,
middle-aged woman whose flesh seemed to be
insecurely and inadequately confined within frail silk
rose from her chair, gathering up bag and cigarette
case--all that remained to her.\par

"Sit down here and keep the chair for me,"
Felix said sharply, and pushed Lilian into the seat.\par

Everybody gazed at her, and her constraint showed
the conviction that everybody guessed she had never
sat at a gaming-table before.  Felix had vanished,
and she was thrown with her arresting, innocent
beauty upon the envious and jealous world.  He had
gone to exchange notes for counters, but she did not
know.  After a moment that was an hour he returned
and took the seat.\par

"You stand behind me and watch," said he.  "And
when you get bored walk about and see things for
yourself, and when you need moral support again
come and put your hand on my chair.  I'll stop
playing whenever you tell me."  He spoke in a
muttering voice, but three or four persons around
could not fail to catch every word; this, however,
appeared not to trouble him.\par

Lilian was in a state of high excitation, but she
was also extremely confused, the game being a
complete enigma to her.  The croupier was continually
raking cards to and fro and counters to and fro,
continually tearing tickets out of a book, ripping them
to pieces and throwing the pieces behind him,
continually dropping cards into a big hole, and continually
dropping counters into a little hole.  An official
opposite the croupier, with pockets full of counters,
was continually, and with miraculous rapidity,
exchanging rose counters for green and white counters
for rose.  The player next to Felix had a small table
behind him furnished with champagne and
sandwiches, which he consumed in hasty gulps and
mouthfuls, as one who feels the dread hour at hand
when no man may eat or drink.  The players
ejaculated short incomprehensible words, and at brief
intervals Lilian seized a word that sounded like
"baunco."  She heard Felix utter the word, saw him
turn up two cards, and then receive from the
croupier's rake a large assortment of green and rose
counters.  He never looked at her to smile; she was
ignored, but she guessed that he must be winning.
Soon afterwards his piles of counters had strangely
diminished.\par

The heat stifled her, and the odour of flesh and
tobacco and scent nauseated.  She held no key to
the vast and splendid conundrum, unless by chance
her fundamental commonsense was right in its casual
suggestion that she was surrounded by lunatics.  Yet
how could persons so well-dressed, so sure of
themselves, so restrained and stylish in manner, and
seemingly so wealthy, be lunatics?  Impossible!
She grew profoundly and inexplicably sad.\par

At length she walked away, aimless.  Felix did
not notice her departure.  She thought it almost
certain that Lord Mackworth would be somewhere in
the rooms; she desired above everything to avoid the
danger incident to meeting him face to face; but she
walked away.  All the tables were the same as the
table at which she had left Felix--crowded, entranced,
self-concentrated and perfectly unintelligible; and at
every table the croupier was continually dropping
counters into a little hole, and tearing up tickets and
throwing the fragments behind him on to the crimson
carpet.  The sole difference between the tables was
that some held more banknotes than others.  The
heaps of blue thousand-franc notes piled about one
table caused Lilian to halt and gaze.\par

"Some ready there!" said a very young man to
a fierce old woman.\par

"Ah!  But you should have seen it in the days of
gold plaques before the war.  You could call a
hundred-franc gold piece 'ready,' then, if you
like."  The old woman sighed grimly.\par

Lilian passed on under their combined stare.  She
glimpsed herself in mirrors, as once she used to
glimpse herself in the shop windows of Bond Street,
and was satisfied with the vision.  Her walk was as
remarkable as her beauty.  Yes, she knew how to put
her feet on the ground and how to make her body
float smoothly and evenly above the moving limbs.
Her spirit rose as she began to suspect that no woman
in the rooms was getting more notice than herself.
Fancy Felix being absorbed in his gambling!  She
had forgotten Lord Mackworth; she had decided that
he was not in the rooms; and then suddenly, sprung
from nothingness like a ghost, he stood in her path
between the wall and the end of a table.  She was
disposed to retreat; besides, his attention was fixed
on the table and she might get by him unperceived.
But just as she approached he turned.  Although
she might have ignored him, and in the circumstances
was indeed entitled to do so, she did not because she
could not.  She blushed, only slightly, acknowledged
their acquaintance with a faint smile, then stopped,
but did not advance her hand to meet his.\par

"Ought I to have shaken hands?" she thought
anxiously.  All her quickly acquired worldliness of
manner left her in an instant.  She was the
typewriting girl again, wearing the wristlets.  He had
all the physical splendour that she remembered, and
the style, and the benignant large-hearted tolerance
of an extensive sinner.  As he looked at her he drew
back his chin and made several chins of it in just
the old way.  He was enormous, superb, and perfect.
And if not a boy he had real youth; once more she
had to contrast his youth with Felix's specious
sprightliness.  She fought on behalf of Felix in her
mind, and on points Felix won; but in her mind
Lord Mackworth had supporters which derided all
reasoning.  And as she fronted him the old frightful
apprehension was powerfully revived, and it seemed
to be building a wall between her and the young
man, and she was intensely dejected beneath the
brightness of her demeanour.\par

"Very hot here, isn't it?" she was saying.  ("A
stupid typewriting girl remark," she reflected as it
slipped out.)\par

"A great change since I was here last just before
the war," said Lord Mackworth gaily.\par

"Warmer, do you mean?"\par

"No!  Much more cheery now.  Jollier!"  He
waved a hand towards the company in general.\par

"Oh, {\itshape{that}}!" said Lilian, marshalling all her
forces in a determined effort to lose the typewriting
girl in the woman of the world.  "You mean the
company."  She shrugged her shoulders, borrowing some
of his tolerance, "Of course, you know they've been
brought here on purpose.  It's all part of a great
battle for the command of the coast."\par

The effort succeeded beyond her hopes.  Lord
Mackworth was clearly impressed; he put questions
which Lilian answered out of the mouth of Felix.
Strange that this man should be he who had
inexcusably omitted to pay his trumpery bill at Clifford
Street, the man through whose unconscious agency
she had been unjustly cast into the street!  However,
the past did not in the least affect her feeling for him.
What she most vividly recalled was that she had
striven to serve him and had served him.  He made
no reference--doubtless from delicacy--to the night
of their meeting; nor did he betray even the very
smallest surprise at seeing her, the typewriting girl,
exquisitely and expensively dressed, in the finest
baccarat rooms on the Riviera.  (Of course, she might
be married, or have inherited a fortune--he could
think as he chose.)\par

They went on talking and then a pause came, and
Lord Mackworth said bluntly:\par

"I saw you from the yacht this afternoon."\par

"Oh!  What yacht?"\par

"The {\itshape{Qita}}."\par

"The big one?  Is it yours?"\par

"Oh lord, no!  She belongs to my friend
Macmusson--we dined together here to-night."\par

"It must be terribly big.  I suppose you have an
enormous party on board?"\par

"Not a bit.  Only Macmusson and his three old
aunts, and his niece--adopted daughter.  Nobody else."\par

"That's the girl you were making love to,"
Lilian's heart accused him.  "She's going to be very
rich and she'll pay all your family debts.  That's
what it is.  But what difference does it make?" her
heart added, "You are you."  And aloud: "I heard
the yacht was leaving to-night."\par

"She was.  But I persuaded old Macmusson to
stop another day."\par

"Really!"\par

"And do you know why?"\par

"No."\par

"Because I had some hope of meeting you here
to-night."\par

She flushed again.  She saw the ante-room at
Clifford Street at the moment when he came back to
ask her to wake him by telephone.  He must have
been well aware, then, that he had made a conquest,
because in the ante-room she had not been able to
hide her soft emotion.  From that moment he had
forgotten her; yet he could not have forgotten her.
Perhaps he had somehow been prevented from
meeting her in the meantime.  Now at the mere second
sight of her he had stopped the great yacht on the
chance of talking to her!  He had thrown over the
young rich girl at a single glimpse of Lilian as she
passed!  It was astounding.  But in fact she was not
astounded.  She glanced up at him.  His smooth,
handsome red face was alive with admiration.  And
was she not really to be admired, even by the Lord
Mackworths?  Was she not marvellous?  Did not all
the company in the rooms regard her as marvellous?
She thrilled to the romance of the incredible event.
He was so young and big and strong and handsome;
he had such prestige in her eyes.  She saw visions.\par

But the frightful apprehension--no longer a wall,
rather a cloud--swallowed up the visions and froze
the thrill.  Felix held her.  A gust of ruthless
common sense inspired her to say primly:\par

"It's always dangerous to give reasons for what
one's done."  And, nodding, she left him.
Immediately afterwards she had to sit down.\par

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When she at length returned to Felix and, squeezing
through the outer rings of gladiators against chance,
touched him delicately on the shoulder, he faced her
with a bright youthful smile, and without any surprise--it
was plain to her that he had recognized her from
the light touch of her finger.\par

"Do you want me to stop?"\par

She nodded.\par

He gathered his counters together and rose with
alacrity.\par

"You came in the nick of time," he said.  "But,
of course, you would!  I've been playing wild and
I've made a thousand francs into rather more than
six thousand.  It was the very moment to flee from
the wrath that was coming.  Let's run, run, to the
change-desk before I change my mind and decide to
begin to lose.  That's the only insurance--getting
rid of the counters, because when you've got rid of
'em you're too ashamed with yourself to get more."\par

He was quite uplifted, so gaily preoccupied with
his achievement that he noticed nothing strange in
her mien.  She was glad that he noticed nothing;
and yet also she was sorry; she would have liked him,
after a single glance at her, to have said in his curt,
quiet, assured manner: "What's wrong?"\par

She kept thinking, but not of Felix: "He must be
very fickle and capricious.  I'm certain he was
making love to {\itshape{her}}.  He happens to see me and off he
runs after me!  He can't be any good, with his debts
and things.  I was right to give him the bird.  But
he's terribly nice, and I don't care.  I don't know
what on earth's the matter with me.  I think I must
be a bit mad, and always was.  If I wasn't, should I
be here?"\par

Transiently she viewed herself as, for example,
Gertie Jackson would have viewed her.  And then
she saw another and a worse self and viewed that
other self as Lilian the staid and constant friend of
Felix would naturally view such an abandoned girl.
She was afraid of and disgusted by the possibilities
discovered in the depths of her own mind.\par

At the desk the dancing girl whom Felix had
indicated as inhabiting their hotel hurried up
passionately and forestalled them.  She threw down two
green counters, as it were in anger.\par

"Can I play with {\itshape{that}}!" she exclaimed in cockney
English.\par

The changer handed her two hundred-franc notes,
which she crumpled in her hand.\par

"I must find a hundred thousand francs from
somewhere!" she cried, departing.  She was talking
to herself.  As she moved away a stout, oldish man
with a thick lower lip, pearl studs in his shirt-front,
and a gleaming white waistcoat, joined her, and they
disappeared together.\par

Lilian stared after her in amazement.  Felix's
winnings suddenly seemed very insignificant.  Still
when he received six fine fresh thousand-franc notes,
besides some small notes, in exchange for valueless
discs, and handed to her one of the fine fresh
notes--"That's for saving me from myself!"--she was
impressed anew.  A palace of magic, the baccarat
rooms!  The real thing, gambling!\par

"What do you want to do now?" he asked.
"Dance?  No?  Well, I'll do anything you like,
anything, the most absurd thing.  Is that talking?"\par

They were moving somewhat aimlessly down the
grand staircase.\par

"Felix, darling," she murmured, "let's go for a
motor run in the hills.  There's a lovely moon.  I
should so love it."  She desired to be alone with
him precisely as she had been alone with him in the
taxi after their first dinner.  She had a fancy for just
that and nothing else.  She pictured them together in
the car, in the midst of gigantic nature and in the
brilliant night.\par

"But it will be cold!" he protested.\par

"It wasn't cold when we came in here--it was
quite warm--you said so," she replied softly.  "But
just as you please.  I don't mind."  And into the
acquiescent charm of her voice she dropped one drop
of angelic resentment--one single drop; not because
he objected to gratifying her, but because she knew
he was merely fussing himself about his throat and
his health generally.\par

"We'll go, by all means.  It won't take long,"
he yielded affectionately, without reserve.\par

She pressed his arm.  She had won.  He began
to suspect that she was overwrought--perhaps by the
first sight of the spectacle of gambling on a great
scale--and he soothed her accordingly.  Half a dozen
automobiles were waiting and willing to take them
into the hills.\par

Before Lilian had regained full possession of
herself they were clear of the town, and continually
ascending, in long curves.  The night was magnificent;
through the close-shut windows of the car could
be seen, not the moon, which was on high, but the
strong moonlight and sharp shadows, and the huge
austere contours of the hills; and here and there a
distant, steady domestic lamp.  Lilian sat in her
corner and Felix in his, and a space separated them
because of the width of the car.  She felt a peculiar
constraint and could not reach the mood she wanted.\par

"Felix," she said, "you heard that girl say she
must have a hundred thousand francs, how will she
get it?  How can she get it?"\par

"She'll just disappear for a day or two, and then
she'll come back with it.  I dare say she owes most
of it already to the casino."\par

"But who will give it her?"\par

"Ah!  That's her secret.  There's always
somebody in the background that these charmers have
made themselves indispensable to.  When this
particular charmer tackles the particular man or men
that she's indispensable to, she'll have what she
needs out of them if they've got it to give.  That's a
certainty.  If a man has hypnotized himself into the
belief that a girl's body is paradise, he'll win
paradise and keep paradise.  He'll steal, commit murder,
sell his wife and children, abandon his parents to
the workhouse; there's nothing he won't do.  And
he'll do it even if she'll only let him kiss her feet.
Of course, all men aren't like that, but there are
quite a few of 'em, and these charmers always find
'em out.  Trust them."\par

"I couldn't see that there was anything very
extraordinary in her."\par

"Neither could I.  But perhaps we're blind to
what that fellow who's going to fork out the hundred
thousand francs sees.  I dare say if I were to dance
with her I might have glimpses of his notion of her.
Anyhow, you bet she's a highly finished product;
she's got great gifts and great skill--must have--and
she knows exactly what she's about--and she
looks eighteen and isn't above twenty-five.  You
must remember she's on the way to being a star in
the most powerful profession in the world.  They've
made practically all the history there is, even in the
East, and they're still making it--making it this very
night."\par

There was a considerable silence, and then Lilian
shot across the seat and leaned heavily against Felix
and clasped his neck.\par

"Darling," she said, "I know I'm going to have
a baby!"\par

They could just see each other.  Felix paused
before replying.\par

"Very well!  Very well," he said calmly.  "We
shall see who's right."  Her thoughts concerning
Lord Mackworth now seemed utterly incredible to
her in their mad aberration.\par

The next moment the car swerved unexpectedly
to the side of the mounting road and the engine
stopped; the chauffeur jumped down, opened the
bonnet, unstrapped one of the side lamps and peered
with it into the secrets under the bonnet.  Felix,
loosing himself from Lilian, rapped sharply on the
front window, but got no response from the bent
chauffeur.  Then impatiently he tried to let down
the window and could not.  He lifted it, shook it,
rattled it, broke the fragile fastening of the strap.
Suddenly the window fell with a bang into its slit,
and there was a tinkling of smashed glass.\par

"Damn it!  I ought to have opened the door,
but I was afraid of too much cold."\par

The icy air of the hills rushed like an assassin
into the interior of the car, Felix shivered, unlatched
the door and got out.  The chauffeur proved to be
an Italian, with no more French than sufficed to
take orders and receive fares and tips.  He could
give no intelligible explanation of the breakdown,
but he smiled optimistically.  The car was
absolutely alone on the road, and the road was alone in
the vast implacable landscape.  No light anywhere,
except the chilly, dazzling moon and the stars, and
the glitter of a far range of god-like peaks, whence
came the terrible wind.  The scene and situation
intimidated.  The inhuman and negligent grandeur
of nature was revealed.  Felix returned into the car
and shut the door, but could not shut out the cold.
Lilian covered his chest with her warm bosom.
Gently he pushed her away.\par

"No, no!"\par

"Let me, darling!"\par

"It's no use.  I shall suffer for this."\par

After a few minutes the engine was throbbing
again, and they had begun the descent.  But no
device could conjure away the ruthless night air.
Back at the hotel Felix took brandy and hot water,
accepted Lilian's hot water bag in addition to his
own, and was in bed and thickly enveloped in no
time at all.  Lilian kissed him guiltily and left him.
He bade her good night kindly but absently,
engrossed in himself.\par

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When Lilian was alone in her room she thought
anxiously:\par

"Supposing he should want more brandy in the
night--there is none!"\par

The travelling flask was now empty.  (In the
emergency, hot water from the lavatory-basin tap
had been used to dilute the brandy.  Felix having
said impatiently that any water would do so long
as it was hot--hang a few germs!)  She had noticed
that he would always take a little brandy if he felt
unwell from whatever cause, and this habit caused
her no uneasiness, for from her father she had
acquired a firm belief in the restorative qualities of
brandy; even her mother would say how unwise it
was to "be without" brandy, and before starting
for the annual domestic holiday invariably attended
herself to the provision of it.  The lack of brandy
settled upon Lilian's mind, intensifying somehow her
sense of guilt.  She felt deeply the responsibilities
of the situation, which became graver and graver to
her--the more so as she had no real status to deal
with it.\par

She wanted to ring the bell, but the bell was
within a few yards of Felix's door--he often
complained on this score--and to ring might be to wake
him.  Cautiously she stepped into the corridor,
hoping to find Jacqueline in the service-room at the
end of the shabby little side corridor where the bell
and the room-indicator were.  She knew the French
for brandy.  The main corridor stretched away with
an effect of endlessness.  In its whole length only
two electric lights had been left to burn.  Solitude
and silence made it mysteriously solemn.  A pair of
boots, or two pairs of boots--one large, one small and
dainty--here and there on a door-mat seemed
inexplicably to symbolize the forlornness of humanity
in the sight of the infinite.  The beating of Lilian's
heart attracted her attention.  Not without an effort
could she cross the magic and formidable corridor.
The door of the service-room was locked.  No hope!
Even Jacqueline had a bed somewhere and was
asleep in it; and brandy was as unattainable as on a
coral island.\par

Lilian felt the rough hair-lining of pleasure.  The
idea of her insecurity frightened her.  She perceived
that a life of toil, abstinence, deprivation and cold
virginity had its advantages.  Of course, Felix was
not going to be ill; but if he were, and if her dreadful
fears about her own condition were realized--what
then?  What would happen?  Were the moral
maxims and strict practice of her parents after all
horribly true?  The wages of sin, and all that sort
of thing ... She heard steps in the distance of
the corridor.  She peeped.  Somebody was approaching.
Had she time to cross and vanish into the
shelter of her room?  She hesitated.  The visitant
was a woman.  It was the girl who in the baccarat
rooms had talked of a hundred thousand francs in a
cockney accent, the girl whom Felix had described
as probably a rising star in the most powerful of
professions.  She too had a bed, and was seeking
it at last.\par

"I expect there's no chance of getting hold of a
servant to-night," said Lilian meekly, as the girl
instinctively paused in passing.\par

The girl, staring sharply out of her artificially
enlarged eyes, shrugged the shoulders of negation
at Lilian's simplicity.\par

"Anything the matter?"\par

"I only wanted some brandy.  My"--'husband' she
meant to say, but could not frame the majestic
word--"my friend's not very well.  Chill.  He's had
a very little brandy, and might need some more in
the night."  She flushed.\par

"Come along of me.  I'll let you have some."  What
a harsh, rasping little voice!\par

The benefactress's bedroom was in a state of rich
disorder that astounded Lilian.  The girl turned on
every light in the chamber, banged the door, and
pushing some clothes off a chair told Lilian to sit
down.  Drawers were open, cupboards were open,
the wardrobe was open.  Attire, boxes, bottles,
parcels, candles, parasols, illustrated comic papers,
novels with shiny coloured covers were strewn everywhere;
and in a corner a terrific trunk stood upright.
The benefactress began ferreting in drawers, and
slamming them to one after another.\par

"I'm afraid I'm putting you to a lot of trouble,"
said Lilian.  "You're very kind, I'm sure."\par

"Not a bit of it.  I never {\itshape{can}} find anything....  I
think us girls ought to stand by each other, that's
what I think.  Not as we ever do!"  Her voice
seemed to thicken, almost to break.\par

Lilian felt as if the entire hotel had trembled under
her feet, but she gave no sign of shock; she desired
the brandy, if it was to be had.  "Us girls"!\par

"You {\itshape{are}} French, aren't you?  I only ask because
you speak English so well."\par

After a moment the girl replied, her head buried
in a drawer:\par

"You bet I'm French.  My mother sent me to a
convent in London so as I could learn English
properly.  It was one of them boarding convents
where you're free to do what you like so long as you're
in by seven o'clock.  They wanted a few French
girls for the chorus of a revue at the Pavilion.  Soon
as I got in there I never went back to the convent,
and I've never seen ma since, either.  I was in that
chorus for a year.  Oh!"  She produced an ingenious
and costly travelling spirit-case, and then
searched for the key of it.\par

"I wish I could speak French half as well as you
speak English."\par

"If I had half your face and your figure I'd give
all my English to anybody that cared to have it.  Oh!
Damn the key!  Excuse me.  Here you are."  She
offered the disengaged flask.  "Now you go along
and take what you want, and bring me the flask back."\par

She stood in front of Lilian, who rose.  She was
as flat as Milly Merrislate, and neither tall nor
graceful.  Every lineament of the pert face so heavily
masked in paint and powder, every gesture, the too
bright stockings, the gilded shoes, the impudent
coiffure, the huge and flashy rings, the square-dialled
wrist-watch--all were crudely symptomatic of an
ingrained and unalterable vulgarity.  Lilian was
absolutely unable to understand how any man, however
coarse and cynical, could find any charm of any kind
in such a girl.  But Lilian did not know that
intense vulgarity is in itself irresistible to certain
amateurs of women, and she was far too young
really to appreciate the sorcery of mere lithe youthfulness.\par

"Why!  What is it?" Lilian exclaimed, as she
took the flask.\par

Tears were ravaging the cheeks of the benefactress.\par

"Oh!  Damn!"  The benefactress stamped her
foot, and raised her thin, loose, bare shoulders.
"Gambling's it.  I always lose here.  It's all shemmy
here, and when you win at shemmy you take other
people's money, not the bank's, and that puts me off
like at the start.  And you never win if you don't
feel as if you were going to.  I was at Monte Carlo
last week, and you sh'd've seen me at roulette,
taking the casino money.  I couldn't do wrong.  But
I had to come back here, and there you are!  Lost
it all and a lot more!"  She was speaking through
her tears.  "Cleaned out to-night!  Naked!  You
see, it's like this.  Gambling gives you an emotion.
It's the only thing there is for that--I mean for me....
Did you see that fat beast speak to me to-night
in the casino?  Well, he said something to me and
offered me ten thousand francs, and I slapped his
face for him in the entrance-hall.  He knew I was
stony.  I was a fool.  Why shouldn't I have done
what he wanted?  What's it matter?  But no!  I'm
like that, and I slapped his face, and I'd do it again,
I would!!  He's Scapini, you know, the biggest
shareholder in both the big hotels here.  I tore it,
I did!  And, would you believe, I'd no sooner got
in here afterwards than the manager told me I must
leave to-morrow morning.  It was all over the place
as quick as that!  I've only got to go to Paris to get
all the money I want.  Yes.  But I'd sell myself for
a year to be able to pay my bill straight off in the
morning and cheek 'em.  It'll be near a thousand
francs, and I haven't got ten francs, besides having
the whole bally town against me."  She laughed and
threw her head back.  "Here!  You go along.
Don't listen to me.  It's not the first time, neither the
last.  Go along now."\par

"I'm very sorry," said Lilian.  She simply could
not conceive that the girl, possibly no older than
herself, was standing alone and unaided against what
was to her the universe.  How could these girls do it?
What was the quality in them that enabled them to
do it?\par

She was in the intimidating, silent, mystery-hiding
corridor again.  She listened at the door,
which she had left ajar, between the bathroom and
Felix's bedroom.  No sound!  In the solacing,
perfect tidiness of her room, she poured some of the
brandy into a glass, and then, taking her bag,
returned to the benefactress.\par

"Here's your flask, thank you very much!" she
said.  "And here's a thousand francs, if it's any use
to you."  She produced the note which Felix had
given to her.  The money was accepted, greedily.\par

"If you're here in a week's time, in five days,
you'll have it back," said the benefactress, looking
at her wrist-watch.  "No!  It's too late to go and
play again now!"  She giggled.  "Tell me your
name.  You can trust {\itshape{me}}.  I don't believe you're
real, though!  You couldn't be.  There aren't such
girls--anyhow at your age."  She stopped, and gave
a tremendous youthful sigh.  "Ah!" she exclaimed,
"if only I was dead.  I often dream of lying in my
grave--eternal peace, eternal peace!  No emotions!
No men!  Quite still!  Stretched straight out!
Quiet for ever and ever!  Eternal peace!  D'you
know I've been like that all my life?  My God!"\par

Lilian burst into tears, agonized.  The original
benefactress flung herself at the other benefactress
with amazing violence, and they kissed, weeping.\par

A quarter of an hour later the defier of Scapini
murmured:\par

"I wish to heaven I could do something for {\itshape{you}}!"\par

Lilian answered:\par

"I wish you'd tell me how you stain your skin
that lovely Spanish colour."\par

And she immediately received, not merely the
instructions, but the complete materials necessary
for the operation.\par

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When she awoke the next morning after a very few
hours' sleep, she did so suddenly, to a full consciousness
of her situation, and not little by little, passing
by gradual stages to realization, as was her wont.
She listened; no sound came through the two
half-open doors.  The brandy had not been needed.
Perhaps he was asleep; perhaps he had had a good night
and was perfectly restored.  She rose, unfastened the
window and very quietly pushed back the shutters.
It was raining.  Just as she was, her hair loose and
the delicate and absurd rag of a nightdress all untied,
she surveyed herself sternly in the mirror.  She was
well content with her beauty.  Impossible to criticize
it!  In every way she was far more beautiful than the
nameless woman whom she had befriended and who
had befriended her.\par

Partly because she had been generous to her, she
felt sympathy for the girl.  The phrase "us girls"
stung her still, but it was not ill meant; in fact, it was
a rather natural phrase, and no doubt already her
acquaintance must have perceived how wrong it was.
She admired the girl for her fierce defiance and
courage, and for the intense passion with which she
had desired the grave.  "Stretched straight out!
Quiet for ever and ever!"  Startling and outrageous
words, in that harsh young voice; but there was
something fine about them!  ("I may say the same
one day soon," Lilian thought solemnly.)  Moreover,
she understood better the power of the girl, whose
kiss and clasp had communicated to her a most
disconcerting physical thrill.  Indeed, it seemed to her
that she was on the threshold of all sorts of new
comprehensions.  Finally she had astonished the girl
by the grand loan; she had shone; she had pleased;
she had satisfied her instinct to give pleasure.  She
thought:\par

"She may be stronger than I am, and cleverer;
but she is very silly and I am not.  And I'm
not weak either, even if some people take me for weak."\par

It was disturbing, though, how that phrase
pricked and pricked: "Us girls."  Little flames shot
up from the ashes of her early and abandoned
religion.  "The wages of sin--the wages of sin."  Was
it true about the wages of sin?  Was she to be
punished?  The great, terrible fear of conception still
dominated her soul; and it grew hourly.  At each
disappointing dawn the torture of it increased.  She
saw the powders and preparations which the courtesan
had given her; she recalled the minute directions for
the use of them, and smiled painfully.  How could
the prospective mother employ such devices?
Nevertheless, if she escaped, she would employ them as
soon as Felix was better.  She knew that Felix would
delight in the perverse, provocative transformation,
and she yearned to gratify him afresh in a novel
manner.  When the surprise came upon him he
would pretend that it was nothing; but he would be
delighted, he would revel in it.\par

Putting on her peignoir she slipped noiselessly
into the other bedroom, and crept up to the bed.
Needless precaution; Felix was wide awake, staring
at the ceiling.  Before speaking she tenderly kissed
him, and kept her face for a moment on his.\par

"Better?"\par

"Had an awful night.  Couldn't sleep a wink.  I
won't get up just yet.  Order me tea instead of
coffee.  We'll go out after lunch, not before."\par

"Do you think you ought to go out, dearest?"\par

"Of course I ought to go out," he snapped
peevishly.\par

"It's raining."\par

"Oh, well, if it's raining I dare say I shan't want
to go out."  He placed his hand nervously on his
right breast.\par

"Does it hurt you?"\par

"Not at all.  Can't I touch myself?"\par

She kissed him again.  Then he gazed at her with
love, as she moved over him to ring the bell.\par

"You all right?"\par

"Oh, splendid!  I listened once or twice at the
door, but as I didn't hear anything I made sure you
were asleep."\par

She kept silence about her awful, persistent fear,
knowing that any reference to it would only irritate
him.  He was more than ever like a child--and a
captious child.  She realized the attitude of his sister
towards him.  Thank God he was better!  If he had
fallen ill she would have condemned herself as a
criminal for life, for her insane, selfish suggestion
of an excursion to the hills at night.  Not he, but
she, was the child.\par

After his tea he did get up and dress; but he
would not descend to lunch; nor eat in the bedroom.
At three o'clock he said that when it rained on the
Riviera the climate was the most damnable on earth,
and that he preferred to be in bed.  And to bed he
returned.  Then Lilian noticed him fingering his
breast again.\par

"Any pain there?"\par

"Oh!  Nothing.  Nothing.  Only a sort of sensation."\par

Soon afterwards he gave a few very faint, short,
dry coughs--scarcely perceptible efforts to clear the
throat.  And at the same Lilian went cold.  She
knew that cough.  She had helped to nurse her
father.  It was the affrighting pneumonia cough.
Almost simultaneously it occurred to her that Felix
was trying to hide from her a difficulty in breathing.
She had not dreamed of anything so bad as
pneumonia, which for her was the direst of all
diseases.  And she with a plan for dyeing her skin
to amuse and excite him! ... She had thought of
a severe chill at the worst.\par

She hurried downstairs to see the concierge.  The
lift was too slow in coming up for her; she had to
run down the flights of carpeted steps one after
another.  The main question on her mind was:
"Ought I to telegraph to his sister?"  If Miss Grig
arrived, what would, what could happen to
herself?  The concierge--a dark, haughty,
long-moustached, somewhat consumptive subject--adored
Lilian for her beauty, and she had rewarded his
worship with exquisite smiles and tones.\par

"Would you like the English doctor, madam?" said he.\par

"{\itshape{Is}} there an English doctor here?"  She was
immensely relieved.  She would be able to talk to an
English doctor, whereas a French doctor with his
shrugs and science, and understanding nothing you
said....\par

"Surely, madam!  I will telephone at once,
madam.  He shall be here in one quarter
hour.  I know where he is.  He is a very good doctor."\par

"Oh, thank you!"  Concierges were marvellous persons.\par

As soon as she had gone again the concierge made
all the pages tremble.  It was the thwarted desire
to kneel at Lilian's feet and kiss her divine shoes
that caused him to terrorize the pages.\par

As for telegraphing to Miss Grig, she decided
that obviously she could send no message till the
doctor had examined and reported.  In regard to the
hotel authorities and servants she now had no shame.
She alone was responsible for Felix's welfare, and
she would be responsible, and they must all think
what they liked about her relations with him.  She
did not care.\par

The concierge was indeed marvellous, for in less
than twenty minutes there was a knock at Felix's
door.  Lilian opened, saw a professional face with
hair half sandy, half grey, and, turning to Felix,
murmured:\par

"It's the doctor, darling."\par

Felix, to whom she had audaciously said not a
word about sending for a doctor, actually sat up,
furious.\par

"I'm not going to see a doctor," he gasped.  "I'm
not going to see any doctor."\par

"Come in, doctor, please."\par

The moment was dramatic.  Felix of course was
beaten.\par

"You'll find me in the next room, doctor," she
said, after a minute, and the doctor bowed.  In
another ten minutes the doctor entered her bedroom.\par

"It's a mild attack of pneumonia," said he, standing
in front of her.  "Very mild.  I can see no cause
for anxiety.  You'd better have a nurse for the night."\par

"I would sooner sit up myself," Lilian answered.
"I've nursed pneumonia before."\par

"Then have a nurse for the day," the doctor
suggested.  "I can get an English one from the
Alexandra Hospital--a very good one.  She might
come in at once and stay till ten o'clock, say."  Then
he proceeded to the treatment, prescriptions, and so
on....  An English nurse!\par

Lilian felt extraordinarily grateful and reassured.
She knew where she was now.  She was in England
again.\par

"Ought I to telegraph home?" she asked.\par

"I shouldn't if I were you," the doctor replied.
"Better to wait for a day or two.  Telegrams are so
disturbing, aren't they?"\par

His gentle manner was inexpressibly soothing.
It was so soothing that just as he was leaving she
kept him back with a gesture.\par

"Doctor, before you go, I wish you would do
something for me."  And she sat down, her face
positively burning and shed tears.\par

In the night, as she sat with Felix, the patient's
condition unquestionably improved.  He even grew
cheerful and laudatory.\par

"You're a great girl," he muttered weakly but
firmly.  "I know I was most absurdly cross, but I'm
a rotten invalid."\par

She looked at him steadily, and, her secret
resolve enfeebled by his surprising and ravishing
appreciation, she let forth, against the dictates of
discretion, the terrific fact which was overwhelming
her and causing every fibre in her to creep.\par

"It's true what I told you."\par

"What?"\par

"You know----"  (A pause.)\par

"How do you know it's true?"\par

"The doctor----"\par

His reception of the tidings falsified every
expectation.  He waited a moment, and then said
calmly:\par

"That's all right.  I'll see to that."\par

She did not kiss him, but, sitting on the bed, put
her head beside his on the pillow.  Seen close, his
eyelashes appeared as big as horsehairs and
transcendently masculine.  She tasted the full, deep
savour of life then, moveless, in an awkward posture,
in the midst of the huge sleeping hotel.  She had no
regrets, no past, only a future.\par

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Lilian went to bed in the morning, not only with
the assurance that Felix was in no danger, but with
his words echoing in her heart: "We shall get
married--here--the moment I'm fit."  She was nursing
his body; he was nursing her mind.  He had realized
at once, of course, that the situation was completely
altered, and that he had now one sole duty--his duty
towards her.  And, moreover, he had cared for her
pride--had not used the least word or even inflection
to indicate that she was absolutely dependent on his
good nature.  The very basis of his attitude towards
her was that he and she were indivisible in the
matter.  She rose about two o'clock, and she had
scarcely got out of bed when the Irish nurse, Kate
O'Connor, tapped at her door, and having received
permission to enter, came in with a conspiratorial air.\par

"I heard you stirring.  He's going on splendidly,"
said the glinting-eye Kate, clad from head to foot in
whitest white.  "But he sent me out of the room after
we'd had our little talk with Dr. Samson, and the
doctor stayed some while afterwards.  Then there
came another gentleman--French gentleman--and I
was sent out again.  He told me not to say
anything to you, and I promised I wouldn't; but
naturally I must tell you."\par

Lilian thanked her undisturbed, guessing that
Felix was at work upon the arrangements for the
marriage.  In the night he had asked her: "Where
were you born?  What parish?"  And on her
inquiring why he wanted to know he had replied
casually: "Oh, it's nothing.  Just curiosity."  But
she had not been deceived.  She understood him--how
he loved to plan and organize their doings by
himself, saying naught.\par

The fact was that he had been asking the doctor
about local lawyers, and, having learned what he
desired, he had sent for the most suitable {\itshape{avoué}}, and
put into his hands all the business of the marriage of
two British subjects in a French town.  Apparently,
as he had foreseen, the chief documents required
were the birth certificates of himself and Lilian, and
he had telegraphed for these to his own solicitor in
London.\par

Lilian continued to receive no information
concerning the progress of the formalities, and she
sought for none.  She lived in a state of contemplation.
Her anxieties, except the vague, wonderful,
and semi-mystical anxiety of far-off motherhood had
been dissipated.  She was uplifted; she had a
magnificent sense of responsibility, which gave her a new
dignity, gravity and assurance.  Kate O'Connor
called her "madam," and referred to her as "madam,"
especially when speaking to Felix.  The assumption
underlying the behaviour of everybody was that she
was Felix's wife.  As for the French lawyer, she
never even saw him.\par

Meanwhile Felix's recovery was unexpectedly
slow, and he went through several slight relapses.
Now and then his voice was suddenly become hoarse
and faint, and with the same suddenness it resumed
the normal.  At length he grew cantankerous.  The
two women were delighted, telling each other that
this crotchetiness was a certain sign of strength.
One day he got up and dressed fully and sat at the
window for half an hour, returning to bed
immediately afterwards.  The same evening he convinced
Lilian that there was no more need for her to watch
through the night.\par

The next morning when Lilian entered his room
the nurse was not there.\par

"I've sent her off," Felix explained.  "I much
prefer to have you with me than any nurse on
earth."  He was dressed before ten-thirty.  "Now put your
things on," said he.\par

"What for?  I don't want to go out."\par

"We're going out together.  Look what a fine
day it is!  We're going to be married at eleven
o'clock, at the {\itshape{mairie}}.  Now hurry up."  His voice
hardened into a command.\par

"But--but does Dr. Samson agree to you
going out?" she asked, quite over-taxed.\par

"Samson doesn't know, as it happens; but if he
did of course he'd agree."\par

She might have refused to go.  But could she
refuse to go and be married--she, the bearer of his
child?  She perceived that he had been too clever
for her, had trapped her, in his determination to
regularize her situation at the earliest possible
moment.  She forced a timid smile and covered him
up for the journey.\par

The lift-boy smiled a welcome to him.  The
concierge was the very symbol of attentive deference,
and in the carriage enveloped Lilian's feet with the
rug as though they had been two precious jewels--as
they were.  The manager himself made a majestic
appearance, and shot out congratulations like stars
from a Roman candle.  And the weather was
supremely gorgeous.\par

At the {\itshape{mairie}} waited the {\itshape{avoué}} and his clerk, who
were to act as witnesses.  The {\itshape{avoué}} and Felix
talked to dirty and splendid officials; Felix and
Lilian signed papers.\par

"Now {\itshape{you}}'ve only got one thing to do," said
Felix.  "When I nudge you, say, '{\itshape{Oui, monsieur le
maire}}.'"\par

They were inducted into the sanctuary of celebration,
and Lilian saw a fat gentleman wearing the
French national flag for a waistband.  It would have
been very comical had it not been so impressive.
The ceremony started, Lilian understanding not a
word.  Felix nudged her.  She murmured: "{\itshape{Oui,
monsieur le maire}}." ... The ceremony closed.
Immediately afterwards Felix handed her a sort of little
tract in a yellowish-brown cover.\par

"You're married now, and if anybody says you
aren't, show 'em this."\par

The {\itshape{avoué}} was tremendous with bows and smiles.
They drove back to the hotel.  They were in the
bedroom.  Lilian took Felix apprehensively by the
shoulders.\par

"Oh, darling.  You're sure it hasn't done you any
harm?"\par

"And that's not quite all.  There's my will,"
said he.  "Ring the bell."\par

He spoke to Jacqueline, who after a few minutes
brought in an English valet and an English lady's
maid.  Felix was set upon having his will witnessed
by people with English addresses.  He silently gave
Lilian the will to read.  He had written it himself.
In three lines it bestowed upon her all that was his.
Not a syllable about his sister.  Well, that was quite
right, because Miss Grig had means of her own.
Sitting in the easy chair, with a blotting-pad on his
knees, Felix signed the will.  Then the valet and the
lady's maid signed, with much constraint and
flourish.  Felix gave them fifty francs apiece, and
dismissed them.\par

"Put that with your marriage certificate," he said
to Lilian, folding up the will and offering it to her.
"I think I'll get back to bed.  Exhausting work,
being married!"  He laughed shortly.  "I'm going
to sleep," he said later, after he had eaten and drunk.
"You be off downstairs and have your lunch."\par

But, of course, she could not go downstairs.  She
dropped into her bed, staggered by the swift
evolution of her career.  Staggered by it!  Lo!  She was
a typewriting girl wearing wristlets, poor, hopeless,
with no prospects.  A little while, and lo! she was the
wife of a rich and brilliant adorer, and an honest man
in whom her trust was absolute.  And she was
pregnant.  Strange fear invaded her mind, the ancient
fear that too much happiness is a crime that destiny
will punish.\par

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"Felix seriously ill; double pneumonia; we are
married.--Lilian Grig."  Ten words, plus Isabel's
address and her own!  She wrote the telegram after
several trials, in her bedroom, on half a sheet of the
hotel notepaper, Kate O'Connor standing by her side,
the next morning but one.\par

"Give it me," said the white nurse.  "I'll see to
it for you, Mrs. Grig, as I go home."\par

She looked up at the nurse, and the nurse, eyes
no longer laughing, looked down at her.  The nurse
knew everything, and, moreover, must have assisted
at scores of tragedies; yet Lilian regarded her as an
innocent who understood nothing essential in life.
Her comforting kiss was like the kiss of a very capable
child pretending to be grown up.\par

Voices in the other bedroom!  The doctor had
arrived and was talking to the second nurse.  They
went in together.  Felix lay a changed man, horribly
aged.  He was a man who had suddenly learned that
in order to live it was necessary to breathe, and that
breathing may be an intensely difficult operation of
mechanics.  His lined, wrinkled face was drawn with
the awful anxieties incident to breathing, and with
the acute pain in both lungs.  The enemy was
growing in strength and Felix was losing strength, but
he could not surrender.  He must continue to struggle,
despite the odds, and there was no referee to stop the
fight, either on the ground that it had developed into
an assassination or on any other ground.  The
brutality had to proceed.  And the sun streamed
through the window; and outside, from the
promenade where the idlers were strolling and the band
was playing, the window looked exactly the same as
all the other windows of the enormous hotel.\par

After an examination, Dr. Samson injected
morphia.  The result was almost instantaneous.  The
victim, freed from the anxiety of the pain, could
devote the whole of his energy to breathing.  He
sighed, and smiled as if he had entered paradise.  He
gave a few short, faint coughs, like the cough of a
nervous veiled woman in church, and said in a hoarse,
feeble, whispering voice:\par

"You must understand, doctor, it was all my fault.
I insisted, and what could she do?"  The two nurses
modestly bent their gaze.\par

"Yes, yes," the doctor concurred.\par

Felix had already made the same announcement
several times.\par

"But I want everybody to know," he persisted.\par

"Yes, yes," said the doctor.  "I shall give you
some oxygen this morning.  It will be here in a
minute.  That will do you a lot of good.  You'll see."\par

Lilian was the calmest person in the room.  She
had decided that there was no hope, and had braced
herself and become matter-of-fact.  She was full of
health, power, and magnificent youth, and the living
seed of Felix was within her.  She quietly kissed
Felix on his damp cheek; no gold now glistened in
his half-empty mouth.  She returned to her own
bedroom, and Dr. Samson followed.\par

"He's much worse," she said firmly to the doctor.\par

"He is not better," said the doctor.  "But there
is always hope."\par

She glanced sadly at the soft and mournful face
of the middle-aged doctor.  Nurse Kate had told her
the story of the doctor, who was a widower and
solitary and possibly consumptive, and on account of
his lungs practised on the Riviera during the winter.
The vast tragedy of the world obsessed her; there
was no joy nor pleasure in the whole world, and the
ceaseless activities of gaiety that wearied the hotel
and the Casino and the town and the neighbouring
towns seemed to her monstrous, pathetic, and more
tragic even than Felix's bed.\par

For five days she cabled daily to Miss Grig, and
got nothing in reply.  Felix's strength consistently
waned.  And neither morphia nor oxygen could help
him more than momentarily.  Jacqueline, the nurses,
the doctor, treated Lilian as a holy madonna.  They
all exclaimed at her marvellous stedfastness.  The
manager of the hotel paid a decorous call of
inquiry--though it was apparent that he was already familiar
with every detail--and he, too, treated Lilian as a holy
madonna.  Two days later, in the evening, just after
Nurse Kate had come on duty, Felix held out his
hand for his wife's hand, and, casting off his frightful
physical preoccupation, said in a normal voice:\par

"Everything's in order.  Don't be an idle woman,
my poor girl."\par

She dropped on her knees, and throwing her arms
on his body, cried:\par

"Darling, I've killed you!"  (The thought that
she had brought about his death was her continual
companion.)  But Felix, utterly absorbed again in the
ghastly effort to breathe, had no ears for the wild
outburst.  In the night he died.  He had written a
short note to his sister before the great relapse, and
since then had not even mentioned her.\par

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Dr. Samson sat late with Lilian in her bedroom
the next night.  It was the middle of the night.  He
was taller than Felix, and not so old; his face was
more flat and milder, but there was something in his
expression and about the wrinkles round his eyes
that reminded her of Felix, and he had attached
himself to her to serve her; his mournful gaze
appealed to her.  It was he who had made her
understand that death in a hotel devoted to gaiety was an
indiscretion, a lapse from good taste that must be
carefully hidden.  He stood faithfully between her
and the world, the captive of her beauty, wanting
no reward but the satisfaction of having helped her.\par

Not that much help was needed.  The routine
of such episodes was apparently fixed.  Things
moved of themselves.  All requirements seemed to
be met automatically.  There was even an English
cemetery in the region.  Early on the morning after
the death a young woman in black had called to
present the card of a great Paris shop with a branch
in the town, and by the evening Lilian was dressed
in black.  The layer-out had arrived earlier yet than
the dressmaker.  Dr. Samson had interviewed
the manager of the hotel.  An important part of the
routine was that the whole of the furniture of Felix's
room should be removed, and the room refurnished
at the cost of the representative of the dead.
Dr. Samson settled the price.  Lilian decided to give
the old furniture to the Alexandra Hospital.  The
doctor had volunteered to finance Lilian till she
should be back in London; but afterwards the
equivalent of nearly four hundred pounds in French
and English money was discovered in Felix's
dispatch-case, the inside of which Lilian had never seen.
The doctor had also sent off the telegram to the mute
Miss Grig: "Felix died in the night; am returning
London immediately," and got the railway ticket,
and accomplished the legal formalities preliminary
to the burial, and warned the English chaplain, and
ordered a gravestone in a suitable design and taken
Lilian's wishes as to the inscription thereon.
Nothing remained to be done but wait.  Lilian was
quietly packing; the doctor sat watchful to assist.
They both heard a noise in the next room; and at
the noise Lilian was at last startled from her calm.
The moment, then, had come.  Dr. Samson went
first.  The room, which ought to have been in
darkness, was lighted, and not by electricity but by two
candles, one on either side of the bed.\par

"Who has done this?" Lilian murmured, and
gave a sob.\par

The door into the corridor was locked; to keep it
locked had been part of the unalterable routine.
Therefore the candles could only have been brought
by somebody on the staff of the hotel.  The next
instant Jacqueline entered, through the bathroom.
She was weeping.\par

"Pardon me, madam.  I couldn't go to bed.  I
couldn't sleep.  And I thought of the candles.  It
was too much for me.  I had to bring them.  If I was
wrong, pardon me....  {\itshape{They}} will be here soon."  She
threw herself down on her knees at the foot of
the bed.  She had spoken in French.  The doctor
interpreted.\par

"Tell her I thank her very much," said Lilian,
"and ask her to go to bed.  She'll have her work to
do to-morrow, poor thing!"\par

Jacqueline rose.  Lilian took her hand and
turned away.\par

"And this came," Jacqueline added, pointing to
a package in tissue-paper that lay on a chair.  "The
night porter has only just brought it up, and as I was
coming in with the candles...."\par

Lilian removed the tissue-paper and saw a
magnificent wreath of lilies, far finer than anything in
her experience, a wreath for an imperial monarch.
In the middle was a white envelope.  She opened the
envelope; it contained two French bank-notes for
five hundred francs each.  No signature!  Not a word!\par

"She has got her money," thought Lilian.
"How?"  And, placing the wreath on Felix's feet,
she burst into tears.\par

Jacqueline had vanished.  Suddenly Lilian began
to stride to and fro across the room.  She was full of
youth and force.  She was full of fury and resentment.
The moving muscles of her splendid, healthy
body could be discerned through her black dress.
She frightened the doctor.\par

"Ah!" she cried, with a gesture towards the
wreath, "she is the only one that understands that
I don't {\itshape{want}} to be comforted!  Nobody else has
understood.  I expect she just heard that he was
dead, and she doesn't know that I killed him; but
she understood.  {\itshape{She}} understood."  The doctor,
quite mystified, seized her arm to soothe her, and
was astonished at her strength as she shook him off.
She was like a tigress.  Nevertheless, she let herself
be persuaded to follow him into her own room.
There her eye caught the toilet preparations which
the courtesan had bestowed on her.\par

"And she gave me these!"  Lilian laughed,
hesitated, and added fiercely: "I will take them
back with me!  I will never use them, but I will keep
them for ever and ever!"  And she cast them into one
of the open trunks.  Then she said calmly: "Of course
I know it was because of the window of the car being
broken, and it would have been all right if the engine
hadn't stopped.  But it was my silly, silly idea to go
out for a drive at night....  I can't help it!  I did
kill him!  He'd have been alive now if I hadn't
behaved myself like a perfect child!"\par

The doctor offered no remark.  She resumed all
her old tranquillity, wiping her eyes carefully with
a fine, tiny handkerchief that Felix had given her.
The bearers arrived a quarter of an hour later--discreet,
furtive and sinister.  The hotel slept in its
vastness.  All gaiety was asleep.  But even if some
devoted slave of dissipation had surprised them on
their way back, he could not have guessed that it
was a coffin they bore.  The doctor, by using his
professional prestige, kept Lilian in her own room
till the bearers were nearly ready to depart with more
than they had brought.  She went into the mortuary.
The coffin was disguised.  Picking up the wreath,
which had been forgotten or intentionally left, she
placed it upon the coffin and beneath the disguise.
It lay there alone in its expensive grandeur.  The
bearers withdrew with their burden, tiptoeing along
the dim, silent corridor lest revellers should be
disturbed from well-earned, refreshing sleep and open
their doors to see what was afoot in the night.  The
cortège was lost to view round the corner at the end
of the corridor.  The doctor remained a little while,
and he also prepared to go.  The two nurses Lilian
would never see again.\par

"You should go to bed now and try to sleep.  I'll
call for you in good time to-morrow for the funeral."\par

Lilian shook her head.\par

"No, I'm going to pack his things now."  She
stood at the door of his room, and watched the doctor
also disappear from view round the corner at the end
of the corridor.\par

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It was early in July, on one of those long summer
evenings of which the melancholy twilight seems
determined never to end, that Lilian, from Victoria
Station, drove up to her late husband's house, now
her own.  The events leading to the arrival, and
giving it a most poignant dramatic quality, had one
after another as they occurred impressed everybody
concerned as being very strange and sinister; but
seen in perspective they took on a rather ordinary
complexion.\par

At the very moment of leaving the Riviera Lilian
had heard that Miss Grig, on her way to the South
to see Felix, had been detained in Paris by serious
ptomaine poisoning due to food eaten at home.  Had
Miss Grig been able to get a berth in the through
Calais-Mediterranée express, she might well have
died in the train; but she had not been able to get a
berth, and had travelled by a service which necessitated
crossing Paris by taxi.  She never did cross
Paris.  Railway officials carried her to the Hôtel
Terminus, and medical aid was obtained just in
time.  For several days she was lost, like a mislaid
and helpless parcel in the international post.  As
soon as she could move again she returned home,
for Felix was by then dead and buried.\par

Lilian, on her part, did travel towards London
by the through Calais-Mediterranée express, alighting
at Calais extremely exhausted after twenty-eight hours
on the railway.  A gale was raging in the Channel.
The steamer failed to enter Dover, a colossal harbour
constructed in defiance of common sense for the
inconvenience of seafarers, and put in at Folkestone.
This detail changed the course of Lilian's journey.
She was lifted ashore suffering acutely from sickness
and nervous shock caused by the storm.  At Dover
she would assuredly not have remained more than a
day or two; but Folkestone is a health-resort, and,
installed in a big hotel on the Leas, she was tempted
to let week drift after week in languid and expectant
meditation.  Felix's solicitor came down several times
from London to see her and take her instructions.
From him she had news of Miss Grig and of the
business; but she neither saw Miss Grig nor heard
from her; the silence between the two mourners was
absolute; and Lilian would not be the first to break
it; moreover, there was no official need for letters to
pass, each party being always well informed of the
situation through the medium of the lawyer.  At the
close of the Riviera season Lilian had a flattering
surprise.  Dr. Samson the faithful came to see
her in Folkestone.  He was staying at another hotel.
He desired nothing, hoped for nothing, except to
exhibit his fidelity.  She had in him someone upon
whom she could exercise her instinct to please, and
to whom she could talk about the unique qualities
of Felix.  But also she had grown capricious and
uncertain in temper.  Perceiving at once that her
little outbursts charmed and delighted him, she did
not check them, but rather bestowed them upon him
as favours; and the gloomy, fretful, transformed girl
in unbecoming black played with some spirit the
rôle of spoiled virgin from whom a suppliant adorer
anticipates one day complete surrender.  It was
touching and at the same time comical.\par

As spring glowed into summer two factors gradually
decided Lilian to proceed to London.  Visitors
increased in Folkestone; the Leas were no longer a
desert, and she didn't care to be much remarked.
And further, Dr. Samson advised her to have her
child in London, and to settle there well in advance
of the ordeal.  He suggested more than one house;
but Lilian would listen to no counsel on this matter.
She gave out sharply that she would have Felix's
child in Felix's house, which was her house--and
nowhere else.  The ever-silent Miss Grig was still
there, but Lilian had no objection to her staying
there.  She knew what was due to her husband's
sister.  She sent for the solicitor and invited him
to make all the arrangements, and to report when
he had done so.  In due course she journeyed to
London, deliberately missing train after train on the
day of departure.  Dr. Samson accompanied her to
the doorstep of her house and Felix's, he paid the
taxi-driver, and then he shook hands and vanished.
She wished to present herself alone, and to this end
had postponed ringing the bell until all that
Dr. Samson could do was done.\par

The facade of the house had been modernized,
not untastefully, and was different from nearly all
the other houses in Montpelier Square.  The front
door was of a rich, deep blue.  The curtains of the
windows had individuality.  Lilian looked the façade
up and down and from side to side.  She had not
even seen the house before; no, nor yet the Square.
Felix!  It was all Felix.  "Felix" was written right
across it.  And it was hers--at any rate, the lease of
the house was hers!  It belonged to none but
herself.  She knew the fact, but could not imaginatively
grasp it, and the effort to grasp it made her feel faint
with emotion.  She was frightened, she was proud,
she was ashamed, she was defiant, she was almost sick.\par

"Why did I insist on coming here like this?"
she thought.  "No girl was ever in such a position
before!"\par

The blue door opened, as it were the door of a
chamber of unguessed tortures.  A flush spread
slowly over Lilian's face.\par

"Now," she thought, "now I am in the middle of
it all, and can't go back."\par

A parlourmaid stood in the doorway--tall, stiff,
prim, perfect--such a creature as would have refused
to recognize for fellow-creatures the cook-generals of
Putney.  Her mature, hard face relaxed into the
minimum of a ceremonial smile.\par

"Oh, good evening!" said Lilian awkwardly, no
better than a typewriting girl, and stepped into the
house.\par

"Good evening'm," said the parlourmaid, and, as
she realized Lilian's condition the face relented still
further and its smile flickered into genuineness.
Though her eyes and mouth showed that she was
virtuous to the verge of insanity, she seemed to be
moved, in spite of herself, by the spectacle of languid
and soft and mourning Lilian.\par

"Miss Grig wished me to say that she is engaged
for the moment.  She was expecting you earlier in
the day.  And shall I show you the principal
bedroom?  And if you have any orders....
Yes'm,"--following Lilian's glance at her trunks piled in the
porch--"we've got a young man in as will see to
them."\par

Lilian sat down on an old carved chair with a
wooden seat.  How characteristic and horrid of Miss
Grig not to be ready to receive her!  Not that she,
Lilian, the mistress of the house, needed a reception
from anyone!  Certainly not!  This notion braced
and fortified her.  A young man did appear fussily
from the dark basement staircase, and pulled the
trunks one after another within the house.  The front
door was then shut.  The hall and upward staircase
were already gently lighted for the evening.  Beautiful
silk shades over the two lamps!  Not a very large
house, nor very luxurious!  But the carpets,
furniture, and pictures had for Lilian just the peculiar
distinction which she had hoped for.  They recalled
the illustrations of interiors in {\itshape{The Studio}} which
used to come every month to Putney; and they were
utterly different from the Putney furniture.  Felix!
All Felix!  No Miss Grig!  Impossible that there
should be a trace of Miss Grig anywhere!  This
interior had been Felix's habitation.  In a sense it
was the history of Felix, his mind, his taste.  She
would have to study it, to learn it.\par

This interior was the first family interior she had
seen since Putney.  She was entering it after a period
of awful lodging-houses and garish impersonal hotels.
It was touchingly beautiful to her.  The baby should
be born in it, should grow up in it, should know it
as the home of memory....  Then it became a vision,
a hallucination, and the owning of it became an
illusion.  How could she own it?  Only yesterday
Miss Grig had thrown her out of Clifford Street with
ten days' wages for a weapon to fight the whole world
with.  All that had happened since was untrue and
hadn't happened.\par

"I'll go upstairs," she said coldly to the parlour-maid.
She had to be cold in order to be dignified.
Milly Merrislate used to pose like that sometimes.
The resemblance annoyed her, but what could she
do in her weakness against the power of the situation?
She did as best she might.\par

On the first floor the parlourmaid, switching lights
off and on, said:\par

"This is the bathroom and so on."\par

"Yes.  That is Miss Grig's room," in a hushed voice.\par

Lilian murmured no affirmative at the face of the
shut door; her eyes had a gleam of cruelty, and
involuntarily her hands clenched.  The house began
to grow enormous, endless.\par

"This is the principal bedroom."  They went into
it.  Curtains drawn.  Two soft lights.  A narrowish
bed.  The dressing-table naked.  A wonderful
easy-chair.  Polished surfaces everywhere.  Cunning,
mild tints--the whole mysteriously beautiful.  Felix!
She sank into the easy-chair, drawing off her black
gloves.  Another maid and the young man were
bumping the trunks up the stairs.\par

"Will you have everything brought in here'm?"\par

"Please."  She asked that two of the trunks should
be pushed under the bed; they were Felix's.  The
other maid and the young man departed.\par

"Will you take anything'm?"\par

"No, thank you."\par

The parlourmaid softened again.\par

"Some tea and some nice bread-and-butter?"\par

Lilian gave a smile of appreciation, and thought:\par

"I will make this girl fond of me."\par

"Up here'm?"\par

"Yes, please."\par

She was alone.  The room was full of secrets.
She opened a wardrobe, and started back; it held
Felix's suits.  She gazed at herself in the mirror of
the naked dressing-table; tears were slipping down
her wasted white cheeks.  Mechanically she pulled
at a drawer.  Neckties, scores of them, neatly
arranged.  Could one man have possessed so many
neckties?  She picked up a necktie at random, striped
in violent colours.  She did not know, and could
not have known, that the colours were those of a
famous school club.  She was entirely ignorant of the
immense, the unparalleled prestige of club colours
in the organized life of the ruling classes.  Mechanically
again, she put the necktie to her mouth, nibbled
at it, bit it passionately, voluptuously; the feel of the
woven stuff thrilled her; and that club necktie was
understood, comprehended, realized, as no club
necktie ever before in all the annals of the sacred
public-school tradition.  Lilian sobbed like a child.  The
parlourmaid entered with the tea and the nice
bread-and-butter, and saw the child munching the necktie,
and was shaken in the steely citadel of her virtue.\par

"You'll feel better when you've drunk this'm,"
said the parlourmaid lumpily, pouring out some tea.
"Hadn't you better sit down'm? ... It won't do for
you to tire yourself."\par

God!  The highly-trained girl so far forgot
herself as to spill a tear into the milk-jug!\par

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Lilian, having fulfilled the prophecy of the parlour-maid
and felt better after drinking the tea, had just
released her shoulders from her dust cloak and
dropped her forlorn little hat on the carpet, when she
heard a firm, light tap.\par

"May I come in?"\par

Miss Grig entered and shut the door carefully.\par

Lilian tried to get up from the low easy chair.\par

"Please!  Please!  Don't move.  You must be
exhausted."\par

Miss Grig advanced and shook hands.  Lilian
raised her eyes and lowered them.  Miss Grig was
shockingly, incredibly aged.  In eight months she
had become an old woman and a tragic woman.  (The
lawyer had omitted to furnish Lilian with this
information.)  But she was not less plump.  Indeed,
owing to the triumph of her instinctive negligence in
attire over an artificial coquetry no longer stimulated
by the presence of a worshipped man, she seemed
stouter and looser than ever.  She was dressed for the
street.\par

Lilian, extremely perturbed, looked at the
dilapidation and thought: "I have done this."  She also
thought: "This is the woman that turned me out of
my situation because she fancied Felix was after
me--not me after Felix.  What a cruel shame it was!"
And thus, though she felt guilty, she felt far more
resentful than guilty.  What annoyed her was that
she felt so young and callow in face of the old woman,
and that she was renewing the humiliating sensations
of their previous interview.  She felt like the former
typist, and the wedding-ring on her finger had
somehow no force to charm away this feeling so
uncomfortable and illogical.  She was not aware that her
own appearance, pathetic in its unshapely mingling
of the girl and the matron, was in turn impressively
shocking to Miss Grig.\par

"I thought I ought just to say good-bye to you
before leaving," said Miss Grig in a calm, polite but
quavering voice.\par

"Are you leaving?" Lilian exclaimed foolishly.
"I expected you to----"\par

"Felix left everything to you----"\par

"I had nothing at all to do with the will--I----"\par

"Oh no!  I didn't suppose for a moment you had.
Felix would never consult anybody in such matters.
I'm not complaining.  Felix was quite right.  He
made you his wife and he left you everything.  It
might have been different if I'd had no money of my
own.  But, thank God, I'm independent!  And I
prefer to have my own home."  The tone was
unexceptionable, and yet Miss Grig managed to charge
with the most offensive significance the two phrases:
"{\itshape{He made you his wife}}" and "{\itshape{Thank God}} I'm
independent."  It was as if she had said: "He raised
you up from being his kept woman to be his wife--he
made you honest--and he needn't have done!"
and, "If I'd been at the mercy of a chit like
you----!"\par

But Lilian, while she fully noticed it, was
insensible to the offence.  She was thinking as she sat
huddled beneath Miss Grig erect:\par

"Who won?  You didn't.  I did.  You thought
you'd finished me.  But you hadn't."\par

And added to this was the scarcely conscious
exultation of youth and energy confronting the end
of a career.  The man for whom they had fought was
dead and long decayed, but they were still fighting.
It was terrible.  Lilian's feelings were terrible; she
realized that they were terrible; but they were her
feelings.  Worse, crueller than all, she reflected:\par

"One day you will come and swallow your pride
and beg me humbly for a sight of his child!"\par

Miss Grig continued with wonderful dignity:\par

"As I say, I thought it proper to stay till you
actually arrived, and formally hand over.  Though
really there's nothing to be done.  I hope you'll find
everything to your satisfaction.  The servants will
stay, at any rate as long as you need them.  Of
course, I told them beforehand how things are with
you.  The household accounts I've given to Mr. Farjiac
to-day"  (Mr. Farjiac was the solicitor).  "And"--she
opened her Dorothy bag--"here are the keys.
Masters--that's the parlourmaid--will tell you which
is which."\par

Instead of handing the keys to Lilian, she dropped
them by the necktie on the dressing-table, where they
made a disturbing noise in collision with the
glass-top--as if they had cracked the glass (but they had
not).\par

"I think that's everything."\par

"But about the business?" Lilian asked weakly.\par

"Oh yes, of course, I was forgetting.  Mr. Farjiac
knows all about it.  I've left Gertie Jackson in
charge.  She's very capable and devoted.  You
needn't go near the place unless you care to.  I've
told her she should come and see you to-morrow."\par

"But are you giving it up entirely?"  Lilian,
who had heard not a word from the lawyer as to this
abandonment, was ready to cry.\par

"How can I give up what doesn't belong to me?"
asked Miss Grig, with a revolting sweetness like the
taste of horseflesh.  "The business is yours, and it
was never mine.  I merely managed it."\par

"Won't you take it?" Lilian burst out, losing
self-control in the reaction of her natural benevolence
against the awful bitterness of the scene.  "Take it
all for yourself.  I would so like you to have it.  I
know you love it."\par

Miss Grig's tone in reply recalled the young
widow to the dreadful proprieties of the interview.\par

"No, thank you," said she coldly, with the
miraculous duplicity of wounded arrogance, "I'm
only too glad to be rid of the responsibility and the
hard work--at my age.  I only did it all to please
Felix.  So that now he's dead....  By the way, I
think I ought to let you know that my poor brother's
grave is sadly neglected.  And the headstone has a
terribly foreign look.  And it's all sunk in sideways,
because you didn't give the ground time to settle
before you had it fixed."\par

Miss Grig's "By the way" information absolutely
effaced the effect on Lilian of the magnificent lie
which preceded it.  She was staggered and she was
insulted and outraged.  Had Miss Grig dared,
without warning her, to go down to the Riviera and
examine Felix's grave?\par

"You've been there?" she demanded brokenly.
Miss Grig nodded.\par

"I ventured," she said, with haughty deference,
"to give orders about it.  I hope you don't
disapprove."\par

"When did you go?"\par

"Oh!  Not long since," said Miss Grig casually,
carelessly, victoriously.  "I must leave you now.  I
think I've had all my own things removed, and I
hope nothing that belongs to you.  If there's
anything wrong, or anything I can do, will you write
to Mr. Farjiac?"\par

She smiled gravely, steadily, and shook hands;
and carried off her grief, her frustration, her
ever-lasting tragedy, safe and intact and with pomp away
from the poor, pretty little chit whom destiny had
chosen to be the instrument of devastation.\par

Lilian sat dulled.  The keys of the house lay
beside the damp and creased club necktie.  She heard
a taxi arrive and the door bang and the taxi depart.
A hot, dry, mournful wind of the summer night blew
the curtains with a swish suddenly inwards and made
Lilian shiver.  Ah!  What would she not have given
for an endless, tearful, sobbing talk with the only
other creature on earth who had worshipped Felix?
How she would have confessed, abased herself,
accused herself, excused herself, abandoned herself,
uncovered her inmost soul, at the signal of one soft
word from Isabel Grig!  Hellish pride!  Hellish
implacable rancour!  Glutton of misery!  The
woman had not even offered a syllable of goodwill
for the welfare of the coming baby!  Nevertheless,
Lilian's heart was breaking for Isabel Grig.  Who
could blame Isabel?  Or who Lilian?  The situation
inevitably arising from their characters and from
the character of the dead man had overpowered both
of them.  Lilian thought of the neglected grave, and
of the courtesan's prayer, "Eternal peace!  No
emotions!  Stretched straight out.  Quiet for ever
and ever!  Eternal peace!"  In the indulgence of
grief and depression she wanted to keep that thought.
But she could not.  She was too young and too
strong, and the edges of the dangerous future were
iridescent.\par

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Lilian slept heavily and without moving, and when
the parlourmaid aroused her with more tea at nine
o'clock according to order, she drank half the first
cup before the process of waking was complete.  Her
mind had been running jerkily:\par

"So she actually went all that way to see his
grave.  And I haven't seen the stone myself.  Of
course Felix wrote to her when he was getting better,
and told her he was going to marry me.  That's how
she must have first known I was out there with him.
He wrote on purpose to tell her.  And she went all
that way to see my darling's grave, and never said
a word to me!  It's her feeling for Felix makes her
so cruel, poor thing!  Oh!  But she's so hard,
{\itshape{hard}}!  Well, I could never be hard like that--I don't
care what happened.  And it won't make her any
happier."\par

The parlourmaid returned with a parcel.\par

"Oh yes, I know what that is," said Lilian.
"Just cut the string and put it down here, will you?"\par

"Miss Jackson is waiting to see you'm.  Will you
see her or shall I ask her to call to-night?"\par

"Miss Jackson!" Lilian exclaimed, agitated by
the swiftness of the sequence of events.  "Has she
been waiting long?"\par

"No'm.  Only about twenty minutes."\par

"Why didn't you tell me before?"\par

"I thought you ought to have your tea quiet'm."\par

"How nice of you!" said Lilian, with a weak,
acquiescent smile.  "But do ask her to come in
here now.  She won't mind me being in bed,
will she?"\par

"I should hope not'm," said the parlourmaid,
pawing the ground.\par

Lilian pushed her lustreless hair out of her eyes.
The sun was shining on part of the tumbled bed.
Then Gertie Jackson came in.  Absolutely
unchanged!  The same neat, provincial, Islingtonian
toilette.  The same serious, cheerful, ingenuous gaze.
The same unmarred complexion.  The same upright
pose and throwing back of the shoulders in
unconscious rectitude and calm intention to front
courageously the difficulties of the day.  The same
mingling of self-respect and deference.  She bent
over the bed; Lilian held up her face like a child with
mute invitation, and Gertie kissed her.  What a
fresh, honest, innocent, ignorant kiss on Lilian's hot,
wasted, experienced cheek!\par

"You poor thing!" Gertrude murmured devotedly.\par

"I'm seven months gone nearly," Lilian
murmured, as if in despair.\par

"Well, it'll soon be over, then!" said Gertie
buoyantly, in a matter-of-fact tone.\par

"Yes, but shall I ever again be like I was?"
Lilian demanded gloomily.\par

"Of course you will, dear.  {\itshape{And}} prettier.  They
almost always are, you know.  I've often noticed it."\par

"You dear!" cried Lilian, "and do you mean to
say you've got up earlier and come all the way down
from Islington here to see me before going to the
office?  And me keeping you waiting!"\par

"Why!  But of course I came.  I'm responsible
to you, now poor Miss Grig's gone.  I told her I
would be.  And I can't tell you how glad I shall be
if I suit you and you find you can keep me on.  It's
such a good situation."\par

Lilian lifted her face again and kissed her--but
not the kiss of gratitude (though there was gratitude
in it), the kiss of recompense, of reward.  It was
Lilian who, in allowing herself to be faithfully served,
was conferring the favour.  Gertrude was the eternal
lieutenant, without ambition, without dreams, asking
only to serve with loyalty in security.  In that
moment Lilian understood as never before the function
of these priceless Gertrudes whose first instinct
when they lost one master was to attach themselves
to another.\par

"Look here!" said Lilian.  "D'you know what
I want?  I want you to come and live here till it's
over."\par

"Of course I will," Gertrude agreed, eagerly ready
to abandon her domestic habits and interior for as
long as she was required to do so, and to resume
them whenever it might suit Lilian's convenience.
And all because Lilian had been beautiful and
successful, and would be beautiful and successful once
more!\par

"You must come to-night, will you?" Lilian
insisted, transformed in a moment into the spoilt and
exacting queen.\par

Gertrude nodded, brightly beaming.\par

"I do so want to talk to you," Lilian went on.
"I've had nobody to talk to for--I mean like you.
D'you know, Felix would have been alive now if it
hadn't been for me."  She burst into tears, and
then, recovering, began an interminable detailed
recital of events on the Riviera, coupled with a
laudation of Felix.  She revelled in it, and was shameless,
well aware that Gertrude would defend her against
herself.  The relief which she felt was intense.\par

At the end of half an hour, when the torrent had
slackened, Gertrude said:\par

"I really think I'd better be going now.  What
time would you like me to come to-night?  I'm quite
free because I'm not taking night duty this week.  It's
Milly's week."  And as she was leaving she turned
back rather nervously to the bed.  "D'you mind me
suggesting one thing?  I wouldn't have you over-tire
yourself; but if you could just show yourself at
the office, I feel it would be such a good thing for
all of us.  The girls would understand then who
the new employer is.  Some of them are very
stupid, you know.  If you could just show yourself--a
quarter of an hour.  It's for your own sake, dear."\par

"As I am?  I mean--you know----"\par

"Why not?"\par

"But would they----"\par

"Of course not," blandly and firmly decided
Gertrude, who had been brought up in Islington,
where the enterprise of procreation proceeds on an
important scale and in a straightforward spirit.
Strange that in Gertrude's virginal mentality such
realism could coexist with such innocent
ingenuousness!  But it was so.\par

When Gertrude had left, Lilian opened the parcel.
It was from Dr. Samson and contained two books
recommended and promised by him about preparing
for motherhood, and motherhood, and cognate
matters.  The mere titles of the chapters entranced her.\par

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Appreciably less than a year had passed since she
went down those office stairs, thrust out by the
implacable jealousy of Miss Grig, and yet in that short
time the stairs had shrunk and become most painfully
dingy.  The sight of them saddened her; she
wondered how it was that their squalor had not affected
her before.  She felt acutely sorry for the girl named
Lilian Share who in the previous autumn used easily
to run up them from bottom to top, urged by the
consciousness of being late.  Now she had to take
the second flight very slowly.  The door opened as
she reached it, and Gertie Jackson emerged to usher
her in.  A dozen pairs of ears had been listening for
her arrival.  The doors of both the large and the
small rooms were ajar, and she had glimpses of
watching faces as she went with Gertrude into the
principal's room.  She was intensely nervous and
self-conscious.  Gertrude explained that Miss Grig
had installed her in the principal's room months ago,
and Lilian said that that was quite right, and Gertrude
said that she had hoped Lilian would approve.\par

Tea was laid on one of the desks, a dainty tea,
such a tea as Lilian had never seen in the office,
with more pastry than even two girls could eat who
had had no lunch and expected no dinner; an
extravagant display.  Then a flapper entered with the
tea-pot and the hot-water jug, and Lilian smiled at
her, and the flapper blushed and smiled and tossed
her winged pigtail.  The flapper had a shabby air.
Lilian could swallow only one cake because Gertrude
was sitting where Felix had sat when he first told her
what she might do and ought to do with herself.\par

"I am so glad you've come!" said Gertrude, in a
sort of rapture.\par

"Yes," Lilian agreed with dignity.  "I was
bound to come, of course."\par

She felt wise and mature and tremendously aware
of her responsibilities; and she intended to remain
so.  Nobody should be able to say of her that she
had lost her head or that she was silly or weak or in
any way unequal to her situation.  Above all, Miss
Grig should be forced to continue to respect her.\par

"I suppose I'd better just go and see them all
now," she suggested, after more tea.\par

"They'd be delighted if you would," said Gertrude,
as if the thing had not already been arranged.\par

Naturally Lilian honoured the small room first.
The three inhabitants of the small room--two of them
were unknown to her--sprang up, flattered, ruffled,
flustered, excited, at her entrance.  There she stood,
the marvellous, the semi-legendary Lilian, who had
captured the aristocratic master, run off with him to
the Continent, married him, buried him, inherited
all his possessions, and was soon going to have a
baby.  Her famous beauty was under eclipse, her
famous figure had grown monstrous beyond any
possible concealment; but she was still marvellous.
She was the most romantic figure that those girls had
ever seen; she was all picture-paper serials and
cinema films rolled together and come to life and
reality.  Her prestige was terrific.  She felt it and
knew it and acted on it.  How pathetically common
the girls were, how slave-like!  How cheap their
frocks!  How very small the room (but evidently it
had been tidied for her visit)!  She recognized one
of the old Underwoods by a dent in its frame, and
remembered the stain on one of the green lampshades,
and the peculiarities of the woodwork of the absurdly
small mirror.  She was touched; she might have
wept a little, but her great pride--in her achievement,
in her position, in her condition, even in her
tragic sorrow--upheld her safely.  Tenderly invited
to sit down, she sat down, and she put expert
questions, to the wonderment of practising typists, thus
proving that she was not proud.  And then with
gracious adieux she proceeded to the large room
where, though her stay was (properly) more brief,
she created still more sensation.  In the large room
she surprised one or two surreptitious exchanges of
glance betraying a too critical awareness on the part
of some that she had sinned against the code and
perhaps only saved herself by the skin of her teeth.
These unkind exhibitions did not trouble her in the
least.  The demeanour of the more serious and
best-paid girls showed absolutely no {\itshape{arrière pensée}}, and
better than anybody else they knew what was what in
the real world.  Gertrude Jackson, the honest soul of
purity, already adored her employer.\par

As these two were returning to the principal's
room the entrance-door opened and Millicent Merrislate
burst breathlessly in.\par

"How splendid!" exclaimed Gertrude.\par

She had sent a special message to Milly, and
Milly for a sight of her new mistress had got up and
come to the office two hours earlier than her official
time.  Lilian was amazed and very pleased.  She
remembered that she had once spent at any rate one
night of toil in perfect friendliness with the queer,
flat, cattish Millicent; and now she insisted on Milly
helping them to eat cakes in the sacred room.  The
scene was idyllic.  A little later Lilian, having
arranged the details of Gertrude's temporary removal
to Montpelier Square, announced that she must go,
on account of some important shopping.  Gertrude,
sternly watchful against undue fatigue for Lilian,
raised her eyebrows at the mention of shopping, but
Lilian reassured her.  A taxi was fetched by the
flapper-of-all-work, and, noticing then for the first
time that the road repairs in the neighbourhood were
all finished, and every trace of them vanished, Lilian
gave the driver an address in Piccadilly.  Several
girls were watching her departure from the windows;
her upward glance caught them in the act, and the
heads disappeared sharply within.\par

"They are all working for {\itshape{me}}!" she thought with
complacency, and could scarcely believe the wonderful
thing.\par

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The pride of her reception in Clifford Street wafted
her easily up the somewhat austere stairs of the first
floor establishment in Piccadilly.  She had long been
familiar with the face of the commissionaire, and the
brass signs, of this mysterious shop, but never till
the leading word attracted her eyes as she was driving
from Montpelier Square to Clifford Street had it
occurred to her what the word signified.  The
deceiving staircase led to splendid rooms, indicating that
the renown of the establishment could not be spurious.
A bright and rosy young woman came smilingly
forward and gave Lilian a chair.  One other customer,
a stout lady with her back to the world, was being
served in a distant corner.  A marvellous calm
reigned, and the noise of Piccadilly seemed to beat
vainly against the high, curtained windows.\par

"Layettes?" Lilian began questioningly, with a
strange exultation.  The aspect of the interior had
revived her taste for luxury while giving it a new
direction.\par

"Yes, madam."\par

The esoteric conversation was engaged.  Lilian
sat entranced by the fineness and the diminutiveness
and the disconcerting elegance of the display ranged
abroad for her on the glass counter.  She was glad
that through culpable sloth she had done absolutely
nothing as yet with her own needle.  It was the books
from Dr. Samson that had aroused her to the need
for action of some sort, for she had had no wise
woman to murmur in her eager ear the traditions
and the Spanish etiquette of centuries of civilized maternity.\par

"I shall bring Gertie to see these to-morrow," she
thought.  "It will please her frightfully to come, and
she'll stop me from being too extravagant.  Only I
must arrange it so that her work won't be interfered
with.  Perhaps at lunch time.  Never do to upset
discipline right at the start!"\par

And she asked to see still more stock.  The
articles stimulated her memory and her imagination
into a kind of tranquil and yet rapturous contemplation
of the events, voluptuous, tender and tragic,
which had set her where she was.  The thrill of
conception, the long patience of gestation, the coming
terror of labour mingled all together in her now
mystical mind.  Her destiny had been changed, or
at least it was gravely diverted.  Instead of glittering
in public as the lovely darling and blossom of
luxurious civilization, and in private rendering a man to
the highest possible degree happy--instead of this she
was secretly and obscurely building a monument, in
her body and also in her heart, to Felix--Felix whom
already she had raised to be the perfect man, Felix
who might have been alive then if she had not one
evening behaved like a child, or if his sense of his
duty towards her had not been so imperious.  (Her
commonsense had at last cured her of regarding
herself as his murderess.)  Whether she had loved him
to the height of which she was capable of passionate
love was doubtful.  But she had profoundly admired
him; she had been passionately grateful to him for
his love of her; and, come what might when her
beauty was restored to its empire, no other man could
ever stand to her in the relation in which Felix had
stood.  He had set his imprint upon her and created
her a woman.  And so she was creating him a god.\par

All these movements of her brooding mind originated
from the spectacle of the articles on the counter.
They did not prevent her from discussing layettes
with the bright, rosy, shop-girl.  That innocent,
charming and unimaginative young creature fingered
the treasures with the casualness of use.  For her
layettes were layettes, existing of and for themselves;
they connoted nothing.\par


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Helen With the High Hand
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Anna of the Five Towns
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The Card
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Leonora
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The Regent
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A Great Man
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The Lion's Share
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Sacred and Profane Love
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Clayhanger
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Whom God Hath Joined
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Hilda Lessways
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Buried Alive
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These Twain
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The Old Wives' Tale
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The Roll Call
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The Glimpse
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The Pretty Lady
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The Price of Love
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Mr. Prohack}}
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The Grand Babylon Hotel
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The Loot of Cities
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The Gates of Wrath
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Hugo
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The City of Pleasure}}
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Liberty
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Fame and Fiction
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Over There: War Scenes
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How to Become an Author
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Books and Persons
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The Truth About an Author
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Married Life
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Mental Efficiency
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The Author's Craft
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How to Live on Twenty-four Hours a Day
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Self and Self-Management
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The Human Machine
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From the Log of the "Velsa"
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Literary Taste
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Our Women
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Friendship and Happiness
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Things That Have Interested Me
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Those United States
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Paris Nights}}
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The Great Adventure
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Cupid and Commonsense
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Judith
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What the Public Wants
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Sacred and Profane Love
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The Honeymoon
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The Love Match
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The Title
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Body and Soul
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